
I am a simp for cillian Murphy, kaz brekker,Tommy shelby,silco,victor and morpheus/dream, Gregory house, hannibal lector, basically any morally grey man and love the dysfunctional found family's trope ♈ aries .pansexual and genderfluid they/them 🇬🇧 wiccan
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When I Tell You I Screamed At This I Screamed So Loudly At This I Love It So Much
When I tell you I screamed at this I screamed so loudly at this I love it so much

Trans Kaz my beloved!!
PSA do NOT bind with bandages please! Kaz is both careless about his own health and living in fantasy 18th century-ish Holland, please bind safely!
[ID: An image featuring Kaz in two poses. In one he is shirtless and has top surgery scars, and is wiping his hands on a bloody rag. There is also blood on his face. In the second pose he is instead using bandages to bind. He is rolling his shoulders and arching his back to relieve tension. End ID.]
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More Posts from Alex-kazbrekkersimp
I drew humanity a character from @gas-bunny although I put diseases instead of disaster by mistake but Oh well .

The comment made it so much better and funnier

wyd youre hob you come home and dream of the endless is on your couch with his shirt lifted up a bit
Kaz Brekker and Mutual Ma$terba$tion.
Be My Hands: Kaz Brekker x Reader *#~
18+ ONLY, MINORS DNI!
If you’re tagged it’s simply because I copied the tag list for Kaz.
Obviously I can’t control your actions but if you’re not 18+ do not interact with this post or Tumblr can get me in trouble!
(If you’d like to not be tagged in future smutty/spicy Kaz fics, please let me know!)
Description: 3.6k wc, smut/spicy fic with Kaz. Cannon Kaz, still has a touch aversion but finds himself and his girlfriend needing release so they compromise by verbally guiding the other while they be each other’s hands. (Kaz style aftercare featured)
Warnings: sexual content, mentions of touch aversions (anxiety & related notes), 18+ Only, cursing

Minors DNI, 18+ Only below the break; sexual content present
Kaz crumpled yet another piece of paper and tossed it to the side, still unable to collect his thoughts.
The heist went sideways hours ago and he hadn’t been able to figure out why or how he should’ve been able to prevent it.
It had never taken him this long before, he was usually done within a few minutes and spent the rest of the night sulking.
Meaning it really shouldn’t take him long tonight since it was only a minor deviation and not much of a set back.
He should’ve been able to figure this out hours ago.
However, y/n had never not been in his office after a night like this.
Kaz sensed things were tense between them lately but since he didn’t know why he elected to let it blow over.
As he sat alone in his messy office tonight, he regretted that decision.
Clearly that was another plan he made that failed.
Begrudgingly he rose from his desk, bracing himself on his cane as he walked to the door.
If she wasn’t coming to him, he’d go to her.
Kaz lingered outside her door as his mind raced to find the best way to greet her.
She was already mad, but he didn’t know why and therefore which side of him would be most helpful here.
If he let Kaz Rietveld greet her and she’d been mad about one of his triggers or weaknesses that would make it worse.
Not that y/n ever got upset let alone mad over that, but Kaz anxiously awaited the day he felt was inevitable.
If he let Dirtyhands Brekker greet her and she was mad he’d been too distant or mundane it would surely piss her off more.
He sighed, annoyed at himself for even allowing himself to get so attached to her that he cared about these things.
Kaz tapped his cane against her door twice and awaited a response.
He heard some shuffling around before y/n opened the door for him.
Her hair was a bit disheveled from seemingly running her hands through it, but it was clear she’d tried to fix it before opening the door.
“Love,” he greeted briefly, the versions of himself compromising.
She smiled nervously at him which made him sigh.
“May I?” He asked, tipping the crow’s head end of his cane in the direction of her bedroom chambers.
A room in which she rarely ever was, having usually been sleeping in his room while he worked.
Kaz watched her throat tighten as she swallowed before nodding.
He took inventory of her room, the way he would any room he’d stepped into where he felt unsure of his surroundings.
He’d been in here before but tonight he was unsure where he stood with her and hoped the room would provide him some clues.
Y/n’s bedding was wrinkled and the poorly made bed was evidence she’d futilely tried tucking the sheets back into place before letting him in.
Kaz tightened his grip on the crow’s head, despising himself for whatever he did that prompted her to chose to sleep here instead.
Sure it was her room, but he couldn’t recall the last time she’d actually slept in it.
“Kaz…” she mumbled, standing a solid distance away, “you look like you have something on your mind”.
Kaz pressed his lips into a tight line as he turned to face her, but was unable to look into her eyes and ask his question, “are you mad at me?”.
Her silence caused him to turn his gaze upwards from the floor and to her face.
He watched the shocked look on her face turn to confusion before she shook her head, “No Kaz. I’m not mad at you”.
“Y/n, do not lie to me” he grumbled.
“I’m not” she sighed.
He stared at her and took a step closer to her, noticing how her body tensed when he did, “you’ve been distancing yourself from me. Yet, you claim you are not mad?”
Y/n quickly looked to the far wall as if one of her pinned up photos was suddenly more interesting than this conversation.
Yet, in a whispered voice she still spoke, “I’m not mad, Kaz”.
Kaz squinted, taking a step back to create more distance for her, “are you afraid of me then?”
She snapped her head towards him, a concoction of confusion, shock, anger, and guilt storming her face, “of course not!”
“Then tell me” he ordered, closing his eyes for half a second to compose himself, “if you’re not suddenly scared of me, tell me why you are distancing from me if you’re not mad”.
“I…I’m… not mad… I umm.. I’m..” she mumbled, biting her lip.
Kaz gave her a concerned look and took a cautious step towards her again, continuing when she didn’t look away.
“You’re not mad, but you are… what?” He asked calmly, a foot from her now.
“Frustrated” she whispered.
“What?” He repeated, not sure he heard her correctly.
“Frustrated!” She blurts loudly, looking away and pulling in her hair, “I’m frustrated, Kaz”.
