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To everyone who listened to and related to our music in these hard times, thank you. More than anything, the ones who created the miracle of making us Grammy-nominated artists is you all, ARMY. Always, thank you, [we] love you. Thank you @RecordingAcad for this great honor!

Trans cr: Amy @ bts-twts © Please credit when taking out

TEASER

Pairing: Idol!Jungkook x Music Producer!Reader

Genre: Angst (bc I hate myself apparently), Eventual Fluff, Eventual Smut

Word Count: 1.2K

Warnings: Reader is emotionally constipated, Koo just wants love, yelling, crying, why do I do this to myself, omg the tension between these two I can't even

A/N: This teaser seems super angsty but I promise the full fic is really fluffy, too! The reader just is really battling some trauma and inner demons and all the confliction that comes with it. I know this is pretty long for a tease, but I got a bit carried away writing, haha. I hope you enjoy, let me know what you think!

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"Why do you always do that?" My hand freezes on the handle of the door, pausing my escape as his words resonate sounding as if he was speaking directly into my ear even though he was positioned on the other side of the room. 

"I have no idea what you're talking about." I state firmly, albeit shaky. I turn my head slightly to the side toward him, my eyes planted firmly forward. 

He scoffs. "Am I just crazy then?"

His voice cracks as it rises in pitch and volume, maddened at my anesthetized tone. I hear the sound of shuffling footsteps as he paces the length of the small studio we occupy. I almost smile at the habit, Jungkook always tends to pace when he's in his head.

"I mean, I can't be imagining things, right?" I hear him pause in place, assuming he's now facing me. "You have to feel it, too."

He says it almost as a question rather than a statement. I hang my head, eyes focusing on the light gray carpet as they start to well up. I take a deep, shaky breath as I try to gain my composure. I can never hold anything back with him, that's always been the problem. I thought I was as cold as ice, hard as stone. But near him I'm nothing but glass. He always seems to shatter my facade, pull out the emotions I locked away long ago. 

The urge to turn around and face him is near impossible to subdue, but I somehow managed to push the feelings down. I can't allow myself to feel for him. He's unreachable, even if he wasn't the most sought after man in the world. I can never compare to who he is. If I tried, I'd only fail. He's a shining light, a beam of beauty and I would only swallow him up in my darkness. I haven't allowed myself to love anyone in a long time. Loving him would only break me. 

My breathing stutters as I feel movement in the room. I don't even have to turn around to know that he is standing directly behind me. 

"You have too..." This time his voice is almost a whisper, his soft breath brushing the back of my neck. My hand falls from the door as they ball up in a fist, fingernails digging into the skin of my palms to hold back from reaching for him. The tears in my eyes start to fall as I fight the urge, my heart shattering in the process but I steel myself still.

I feel his hands hover over my arms, my body sensitive to his slightest movement. They shake as he tries to decide whether or not to touch me, knowing it's wanted but feeling it unwelcome in the current circumstances. I can feel the confliction in his mind. 

Just ignore him. He can never be yours, no matter what he says. Stick to your guns, Y/N. He's just another boy...

They sound like a lie, but the words still bring me reason, a new resolution, reminding me why I'm attempting to escape. The room feels heavy with tension as he waits for me to speak, our breathing the only sound.

But the silence is deafening.

My eyes dart back and forth as I try to put words together. A confession and a lie dueling for dominance in my head as my mouth stutters for a singular thought. 

I suck in a deep breath as his hand touches my fist, unraveling my fingers. 

"Turn around." Jungkook says softly, fingers intertwining with mine.

I turn my head to the side, still not able to make eye contact with him. I know as soon as I see his sparkly doe eyes filled with everything I'm terrified of... whatever resolution I have will shatter.

"Jungkook..." My voice cracks as my tears fall heavier. I clear my throat before straightening my spine and facing back toward the door, my eyes zeroing in on the handle. "Jungkook, let me go."

"Why?" His voice echoes through the studio as he raises his voice in exasperation. "Why can't you look at me?"

He grasps my hand harder as I try to pull away, tugging me toward him as my back hits the firmness of his torso. Even in my current state of mind, his touch still sends tingles throughout my whole body, melting me into him as my body betrays me. It brings me warmth in a way I've never known, and along with it the pain of knowing I can never allow myself to bask in it. 

"Because I'm not doing anything." The words don't even sound true to me, but I still try to fool myself into believing that I'm not lying through my teeth.

"You're lying!" He shouts. He pulls away from me, turning around. My body shrinks into itself at the loss of him, cold and numb. He laughs darkly.

I turn around, confused as to what could be bringing the laughter. I regret the decision immediately.

He's more disheveled than I've ever seen him before. I don't even have to see his face to know the agony that's in his eyes. His hands are buried in his hair, tugging it at the roots as if pulling it in all directions will somehow ease his frustration. 

He turns back around and his eyes lock with mine. My heart shatters at the state of him, cheeks red and tears streaming down his face. Whether they're from heartbreak or anger, I don't know. But, my resolution is slowly breaking away at the sight. Confusion, confliction, frustration, and pain all swim in those beautiful doe eyes and I hurt even more than I thought was possible seeing it. 

