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Ok so. "Why does this sound like a goodbye?" Was fucking heartbreaking, right; we have the full-on uninterrupted eye contact, the head tilt, Dean's already open mouth twitching before the scene cuts to Cas' "I love you," like he had more to say, but Cas beats him to the punch. It's great, we love that. But for the dialogue to be sequenced that way, and to have Dean reply with, "don't do this, Cas."

I'm only just realizing how fucking insane it was. And sure, I might just be coping here, at the end of the day who fucking knows, but look at it. Think about it. Now let yourself feel it all over again.

It's Dean's death knocking on the door behind Cas, and it's Cas' death emerging behind Dean. Like this, they're directly facing their own demise—but they're too stuck on each other, in their moment, to give a damn. And then Dean doesn't say, "I love you too." He says, "don't do this."

He isn't disgusted or ashamed or put off in the slightest by Cas' confession, because if he is then why is he on the verge of tears? In what world would it make sense for him to want to cry after his best friend confessed to him, if the confession was something he did not want. He says don't do this here, don't do this to me now.

Even if, and that's the most unlikely if to ever exist, Dean did not reciprocate Cas' feelings—don't do this is still so fucking powerful. Because Dean's connected the dots, happiness [...] is in just saying it, and Cas said it, so where does that lead Dean? That's right, with Cas dead again, trying to save him again.

Don't do this. Don't die for me, don't love me only to die for me, don't love me at all, just stay with me.

Don't let me watch you die again and not even let me follow you—because, at the very least, that was a consolation. She's gonna kill you, which Dean knows that Billie knows will hurt him more than his own death, and then she's gonna kill me.

"Don't do this," was actually so fucking powerful, I don't know how it slipped past me until now...

spn is such a funny show, it'll be like:

Naomi tells Cas he has to choose "us, or them" and 'them' is meant to imply Sam and Dean both, but then

she makes Cas kill fake copies of Dean only

Or Metatron will speechify about how Cas is "in love... with humanity"

and then give Cas another lil speech about how it was all "to save Dean Winchester. That was your goal, right? I mean, you draped yourself in the flag of Heaven, but ultimately it was about saving one human, right?"

Ishim shows up and tries to tell Cas how weak he is for befriending Sam and Dean

and then when he wants to "cure" Cas of his human weakness, that weakness is just Dean

AND THEN you'll have things like

Sam will say that Cas is family, that he'd die for him

but he also refers to Cas as an "it" just hanging around in a vessel strong enough to take on Lucifer (in season 11!! It's not like he said that in s4 or something, it was like 8 years after knowing the guy)

Or in "Regarding Dean," Dean will say to Sam "and our best friend's an angel!"

and then when he's by himself in the mirror, he'll say "and Cast--Cas is my best friend."

Wholesome/lil angst headcanon?

Lokius are recent husbands and when Loki meets Mobius kids for the first time, it reminds them of him and Thor as littles, so he decided that one of his objectives, is to give them the best parenthood he can, and no repeat his dad's steps.

(I just watched ep 5 again and something about mobius kids lil remind me of Loki and Thor... sooo)

Lokius hc’s:

Loki would listen to Mobius talk about jet ski’s for hours, just sitting across him while Mobius whipped out like 10 magazine’s and ranked his favourite ones

One night they were both working way too late, Loki had fallen asleep. No breaks were allowed in the TVA, so Mobius placed a blanket over Loki and finished all their work. Loki repaid him by conjuring a custom jacket for him

They always argued over which was better: Coffee or Tea. Loki was a tea guy, Mobius was a coffee guy. It’s been ages and neither of them can agree, although secretly they have been trying each other drinks out…slowly realising why the other likes it so much

Mobius only learned more about Loki’s bisexuality once they met in the TVA, he was fascinated with his story. He was the only one that made him feel safe and seen.

Loki always plays silly little pranks on Mobius, some days Mobius can see it coming but still plays along

Loki sometimes cooks for Mobius if he’s not so busy, at first Mobius was hesitant but now he can’t stop eating Loki’s cooking

Mobius comforts Loki when he gets nightmares at times, he’s always holds him close and reminds him he’s loved.

Loki does the same thing for Mobius when he overthinks about his purpose in the TVA

Loki thinks he’s hard to love, while Mobius thinks loving Loki is like breathing, so easy, so simple, just pure adoration and love for him

Mobius got hurt on a mission once and this sent Loki into a rage, he watched every step Mobius took for days and was extremely possessive of him

Mobius used to tease Loki about him and Sylvie, which he only did as a deflection of his own jealousy

Loki loves Mobius so much…he’s always afraid of loosing him, he constantly keeps him close, he’s the only person whose loved him this much in his entire life…Mobius always reassures him that everything will be ok, and that they’re going to be alright

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(a/n): very short and simple Lokius hc’s! honestly i just wanted to get some cute little hc before tomorrow’s episode! excited for ep 3 woo!!

Marvel will literally put a guy on top of another guy, chest on chest, and swear on their life they're not gay. BFFR

did loki just compare thor falling for jane with what he feels for mobius?

"and when he came back, he was different. changed somehow. I thought it was weakness. I mocked him. said he'd gone soft."

He just said these words while actively defending mobius after sylvie hurt him. He said those words while thinking about mobius and while standing in the pie room where they had one of their most intimate moments.

loki is different because of mobius. he's become weaker and soft because of mobius. the exact same thing that happened to his brother has now happened to him, and he's completely aware of it.

AYO NEW MEME FORMAT

Me and who?

Trying to fix what’s broken is hard. Hope is hard.

It's a genre and it's not my favorite.

VICTOR SAYS "CHAOS AND ORDER" AND THE CAMERA FOCUSES ON LOKI AND MOBIUS.