“Frustrated is synonymous to mad, love” Kaz sighed harshly.
“Not that way” she said, shifting her gaze around rapidly.
“I don’t und-“ he stopped, realization hitting him.
He’d read the signs wrong.
Her hair wasn’t a mess due to running her hands through it out of anger.
His eyes shifted to her bed.
The bedsheets weren’t wrinkled and a mess because she’d been sleeping in them.
“Were you just touching yourself?” Kaz asked, the tension in the room thickening.
He noticed she refused to look at him, so he gently tapped her toe with the bottom of his cane.
She still didn’t look at him but nodded minimally.
Kaz felt his face heat up and an uncomfortable feeling form in his body at her confession.
Well, it wasn’t the feeling that was uncomfortable, it was the knowledge he couldn’t act on it.
The knowledge that he’d found himself needing sexual relief on numerous occasions with relation to her and not being able to act on it due to his touch aversion.
He hated that he put her in that same position and also that he couldn’t offer either of them the release they both needed and desired.
The biggest irritation he had with his aversion was that his body still held the capacity for desire and sexual attraction but he couldn’t act on it.
He hated that he wanted more than anything to be able to take her here and now but the thought also made him nauseous.
“Show me” Kaz said faintly, his brain body desperate for a compromise.
“What?” She squeaked, her eyes finally landing on his dark and fully dilated pupils.
“Show me what you like” he repeated, taking a slow step towards her bed.
“Kaz, what?” She asked breathlessly as her eyes widened.
He looked at the ground in guilt, “I cannot give you what you want”.
Y/n began to interrupt but he held his gloved hand up to signal her to stop.
“But, I’d like to see what it is you want” He said, his voice shaking.
He wasn’t sure he could handle this.
Sure she’d be touching herself, not him touching her.
But, he felt he might combust watching her get herself off by doing things to herself he could only dream of doing to her one day.
“Kaz. We don’t have to do this” She offered kindly, sensing his nervousness.
“I want to. I want to watch. Touch yourself for me. Be my hands” Kaz declared, his pants already feeling tighter as he admitted this desire.
Y/n took a shaky breath but nodded and made her way to the bed, unceremoniously crawling onto it.
She wasn’t opposed to it, but she knew intimacy was intense for Kaz and she didn’t want to push.
Y/n bit her lip as Kaz moved to stand beside her bed, as close as he’d allow himself to be.
“Kaz, I know this is really vulnerable for you, so we can take this as slow as you need and stop whenever. You’re in control here, okay?” She promised, staring into his eyes.
Kaz’s eyes softened for a moment -as he offered her a small smile and nodded-, before they shifted back to their dark state with a recently displayed lust tinting them.
He’d seen her naked before, having changed in front of him countless times at this stage in their relationship, but this was different; for both of them.
She felt her heart quicken, her hands trembling with nerves as she shyly started to lower her pants once again.
“Love, don’t be nervous, if you need, I’ll guide you through it. Just be my hands” Kaz heard himself state, surprising them both.
Y/n took a deep breath of air and nodded rapidly.
Kaz smirked, his eyes closing lustfully as he let them both catch their breath before beginning.
When he opened them, his pupils dilated again seeing she’d stripped out of her pants and panties, her lower half now fully exposed to him.
“Fuck” he breathed out, letting a rare curse slip.
She blushed but kept her eyes on his with a small smile on her lips.
“Shirt” he said, clarifying when his request was met with confusion, “your top too”.
Y/n smirked at him as she slowly removed her shirt to display her bare breasts before him, practically making him hard right away.
He swallowed thickly, adjusting his stance awkwardly, “you are perfect”.
Kaz learned long ago she loved him complimenting her and while he’d let that vulnerable side of him out more often since that discovery, this was new.
He’d reassured her how beautiful she was the first time he’d seen her naked body, needing to help her patch up a cut on her rib and thigh after a heist.
But this, this time, she was laying here before him, not because she was hurt or getting ready for bed.
Instead, she was all but presenting herself to him; a vulnerable and important moment for them both.
Kaz stared into her eyes, making sure she was comfortable with what they were about to do.
When he felt confident she was, he shut his eyes and softly said, “show me what you were doing”.
She nodded, looking down at her waist, her hand moving towards her center.
Y/n gazed off into space as she slowly ran her pointer finger down her pubic mound towards her lips.
Kaz eyes fixed on her finger, wanting so badly for it to be his own touching her that way.
He took a shaky breath at the thought of his son on her’s making her immediately stop and stare at him with concern.
He shook his head to calm her worries, “Don’t stop. Just, talk to me during it”.
She nodded, remembering how he’d cling to the sound of her voice when anxious.
“So,” she said with a breathy shyness, “ when I find myself needing a release, I start with this”.
Kaz focused on her voice and explanation while his eyes studied her demonstration and instructions with such intensity it was as if her pleasure were a heist he must successfully complete.
After a few minutes Kaz had become more comfortable and realized the bulge in his pants was already a step ahead of him.
He blindly reached for her desk chair, knowing he should sit.
But he couldn’t find it without looking away from her, and he wasn’t able to do that.
Kaz stared as her thighs clenched together, firmly trapping her hand between them.
"Spread your legs. I want to see how turned on I make you” he said, looking from her seized legs to her dazed eyes.
Her lips parted slightly as she complied, her hand now being the only thing blocking his view of her full anatomy.
“More” he said, his deep voice betraying his pleading, as did his gloved hand faintly placed on her closest knee.
“I love hearing you moan” Kaz blurted, pressing his hand firmly against his throbbing shaft through his pants.
She looks at him through hooded eyes, the fingers on her left hand still inserted into herself.
“Curl your finger” Kaz advised, an idea forming in his mind.
Y/n smirked lazily at his newly formed scheming face as she followed his suggestion.
“No, no, your ring finger” he corrected, his piercing eyes that were frozen on her swollen and flushed bare skin around her vulva, unsatisfied with the choice she made.