"You feel something, too! I know I'm not crazy. There's something here, I know it. But every time I get close, you run away..." His eyes bore into my very soul as he pauses, looking like a mad-man. The fact that I'm the cause if it makes me conflicted. On one hand I want to run and tug him into my embrace and tell him that it will all be okay. But on the other... I know it will only make it worse if I give in to that urge.

Slowly, he steps back toward me, reaching for my hands. This time I let him.

"Why do you always run away?" He whispers as he stares at our intertwined hands, a small crease forming as his brows furrow.

I look down at our hands, his fingers almost playing with my own. His are warm in mine. They feel as if they belong, sending warmth up my arms and to my chest. 

I take a deep breath before speaking. 

"You scare me, Jungkook." I admit, the whisper almost deafening.

There's a pause as he muddles over my words.

"Why?"

His hand reaches for my cheek when I don't respond, his fingers wrapping around my jaw and behind my ear. He gently turns my face up until I lock eyes with him, all the feelings that have been rushing through his mind can be seen clear as day in them.

"Why do I scare you?"

He pushes further, the crease in his forehead deepening. He steps even closer until our lips are mere inches apart, causing me to have to look upward to meet my eyes with his.

"What are you so scared of?" His voice raises as his lips curl.

"Because you're someone I can see myself falling in love with!"

My eyes stare at his chest, rising and falling with each jagged breath he takes. 

The silence seems to last forever before he's finally breaking it with a whisper.

"And what if I want you to?"

.

.

.

And I fall.

MARK LEE RAPPING'S SO HOT BRB IM GONNA CRY

I-

There are no words to express how much I died laughing reading this thread. Idk why but the first thing that popped in my head was Tae up on the tall chair decked out in gucci- like sunglasses and fur coat and shit- just looking on through his binoculars seeing me flailing and dying in the water looking stupid and just saying, "Hmmm... that's not the vibe." And I just DIED. I CAN'T. 😭😭😭

So I saw the newest BTS photos, specifically Hobiguard, and thought, “I hope Taehyung is never my lifeguard because drowning would not pass his vibe check and I would die.” But now I feel guilty because Tae is Good Boy™️ and Good Boy™️ would never let people drown! Anyways, I’m a huge fan of your lists, how would you feel about ranking the boys as lifeguards?

it's a damned good thing BTS are not lifeguards because your girl would have a fourth-degree sunburn from dragging my ass out to the beach every day.

but let's pretend for a moment that our faves had their own personal baewatch squad, shall we? 😉

jeon jungkook

holds all the records at the bangtan lifeguard academy. fastest swimmer, fastest rescues, best form sᴇᴇ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ɪ ᴅɪᴅ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ . takes his job very seriously. studiously ignores all flirting attempts because he's actually watching the water ᴛʜᴇ ɴᴇʀᴠᴇ ᴏғ ᴛʜɪs ᴍᴀɴ. hits the gym after a full shift spent sweating his ass off in the sun because carbs never sleep.

kim taehyung

you -- yes, you on your towel over there making a big show of applying your sunscreen. kim taehyung is well aware that you show up every tuesday and rub yourself down in slow-motion in a grand attempt to get his attention. in fact -- he's well aware that every woman on the beach -- the giggling pre-teens who show up in squads to stare at him, the wealthy stay-at-home moms who text pictures of him to their tennis buddies, the little old ladies who use their grandkids as an excuse to make conversation -- he's well aware that they're all trying to get his attention. but everyone gets the same treatment -- a tiny nod, a quick smile. after that, y'all better keep it moving.

park jimin

park jimin does not go to the beach to watch people, people go to the beach to watch park jimin. buys all his board shorts one size down, wears giant mirrored aviator sunglasses so know one can tell when he's looking -- and baby, he's always looking. it's a miracle no one has actually drowned on one of his shifts.

jung hoseok

the nicest guy on the beach, duh. smiles at everyone and everything -- always in danger of cramping that pretty face. memorizes the names of his regulars, brings his own bottles of water for anyone who forgot theirs. stays on the chair because there are things like animals! and insects! in the sand.

min yoongi

hates this job. all capital letters H A T E S this job. would gladly be pouring lattes somewhere dark and air-conditioned but forgot to look for summer work until it was too late and got stuck doing this instead. has toyed with the idea of quitting and citing his whiteness as a valid medical concern but this beer isn’t going to buy itself, is it? settles instead for wearing a neck-to-ankle wetsuit.

kim seokjin

forget the waves and the sand and the water views — seokjin is the natural beauty on the beach. he knows it, too. never ever ever ever wears a shirt because the people deserve to see these shoulders and abs. blows his whistle at no one in particular just to get everyone’s attention now and again.

kim namjoon

the hottest, sternest, most serious lifeguard on staff. reads the rip current reports. keeps a live radar app open on his phone. lectures anyone who attempts to hit the water without applying sunscreen about the dangers of skin cancer. has literally no clue when someone is flirting with him, thinks that person is actually interested in hearing about the migratory patterns of seagulls.

jungkook & jimin black swan  (cr. c_a_leaf)

Me too, hun. Me too😅😅

Even though JK is my "bias" I could never chose one. They are all so amazing in their own ways. One isn't better than the other. And this hiatus is really bringing that to light for everyone, I think.

Wait ur bias is Jimin?!? Wat about seokjinnie oppa

tbh if bts ever showed up on my doorstep and demanded I choose just one of them, I would just shut the door