THEY ARE THE REPRESENTATION OF CHAOS AND ORDER

the fact Mobius doesn’t know Loki went to talk to Sylvie to DEFEND HIM and so he must think that Loki didn’t defend him and that he chose to leave him behind to be with Sylvie again. I’m gonna be sick

No but look at them. Sylvie is worried and runs off but Mobius is frozen and horrified. Mobius is the Loki expert. He knows the last time Loki said those words was when he let go and fell from the Bifrost. Mobius knows then that Loki isn’t coming back and just look at him and look at his eyes. Loki knew those words had meaning to only two of them, and those are the ones he chose as his farewell.

"You saved my life when I first arrived. You saw something in me that I haven't seen in myself"

And let's also talk about Loki SLICKING HIS DAMN HAIR BACK AND FIXING HIS COAT BEFORE GOING TO TALK TO MOBIUS I CANT EVEN-

Loki was watching Mobius all this time. He heard him. Not Sylvie or someone else. He heard Mobius. And he will "follow" him wherever he goes.

And one day they will be together again.

you should have kissed him, mobius

I do not have anything else to say right now

dean and cas watching some old chick flick that has some cliche prom scene and cas quietly asks “what was that like?” as he gestures to the screen and dean quirks his eyebrows up and asks “you mean prom?” and cas nods and dean shrugs “wouldn’t know, i never went” and cas blinks in surprise before asking “really?” and then dean tips his head back and forth and goes “well, sorta. i went for like 10 minutes and then dad showed up and said we needed to skip town for the next case so i bailed on my date and never looked back.” cas frowns and says “i’m sorry, dean” and dean laughs and says “it’s fine, cas. proms only good if you get a good date” and then dean skitters his eyes away and cas quietly says “i’d go with you” and dean feels his heart skip a beat as dean replies “i’d go with you too, cas” and dean immediately starts planning a surprise prom right there in the bunker and he gets a disco ball and silver and gold decorations and he gets cas a rose and finally after days of preparation dean puts on a suit and knocks on cas’ door and offers him the rose and asks “cas, go to prom with me?” and cas utterly beams as he nods and replies “of course, dean” and dean leads cas towards the deancave and music is playing on the jukebox and the lights are low and dean offers cas his hand and says “care to dance?” and cas nods and they spend the entire night laughing and dancing and their little prom with rock music is better than any movie prom…. and… when a slower song comes on, when they’re gently swaying to the music, dean isn’t sure if it’s him or cas who leans in first, but when their lips finally brush in a kiss, it’s a million times more fireworks than any movie kiss could ever capture

somewhere in the multiverse,

there’s a you and me that works

Short List of common nervous tics for your OC

1. Tapping or Drumming Fingers

2. Leg Shaking

3. Foot Tapping

4. Nail Biting

5. Lip Biting or Chewing

6. Hair Twirling

7. Throat Clearing

8. Sniffling

9. Eye Blinking

10. Shoulder Shrugging

11. Head Tics

12. Finger Cracking or Popping

13. Gum Chewing or Popping

14. Repetitive Sighing

15. Tongue Clicking or Clucking

16. Stuttering or Stammering

17. Pacing or Fidgeting

18. Scratching or Picking Skin

19. Humming or Whistling

20. Repetitive Swallowing

Reblog this if you are literally suprised when people find you attractive.

Forgiveness

As we know, Aziraphale prides himself on the ability to forgive.

So what does that mean? Why bring it up?

We have probably already seen enough posts about his final forgiveness on the final scene at the end of season 2.

.... after this intense and desperate confession of Crowley's love for Aziraphale, why would he fall to saying that? Why would he be so stupid to ruin everything with a phrase that Crowley is so sensitive to ....

He was sensitive to how he was himself. He asked questions and was punished for it. He was sent to the pits ....

He did, and will never admit it to anyone but God herself, that he wanted forgiveness but not from anyone but her. (Now note, that didn't mean he wanted to return to heaven. Heaven and God to him were two separate things.) He felt like he was unforgivable because the one that mattered had abandoned him.

......

So when sweet Aziraphale kept saying it...

I bet his feeling "unforgivable" weighed heavy on him. Something you'd think Aziraphale would know about him.

But.... that scene was a series of mistakes for them. Crowley's first mistake was reacting with a kiss. A very intimate action and quite possibly Aziraphale's first one. Their first kiss, period.

So how did Aziraphale act? With the bases of his being, the soul thing he prided on about being good at.

And he ruined the phrase by using it incorrectly.

He did realise it after a long period of confusion and fantastic micro expression changes done by Michael Sheen. So the elevator ride was even more heartbreaking cause he knew that he now had to make it up to Crowley by doing the one thing he pushed for that Crowley didn't like in the beginning.

Going back up to heaven to make changes.

Yes, he is a dumb-dumb. But he truly does love Crowley....

I can't even express how hard of a final scene this was. I could go on and on with a screen full of text about every detail of that interaction, starting with the Meta-jerk's entrance with the coffee. To Aziraphale and Crowley going their separate ways.

But I won't.

Instead, during my busy start to August of 2023, I'm going to work on a visual story of expressions, emotions, connections, and possible thoughts they might be going through when it involves eachother through out their adventure of discovery on Earth.

I'm not sure what to call it yet or if I'm even going to get any satisfaction from it. Especially since I've experienced this situation before and had an unsatisfying result.

But I'm going to try anyways.

.... yes, it's 1:05am here, and I got maybe 3 hours of sleep, maybe less. I don't know what time I fell asleep but I'm guessing 9pm and I woke at midnight .... hopefully, I can get this fixed later today with my doctors appointment.

I'm going to go to planning this project, and I'll be posting very rough sketches for the next couple of weeks. As well as my digital painting of the kiss image I drew. Thanks for reading.