“Oh saints!” She cried out, her head slamming back into her bed aggressively.
Kaz felt his dick twitch as he proudly relished in her loud moans and watched her hips lift off the bedsheets.
“Mmm, that’s it, good girl” Kaz said, his voice dark.
Y/N’s eyes flitted closed as she twirled her hooked finger around inside of her walls, trying to not be so loud as she didn’t want to risk the others hearing.
“Mmm, come on darling” he whined, “let me hear you.”
She stirred slightly before pushing her fingers in deeper, moaning pleasurably as her vaginal opening stretched even more.
“That’s it” he grinned, his sight clouding a bit as he unconsciously began stroking his length through his dress pants, “I want to hear you say my name”.
Y/n needed a moment, so she slowly pulled her now soaking wet fingers from her vagina and rested her hand on her stomach, smirking at him.
“You what?” She teased, pretending she couldn’t hear his request.
His vision cleared as he lightly glared at her, “you heard me”.
She hummed, dancing her fingers tauntingly over her exposed skin from her neck down to her hips, “I don’t know that I did… Kaz”.
Kaz’s head snapped to the side quickly, his hand reaching out and pulling the desk chair to him.
He sat down just as his knees threatened to buckle from the tension between his legs and the sight of y/n sprawled teasingly before him.
Kaz knew he wasn’t going to win this, especially in his current state, so he repeated himself, “I need to hear you say my name”.
She smirked at him, “Kaz”.
He threw his head back in frustration with so much force he was surprised the chair didn’t break under him, “you know what I mean”.
Y/n loved seeing him like this, over her.
So she decided to drag it out a bit more, smiling innocently as she asked, “no, can you elaborate what it is you need me to do, Kaz?”.
Kaz clenched his jaw, returning his head to its normal position and watching the devilish glimmer in her eyes, “don’t push it, you’re the one who needed this. I can leave any moment”.
Y/n saw through his bluff, tilting her head sideways as she pushed her self up until her arms were supporting her back and half raised position.
“Kaz, honey, you can pretend all you want” she winks, bringing her still wet fingers up to her face and tracing the outline of her lips, “but I can see the mess you're making of yourself”.
He froze in confusion, following her gaze as she stared at his lap.
Kaz felt his cheeks double in temperature as he saw he’d practically ruined his dress pants.
The material now wet and clinging to him.
He closed his eyes and sighed.
“It’s okay Kaz, but I don’t think you’re quite done” she whispered sweetly, “why don’t I help you?”
Kaz stared up at her, his eyes soft but jaw tense, “I-… I can’t… yet.. I-“.
She shook her head, “I’m not going to touch you honey, I promise”.
He nodded appreciatively.
“You wanted me to moan your name?” She asked delicately.
He forced a weak glare making her laugh softly, “I can do that. But first, remove your pants”.
Kaz hesitated for a moment before standing enough to lower them to the floor.
“Now your underwear, the poor things are very clearly in both of our ways” she added, Kaz sighing tranquilly as he pushed the hem of his underwear towards the ground and let his penis fly upwards when it was free.
“Now, cup one hand around yourself, from underneath” y/n said, her gaze never leaving his erection.
Kaz obeyed, shivering as his cold leather glove wrapped around his length.
Y/n moaned lightly, Kaz’s eyes jumping to watch as her fingers walked down her bare body to her clit.
“With the other, rub the tip” she whispered seductively.
Kaz didn’t hesitate to do so and mirrored her moans with his own as he did.
“Look at me” Kaz rasped as her gaze has shifted to her waist.
“Oh, fu-“ y/n sighed, the knot in her stomach growing.
Kaz clenched his jaw more tightly as he continued masterbating as she had requested, but secretly trying not to climax yet.
He was fairly certain the leather in his gloves was going to cause his shaft to be raw by the end of the night but he couldn’t care less.
“Cum for me” he ordered sharply, not sure how much longer he could resist his release.
Y/n sensed his predicament and puckered her lips to blow him a kiss, “just let go Kaz”.
Kaz shook his head, but as she resumed circling her clit he found his resistance weaning.
“More pressure” he advised her, having made mental note of what seemed to work best for her earlier in the night.
“Ka-Kaz,” she moaned, her eye lids fluttering as she pushed her thumb harder against her clitoris.
At that, Kaz’s self preservation disintegrated in an instant.
“Oh” he moaned, his voice breathy, “fuck”.
He threw his head back, his neck bending as the back of his head rested between his shoulder blades.
“Don’t stop doing what I taught you. You’re being my hands, remember? Keep moving” She ordered, a smirk painting her tone.
“Y-y/n” Kaz shakingly mumbled, his eyes glazed over, “fuck, you’re… fuck”.
Kaz was certain it was the least intelligible thing he’d ever spoken but the bliss he felt kept him from caring.
He wiped the white cream from himself and the bedspread next to her, too relaxed to be embarrassed over the mess he made and how vulnerable he was.
“Shit, Kaz” she groaned, her lips curling at the ends as she watched him.
“Cum for me” he repeated his earlier request.
Y/n chuckled softly, tiredly bringing her hand back down to her wet lips.
“Kaz” she moaned softly, her eyes glimmering as she held eye contact with him.
Kaz smiled faintly, lifting his cane.
He delicately tapped the side of the crow’s beak to y/n’s swollen clitoris twice before lowering his cane back to the floor.
She shivered at the cold sensation before her eyes darkened as she looked back over at him.
He nodded with a smirk on his lips, “keep your eyes open and on me”.
Y/n silently obeyed, her fingers picking up their pace.
Kaz’s smirk grew as he watched her desire increase.
He intentionally ran a hand through his hair, having been clued in that it was a turn on for her.
She grinned and shook her head weakly, letting him know she knew what he was doing.
Triggering another turn on, Kaz held eye contact with her as he smirked more before licking his lip, “so unfathomably irresistible”.
