#its 7:53 And Im Thinking About Carrots

#it’s 7:53 and I’m thinking about carrots

do me a solid and just reblog this saying what time it is where you are and what you’re thinking about in the tags.

guys i actually need him so bad.

Don’t feel guilty. If she’s making a big deal about you being upset maybe say that you like a more subtle approach. You should be able to convey your emotions. If you ever need to talk I’m here <33

I was meant to go see a musical but mum booked the wrong thing and it was like a uni student play? (It was Jekyll and Hyde) Honestly it was pretty shit but it wasn't bad

But like I was so exited and recently I've been trying really hard to seem happier in front of my mum bc last year she never believed me when I said I was happy and a few months ago we were arguing a lot over a bunch of stuff and just generally I feel bad bc I seem kinda apathetic ab shit I'm exited for. So she knew I was exited. And she knew it was shit bc like she was there and now bc she's worried I'm upset (I am but mostly not ab the play) she's going overboard to get me acting more upbeat and I'm so tired I cba

So in the car back I literally just wanted to do my resting face bc like I'm really tired and I was upset and she just kept looking at me so I had to keep smiling and my entire face is so achy. And eventually put on some songs we sing along to sometimes (and like if I don't sing along she's going to make a big deal out of me being sad) and i really did not want to do that

But now I feel really guilty bc I am upset ab the play (like I was really excited and it turned out like 90% screaming, forced jokes and overall just really dry) and ik she's upset too and my negative thoughts are going fucking crazy rn (literally crying in the bathroom rn) and I just wish I didn't act so excited. Like I was really happy we were seeing it and she knew I was and I feel so shit bc if I just kept that in she wouldn't be upset

And since when I go back out she's probably gonna see I was crying and think it was bc of the shitty play but it's not and I feel so bad. Normally I don't tell people I'm exited for stuff but I was trying to start doing that and ig I'm never gonna fucking do that again bc I'm having a full on mental breakdown rn

I have loved plushies for years. I have quite a big collection. They are just sweet little souls that bring more joy into your life! <33

Aren't plushies beautiful? They were created so a sick child had something to hold. They were created so an adult living alone might have a friend to keep them company. They were created for a teenager to clutch to her chest as she cries. They were created to accompany a college student to his geology classes. They were created not for any material benefit, they don't change tires, but to be loved.

They were created for the purpose of love.

Felt a need to draw hugs (thinking about sea grunks has made me extra emotional :’))