Sometimes I Have A Feel That You Only Like Because Of My Body, Like You Don't Give A Damn About Everything

sometimes i have a feel that you only like because of my body, like you don't give a damn about everything i have to share with you and all the knowledge i've been searching for and want to talk about, my body isn't the only thing i work to have, actually i worked to have everything on me including my soul or my words that u refuse to hear. I don't have a good feeling about our relationship

sometimes i don't want to be pleasant or helpful

sometimes i don't to talk to people

sometimes i don't want to wake up

sometimes i just don't want to be alive

- Is this what it is to be a human?