Kaz lips shifted into a cocky grin as she loudly whimpered his name, her back arching towards the ceiling and legs trembling.
“That’s it darling, just keep being my hands” he encouraged, watching as she softly stroked herself as she rode out her orgasm.
“While I must point out that we could have started this much earlier had you not hid, I do prefer the location” Kaz stated, handing her a towel from her dresser.
“Oh?” She asked, her voice still faint from her climax.
“It means I don’t need to clean my sheets” he smirked teasingly.
She scoffed, feigning offense.
“Hmm, well, I suppose we’ll see if the door will be unlocked next time or not” she teased, delicately cleaning herself up.
Kaz squinted at her as he pulled his trousers back up.
“Fine, I can begin washing my sheets” he complied.
“You haven’t been washing them?!” She gasped, wanting to smack his shoulder.
Kaz chuckled, a laugh he’d only allow the person currently before him to ever hear, “Of course I’ve cleaned them; you sweat in your sleep”.
Y/n’s jaw dropped as she stared at him in shock, somehow mortified over the idea of her sleep sweating in his bed, despite what just happened in here between them.
Kaz laughed loudly, his dimples showing as he shook his head, “darling, it was a joke. You’re perfect”.
Y/n placed the towel on the other side of her, turning to face Kaz as she tugged on her blanket.
He smiled tenderly at her - another behavior only she’d witness- before standing to help pull her blanket over her body the way she wanted.
His gloved hands were sure to never touch her skin during the act.
But, as he set the fabric over her bare chest, he sucked in a deep breath before he slid his gloved fingers under her arm to tuck in the blanket.
He’d touched her skin more directly than that by now, but after the intensity of the moment immediately prior, he didn’t want to risk ruining the intimate moment they shared by taking a chance.
She smiled up at him, her body relaxed and eyes heavy.
Kaz nodded as he sat back down in his chair.
“Kaz” She whispered, waiting until he nodded again for her to continue.
“Do I swear in my sleep?” She asked, making him laugh again.
He rolled his eyes, “I honestly would not know. It’s my obsessive need to stick to a routine that prompts me to wash our sheets, not you “.
Her shoulders lowered as she nodded happily, “okay. So your room next time?”.
Kaz smirked, resting his gloved palm a few centimeters from her arm, “as long as you’ll continue to be my hands for now, we can do whichever room”.
“If you’ll be my hands taking care of you, I’ll be yours” y/n promised, grinning tiredly at him.
Kaz nodded in agreement, “the deal is the deal. Now, rest”.
Y/n grinned at him once more before letting her eyes close, peacefully falling asleep. 

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Okay my life I done I'm happy now. No but seriously as someone is genderfuild and grow up not exactly accepted and kaz brekker being a character I relate to and find comforting and haveing this is has made me feel so happy and loved so I thank you so much it was a pleasure to read and will be suggesting many more ideas to you in the future .
Hi I was just wondering if you could write kaz brekker from six of crows x trans Male reader who is feeling dysforic (I think I spelt it correctly I'm dyslexic) and isnt feeling masculinely enough and just feel bad about themselves and kaz just comforts the reader and say things like your the most handsome man I ever layed eyes on and stuff .
Man I absolutely love this idea. Thank you for requesting it and I really hope you'll enjoy!
more than enough | kaz brekker
pairings: kaz brekker x trans!male reader
summary: when reader struggles about his identity, kaz makes sure reader knows he cares about him and supports him.
CW: gender dysphoria, soft and protective kaz


The bar was awkwardly silent, Jesper being the last person to stand up from the table and go to his room with a yawn, patting you on the back while saying goodbye. "Night, Y/N."
You were left alone with your drink, resting your head on your fist when you hear the familiar sound of a cane tapping against the ground. Short after, Kaz's limping figure enters the room and spots you immediately. You acknowledge him by simply raising your eyebrows at him as his eyes scan you up and down. "Not asleep yet?"
Kaz remembers the day he first met you on the streets, your strong and cautious spirit enchanting him completely to say the least, since day one. A lot has changed since then.
Ketterdam was not a warm and welcoming city to anyone. Man, woman, child, didn't matter. Full of discourteous and unpleasant people waiting for someone's downfall so they could tear what's left of them apart. Being transgender was rare in a city like that and it could be a lot of pressure, not expecting much approval from other people. But when you came out to Kaz he tried to show you the best of support in his own ways, just like the rest of the crows, and you were grateful for them. He always cared about you in sort of a special way and made sure you had a clue about that, again in his own ways.
But the endless questions about your own identity and gender, frustration and insecurity inside of you still like to visit on nights like these and Kaz was aware of that.
He sat down next to you, staying like that for a few moments and enjoying the presence of one another, before you finally decided to look at him. His expressions were always hard to read but tonight he seemed oddly relaxed, although it was easy to spot concern on his face; you being the main subject of his concern.
You sigh, exhausted, looking away from him. "You look like you have something to say, Kaz, so go ahead." You encourage while rubbing your eyes.
He abruptly switches from worried to stern and cold again. "What's going on.. with you?" Kaz asks, trying to sound nonchalant.
You thought about the question for a few seconds. Stress, chaos, anxiety would be a very accurate representation of what was going on in your mind. "A lot of things." You answer quietly, staring at your hands.
The sight of you vulnerable or in pain made Kaz's heart drench with sadness a lot more. He couldn't stand it. Allowing himself to soften his gaze, something he'd to for you only, he pleaded: "Talk to me, Y/N."
Your eyes traveled back to him, surprised to see his sudden gentle expression. His dark eyes were focused on you. Your breath hitched, not breaking eye-contact. Trapped words flew through your head over and over again. Openining up to Kaz never felt challenging once you've spent time with each other. It felt safe even, and he would agree.
