3rdtimestillfailed - 3rd Attempt At Tumblr…maybe 4th?

False alarm: I just needed sunlight

Honestly, it’s all exhausting.

Being overwhelmed and trying to hide from myself and existence,

then having to get on the phone and act like everything is ok to all the members of my immediate and extended family because all they’ll do is make things worse if they know I’m not ok.

It’s all shit.

And I can’t afford therapy.

Classic.

I love how I’m taking high level math classes with really complex algorithms and methods, yet my grade wholly depends on if I could add or subtract correctly 3 pages ago.

I still fail my own students who make the same mistakes as me.

I am the problem.

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Honestly, it’s all exhausting.

Being overwhelmed and trying to hide from myself and existence,

then having to get on the phone and act like everything is ok to all the members of my immediate and extended family because all they’ll do is make things worse if they know I’m not ok.

It’s all shit.

And I can’t afford therapy.

Classic.