You shook your head. "I don't.. feel like..." Anything you try to say stops in your throat, anger creeping your way while successfully biting back small tears. "I feel like I'm not.. manly enough." Kaz listened closely and paid attention, so you kept going. "I still feel like that after everything. My body doesn't feel like mine, I hate it and I don't..." You laugh humorlessly at the stress growing with each word. "I don't know who I am anymore. Everything I do to make myself seem more... masculine simply just doesn't feel enough. I can't do anything about it."
At this point breathing took much more effort, your heart beating like crazy. Those thoughts longed for an escape out of your head for as long as you could remember.
Kaz's chest rang with dull pain. He felt the need to erase anything that troubled you in this world or stood in your way. And he will.
"Tell me whoever made you feel that way and consider them dead by daylight." He threatened, more serious than you've ever seen him.
That made you smile. "I fear it's only my own fault." The smile on your face turned sad, and Kaz was now determined to make your smile brighter than it ever was. He steadied his breath before speaking again.
"Nonsense. You are more than enough to me, Y/N. Most of the time it feels like you... you are the only person worth caring for. Form of lightness in my life." He pauses. "And you're also the greatest man I've met. By strength and spirit. A man like yourself could own Ketterdam and much more."
His words made your heart melt right into his embrace, remaining speechless. It took everything in you to hold in tears that threatened to fall down your heated cheeks. He only looked at you in astonishment, showering you with esteem.
"Also if it's worth anything... I find you the most good-looking gentleman I've seen."
That line made you burst into laughter and it was music to Kaz's ears. The sound completely mesmerized him along with the amused look that suited you perfectly. "Cheesy, Brekker. Who would have thought?" Your cheeks were burning with a pinkish shade, causing his to work up the same color ever so slightly.
Beaming at him with the most genuine smile Kaz would sacrifice the world for was enough for him to fold right away, the corner of his mouth curving slightly up. As long as you were happy, nothing else felt important to him in this moment.

SWEET AS HONEY
NSFW 🍋
Pairing: Morpheus (dream) x AFAB! Reader
Warning: aphrodisiac used - both parties consenting, flood play, outdoor sex but in a private area, oral, face sitting, blow jobs, desperate sex, nipple play, overstimulation, established relationship, AFAB but gender not stated, french kissing, cum play, Cream pie, aftercare, porn with fluff, minor smelling kink from dream, implied both of you are switches, slight praise kink, LOTS of dirty talk
Absolutely obsessed with sandman at the moment. Morpheus owns my heart. My pathetic soggy meow meow. Been enjoying reading the fics on Tumblr and A03 and decided to give my hand at writing some smut for him!

"My lord, I am requesting your company in the gardens, it's been awhile since we've been able to enjoy a nice stroll."
Dream looked down at you from his throne. Tilting his head as he rested it in his palm. "Oh? And when are you expecting my company?"
"In 2 hours, I am assuming you're accepting my request."
"Always, it would be my pleasure."
You smiled. Turning on your heel as you marched out of throne room. Going straight to the kitchen to prepare some meals for the two of you, whilst dreams don't need to eat you weren't always a being of the dream realm. Once a human just like any other until you crossed paths with Morpheus. Gifted the abilities to walk through both realms as a guide to dreamers when he is away to important matters.
So whilst eating was not necessary, it gave you comfort. It was familiar.
But what was new was the small jar of honey by your hand. A gift. You gossiped with Desire whenever you could, they loved knowing every detail of your embarassing life. Listening to your worries and lack of confidence concerning their brother despite the two of you being together. And so, they gifted a jar of sweet aphrodisiac. A gentle one. One to give you a boost and spark your confidence. Strong enough to even effect an endless like themselves.
You needed to ask Dream before you opened it. You intended it to be for the both of you. And so you hurried along, getting your date ready.
You changed into something light, the sun beaming down on the realm was warm. The breeze cool. Perfect weather as always. You brushed out the blanket on the lush green field, admiring the fountain not too far away. A cobble path leading towards it and outwards, covered in moss and vines. The sound of the rushing water eased you nodded to yourself. Trying to calm down your racing heart.
You jogged back to the back of the castle, instantly colliding with the chest of the very man you were looking for. Looking up to see Dream offering you a smile. Small and warmer than the sun.
"Lead the way." Was all he said, linking his arms with yours.
You two took your time. It was peaceful back here. No one ever came out here unless it was for maintenance. It was the perfect place to be undisturbed.
"I have a gift for you but I want to know if you'll accept it." Your eyes flickered towards him. Your palms growing sweaty as you brows knitted. Worried he wouldn't approve.
"It's from Desire, up their mischief I assume."
He kept his eyes trained ahead. You just caught the small tug on the corner of his lips. Trying not to show his distain for his sibling. But he knew your relationship with them was friendly, Desire was kind in their way when they wanted to be. Even if there's always a catch.
Your eyes widened. A flash of surprise hitting you before you shook your head. "Of course you know." Looking up at him once more to watch his expression. "I was curious to try it but I need your permission, My lord."
"It is granted, i trust you."
Those words made your heart grow fuzzy. Trust from a being such as Morpheus was not easily gained. Often times it was given reluctantly. But you knew him, he was being honest. He truely trusted you and that was all you needed.
Once you two arrived at the picnic, you were first to move. Taking off your shoes and he did the same. Not wanting to track mud on the blanket. Sitting down and patted the spot beside. He followed you and sat down, elbows leaning on his propped up knees. You couldn't help but let out a small chuckle. His eyes snapped to your direction, a smile tugging ever so slightly on his lips.
"What amuses you?"
"Just you, my Lord."
You grinned. Eyes trailing down to his lips. So pouty. So soft. No Matter how many times you've kissed you still couldn't stop imagining how they would feel. Wanting it imprinted on your memory until you couldn't think of anything else.
"We are alone, starlight, I wish to hear my name from your lips."
"Would you like some tea, Morpheus?" Straying from your thoughts as you tried to not focus on the heat rising up your neck.
He nodded. Finding words not necessary as he helped you take out the tea set you put in the basket. Carefully pouring out the misty tea from the flask as you grabbed the jar of honey. Looking at him, waiting for him to say anything. Wanting to give him another chance to consider his decision but he just took it from your hands. Stirring a glob of honey in each of your cups.
You pulled out the box of chocolates you made the night before then strawberries.
"How fitting, starlight." He mused, grabbing the heart shaped fruit. It was a vibrant red, plump too. Perfect. Watching as you pulled out more fruit, blueberry and cherries. You made sure they were seedless.
Happily stretching out your legs as you got comfortable. Leaning on your elbows as you took a cherry from its container. Biting down with a soft groan. Dream mirrored your position and plucked the cherry from your fingers. His tongue poking where you bit before he ate the rest.
Your cheeks flushed as you watched him smile once more. "Very sweet." He sucked the juices off his thumb, not daring to break eye contact.
Finding your mouth parting, wishing to say something but unable to find the words. You took your cup of tea, taking a long sip avoiding his intense gaze. He chuckled as he used two fingers to push down your drink.
"Slow down, take it in small portions or you'll be too overwhelmed."
You nodded. Feeling a fuzz run through your veins. Trying to calm yourself as you took a chocolate. Shaped as a ball with a cream filling. Shyly pushing it to his lips, which parted eagerly to try what you made. His tongue poking the tip of your finger. That fuzz spiked into a shock of electricity. Already feeling it's effects creep through your system.
He took a small gulp of his own drink trying to even out your situation. A warm flush spread from his throat down to his stomach. His muscles beginning to relax as the heat caressed him.
You grabbed another chocolate, he did the same. Copying you like an inexperienced actor. This ordeal unfamiliar to him as he's never had to eat before, not like you. But he felt a small twinge of magic flow back into him everytime. After all, he made the trees bloom in your little garden, the kitchen you found yourself in made by him. His efforts to make you feel more at home.
Whilst he went to eating it whole, letting it melt on his tongue as he watched you. You took a small bite out of it, lapping up the white moose filling. Eyes looking up at him to watch his expression twitch. You felt pride swell knowing you were effecting him.
Dream took another gulp of his tea but this time a bigger one. His eyes darkening, trained on your every movement as you plucked more food into your mouth. His brows scrunching, holding back a noise as he pressed his stomach to the blanket. The slight friction felt like lightening.
You noticed. Looking down at the small tent, licking your lips. Of course he saw. He hasn't stopped staring at you since this picnic started.
"Hungry, my love?"
"Starved." You croaked out. Crawling towards him, careful not to knock anything over, your hands shakily reaching for his chest as you pushed him onto his back. Dream let you do as you please, enjoying the way you trembled. Your eyes frantic to soak in the sight of him.
Your body sunk lower, finding your place between his legs. Raking your nails over the fabric making his breath hitch. His muscles flexed under your touch as you began to unbutton his trousers. Tugging them down to his knees along with his underwear. Your hand dragging up his thigh to his toned stomach, lifting his shirt in the process. Each touch felt like fire on his skin, his breathing becoming more heavy. His fingers digging into the blanket as he tried to stay still. Trying to keep up his front of control.
He was dream of the endless. The nightmare king. The ruler of this realm and your king. The personification of the dreaming.
He was-
He was putty in your hands.
You slowly pumped his aching cock, relishing in the way it hardened in your grasp. Running your thumb over the vein that run along the underside. Your mind was becoming foggy with every twitch. Your own arousal becoming more apparent to you.
Suddenly, an idea struck your mind. Morpheus knew that look all too well. Biting back his groans as he tugged on your arm, wanting your focus back on him.
"What is that mind of yours conjuring?"
"Desire did tell me there were multiple ways to take this, I wanted to see what would be more effective." You chewed on your lower lip, still thinking of your next move. Trying to not get giddy with excitement knowing you were leaving him so desperate.
Dream had enough paitence to wait thousand's of centuries just to see the solar shower that happened across his families realms. But yet, here he was straining his body to not chase his own pleasure. His lips pulled into a small snarl as he wanted nothing more than you to move your hand.
"And how do you plan to do that, starlight?"
You grabbed the spoon with your free hand, your other than squeezing the base of his cock. He let out a shaky gasp as he jerked his hips up. Humming as you tasted the honey, it was sweeter than you expected. Sharp on your tongue as you kept it on your tongue.
Moving back between his legs and laid on your stomach. Holding his hips as your mouth swallowed around the tip of his cock. The honey dripping down as you sucked, coating his sex completely. His sensitivity going from 5 to 100. Choking out a cry as he throw his head back. Thrusting up into your mouth as you greedily took in as much as you could. Using one of your hands to squeeze and twist the base.
You sucked on the head. Swirling your tongue over the slit making him groan. His fingers ripping at the blanket, your hand kept jerking as you could see he was getting closer.
"You can take all of it, I know you can my love, Take it." It was not a command but a plea. His gorgeous eyes shimmering with tears. Just needing that push to the edge.
And who were you to deny your king?
You removed your hand making him curse under his breath. Forcing his hips to stay down with both hands as you slowly bobbed your head. Taking more inches each time as you loosened your jaw. Feeling him slide into your throat as you adjusted your head, pulling his cock more towards you.
The warmth of your mouth surrounded him. Feeling your tongue drag as you moved your head once more. Up and down. Taking everything right down to the base. He choked on his breath. Feeling himself tip. Throwing his head back as he thrusted harshly into your mouth, cum squirting in thick ropes.
You came off with a wet pop. Panting as your nails dug into his hips. The arousal between your legs was pooling. Dream watched you closely as you crawled up. Sitting between his legs as you rolled out your tongue. Showing off the mixture of spit, honey and his cum. It was filthy. You felt it but seeing his eyes widen only made you shiver. His large hands grabbing at your body as he yanked you towards him.
His lips crashing against yours. His tongue prying through your parted lips. Groaning as your tongues glided against each other. Able to taste himself fully. It was bitter yet intoxicatingly sweet from the honey. You could feel his hand on your neck, squeezing as he tried to pull you closer. You pawed at his chest and shoulder. Pressing your body against him as much as you could. But it wasn't enough.
His fingers making you squirm as they grabbed at your shirt. Only leaning back to remove, throwing it to who knows where. Your clothed heat flush against his cock. Both of you letting out a groan. You let out a squealed laugh as he started kicking off his pants. Reaching back to help him. Why he always insisted on wearing such tight clothing you'll never understand.
You let out a gasp as your back hit the blanket. He tugged down your pants, throwing them to the pile of your scattered clothes. Only leaving with your underwear.
Completely weak beneath him. Trapped under his form as he took in the sight of you. Rubbing your thighs together as you sought out your own pleasure. You needed him. Needing to hear more of his noises. To feel his hands on you. To be inside you.
All you could do was whine. "Touch me"
"I'll do more than that, starlight, I'll kiss every inch of your body as you squirm underneath me."
And true to his word, He held your waist. Caressing your sides as his head dunked down. Kissing along your jaw as he spoke. You rolled your hips up, trying to seek out his body but it was futile. Gasping as his knee pressed against your sex.
"I'll caress and mark your body, you are mine, I will make sure every being understands that." He kissed you down to your chest, sucking on the skin just above it.
His fingers swiped at the honey, taking as much as he could. Spreading it to both hands as he kept kissing your collar bones. Smearing the sticky treat across your chest as he fondled the flesh. Rolling your nipples between two fingers. Pinching them as the honey coated them.
You let out a loud moan, your sensitivity flying. It felt so warm. Like electricity was sparking on your nerves. Mewling as he tugged them. His usual stoic expression morphed into a smirk. Completely smug.
"Taste you until you're trembling and gasping-"
He grabbed as your side, kissing down to your nipple before taking it in his mouth. You couldn't help but grind against his knee. Growing more desperate as the aphrodisiac flooded your system. Already feeling it's sparks from the tea and now feeling it ten fold.
His other hand moved from your other nipple and now Infront of your parted lips. Honey coated them still as you took it in your mouth. Humming as your swirled your tongue around his digits. Your eyes trailing down to see his cock still hard. Straining against him. The head was blushing a dark red as pre cum spilled.
Releasing your nipple he continued his descent down your body. His fingers leaving your mouth with a string of salvia connecting to to them.
"Stealing every chance of breath as I devour you." He moved his body to lay down. His nose nudging your clit. Taking in a deep inhale, smelling your arousal. You wanted to force Your legs shut, embarrassed but he kept them open with his shoulders.
A scream was ripped from you as he tore off the only piece of cloth you had left. Leaving it tattered on the ground as he grabbed your legs. His back slamming down on the grass whilst you sat on his chest. You clutched at the ground trying to stabilize yourself after the sudden movement. Shaking as he just let out a deep chuckle.
Gliding his hands up your thighs as he tugged them forward. You hovered over him, thinking you were crushing him but he guided you over his face. You clenched air as you grabbed his head. "Morpheus...."
"Are you not my lover? Do you not deserve your very own throne? Sit on my face, my love, let me please you."
With that you let yourself lower. Clenching his head between your thighs as he licked a long strip up your folds.
"I could feel how wet you were but now I'm tasting you? You're more addicting than any aphrodisiac."
His words were going straight down to your core. His tongue lapping up what he could. Groaning as he tried to bury his face deeper.
"You've done this to me before-"
"And everytime I can't get enough." He breathed out. Pulling your hips down, putting more of your weight on him. Whining as his noses pressed against your sensative bud.
His tongue squirming between your folds, starting to tongue fuck. You squirmed at the sensation, moving your hips to chase your pleasure. Anything he tried to say was muffled. The vibrations sending you reeling as you moaned.
You let out a cry as he tried to shove your sex even closer. His senses were entirely filled with you. But he insisted. Wanting more. Needing more. Drunk on your taste.
"Morpheus - please -"
Your hands weaved through his block locks. Tugging them rightly in shaky fists. He groaned as he finally moved his head. Sucking on your clit, gently rolling it between his teeth before he lapped it up. Your body heaved as it struck you. Feeling your release get closer and closer.
His eyes locked with yours. Knowing you were hanging on the edge. Parting from your throbbing sex for only a second. "Come for me."
It hit you like a storm. Crying out as your body flinched from how hard you came. But Morpheus didn't stop. Humming as he lapped up your juices. You tugged at his hair again trying to squirm away from his vicious mouth. Greedily taking every last drop from you.
"Too much-!"
Yet it felt so good. Your back arching as you melwed. Rolling your hips to get more but everytime you did it made you tremble. The pleasure becoming unbearable. You sobbed as he licked your clit.
"Morpheus-!" You screamed as a second orgasm crashed against you. Gasping for air as tears ran down your face.
He finally pried himself off you. His eyes were fixed on you. Hazy. Eyelids fluttering as he panted. You crawled back, sitting on his stomach as his hands caressed moved from your hips now to your back. Caressing your spine. Hugging you close to him. Smiling to himself as you shook in his arms. Feeling every twitch in your legs.
"You are cruel...." You whined. Hiding your face in his chest. He could feel your smile as you kissed his pale skin.
"That was mercy, my love, if you allowed it I would spend the rest of entirety with your thighs around my head."
You moaned at his words but as tempting as it was you needed to feel him. Unable to cool the fire souring through your body. As soon as your high ended you were coiled tight in need. Your desire only growing stronger as you grinded back on his sex. Sitting up as you positioned yourself over his thighs.
"I need...I need you to-"
You couldn't wait anymore. The fire consumed you. Clawing at your insides as all of it screamed for him. Morpheus sat up, leaning on his elbows. Only lifting one hand to cup your face. Making you look at him as you shuddered.
"Take what you need, I am your servant, use me."
You gripped his cock, your thumb pressing down on the slit as you guided him towards you. Groaning when he brushed against your aching bud. Unable to stop yourself as you rolled your hips, bouncing up and down as you kept him flush to your sex. The veins running up his dick rubbing against you deliciously.
Squeezing the head as you coated the underside with your juices. Your brain too far gone to feel ashamed. Just desperate for more pleasure.
"And you say I am cruel." He breathed out. Only able to watch. Twitching in your grasp. Your pleasure was his, seeing you so desperate made his head spin.
"Please keep talking...."
You whimpered out. Nuzzling your face into his hand, using your free hand to keep it close. Seeking out more of his warmth.
He was not as cruel as you think. More than happy to guide you to your orgasm. After all, was that not his job? To help those who appear in his realm, seeking out their dreams.
"So desperate, chasing pleasure only I can give you."
His voice was consuming your brain. It was so soft yet so loud. Rattling in your head like thunder but feeling as gentle as rain. It was as rich as the chocolate you ate earlier. It was one of the things you loved so much about him. Ever since you heard it in your dreams you were always seeking it out. To hear every emotion he could muster.
And that needy breathless tone he was using now? Oh - it made your whole body burn up.
"I can feel how wet you are, completely covering me in your arousal, my love, I bet you'd feel so good clenching around me, do you want that? To no longer feel so empty?"
You nodded, feverishly jerking the head of his cock as you kept bouncing. Unable to reach the spike you needed. You couldn't bring yourself to stop. Too lost in the aggravating slow build of it all. It felt so good yet wasn't enough but you couldn't bare to strip yourself away from this pleasure.
"Morpheus, please fuck me, claim me all over again - I need you-!"
He bucked into your grip. Grabbing your chin as he pulled your face down. Forcing you to stare into his eyes.
"Keep begging for me like that, you sound so sweet."
"Please Dream, please my love, I'm already yours so just take me-! You feel so good- please! Fuck me." You let out a sharp shaky breath as you tried to muster your words. "Fuck me until I can't walk, be good for me, you're always my good boy- please-"
He let out a stuttered groan as he suddenly came. His cum spilling all over your hand as his back hit the ground once again. You gasped as you clenched the head of his cock.
Morpheus grabbed your hips, rolling you both over, aligning your sexes together as he glared down at you.
"I'm going to ravish you."
You didn't even get to say a word. He slowly thrusted in, letting out a soft moan. Shocked at how easily he was able to slid in. Bottoming out instantly as he did one rough thrust. You wrapped your legs around his hips, trying to keep him as close as possible.
Dream couldn't keep his hands off you. Grabbing at your body as he fucked into you. Your hands turning into fists either side your head, tugging and pulling at the grass below. Your lover desperately trying to ground himself as he lost himself in the feel of your warmth. Feeling every twitch and clench. The lewd squelching that came from between your bodies. It was all too much.
His hands finding their way to your chest, holding you just under your armpits as his thumbs rolled your nipples. Your body was glistening under the sun, still sticky with honey. Just as quick as they came, they were gone. His hands back on your hips as he kept you steady. You pawed at his hands and dream happily took them. Your fingers threaded together as he pounded into you.
You clenched as he hit that certain spot. He knew your body all too well. Knowing exactly how to make you see stars.
One of his hands left yours and moved to your clit. Rolling it in tight circles as he puffed out his chest. His head bowing as he let out a strangled cry. Your walls clenching around him more as your pleasure rose.
"So warm.... hugging me so tight- That's it, feels so good when I touch you here, doesn't it?"
You nodded. "Feels....so...good." Drool was now on the corner of your lips. Eyes wet from how intense everything felt. Your mind was going blank as speaking became a challenge.
Each thrust hitting exactly where you needed. His thumb working you up. That peak coming into your mind's eye as he rolled faster. Adding more pressure. Your eyes rolling back as you screamed. Unable to keep yourself to the ground as your back was stuck arched.
With your free hand you pulled him down by the neck. Grabbing a large chunk of dream's hair as your mouths crashed together. Swallowing each others noises as he kept his brutal pace. You could feel it; he was close too. You needed to cum with him.
Dream felt dizzy. Clenching your hand tight. You felt too good- sometimes he wondered if you were real. So perfect for him. Everytime you two delved into this ocean of pleasure he found himself reluctant to swim. Wanting to drown in every fibre of your being. You were his anchor and hardest temptation.
You were practically choking his cock. Even as his tongue pushed into your mouth you were loud. He could hear every gasp, moan and hitch. What has he done to deserve such a wonderful lover?
Morpheus couldn't keep himself together much longer. Feeling his release dangle Infront of him. His thrusts becoming sloppy as you mewled and whined. Knowing you were hanging on just like him.
Your legs wrapped around him tighter, pushing his hips forward. Wanting him just as desperately as he wanted you. Dream finally parted the kiss. Burying his face in your shoulder as he let out a loud moan. Slamming himself into you as your walls twitched. He trembled as small gasps of air left him. Little whines threading through them as he came.
The sheer force drove you over the edge. Milking every last drop out of him as your orgasm hit you. You hugged him tight as your hands pulled at his hair.
You both panted as your hearts slowly went back to their normal pace. He stayed buried inside you as he slumped. Laying ontop of you as you kept him in a tight hug like a koala. Your fingers now weaving through his hair. Soothing the dull ache he felt in the back of his head. He hummed as he let his muscles completely melt.
"That.....was amazing." You beamed. Nuzzling your face into the mop of darkness on his head.
"You were just as spectacular as always, my love." He kissed your neck. Morpheus mused. His voice somehow becoming even deeper. You let out a small laugh as you kissed his head. Thanking him for his kind words.
"Are you feeling okay? Was it too much?"
"No, it was perfect - what about you? How are you feeling?"
"Just as content." He hummed.
With that you smiled. Letting your eyes flutter, enjoying having him so close. The world blurring as you closed your eyes. Embracing the blanket of heat the sun gave the two of you. This was better than any dream you could think of.