Sad That The Printers At Work Dont Print In Color

Sad that the printers at work don’t print in color

manifesting 😌

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I watched the first Top Gun and like, please tell me I’m not the only one who feels the gay tension between Ice and Mav like honestly talk about enemies to lovers

Went to a thrift store today with my best friend of 15 years. We’ll call her M.

Saw a cute sweater that just so happen to be in the medium section.

Now I’m a big girl, usually I wear 3XL or 2XL, but this sweater was plenty big.

I asked M if she’d buy me it because I left my card in my car and we’d driven in hers.

The first thing that pops out of her mouth and so loudly does it travel throughout the small clothing thrift store is, “Will it fit? It’s a medium”

And immediately I could feel my heart drop and my face get red. I could feel myself become this small little mouse and I said, “Yeah….it will”

I was in disbelief and honestly really upset because why make that comment? I have enough problems and to say that so loudly :/

After a while I started to put it back cause the more I stared at it, the more it made my stomach turn.

M tried grabbing it, saying, “No I’ll buy it if you want it!”

But I just said, “No, I just…looked at it and realized I didn’t want it.”

“If I hurt your feelings I didn’t mean to”

And at this point all I could feel was the lump in my throat and trying not to get publicly upset about it.

“No it’s fine. You didn’t hurt my feelings. I just don’t want it”

And then I tried to move on from it. Lately, however, all I’ve been thinking about is how entirely too big I am. How much space I take up. What I would do if I was skinny or at least 100 pounds lighter.

M knows how I feel about my body and to say that made me like shit.

Add it on top of my seasonal depression and I just feel…bleh. I feel like a blob monster that’ll never lose weight.

I do the diet and I do the exercise.

But I just feel like everyone sees the word “fat” when they see me ya know? They don’t see me as just me. It’s like my world revolves around that word and I hate it so much.

I keep trying to read fan fiction but this damn moth keeps smacking it’s head on my phones screen

Listen it may be the country in me, but I’ve said it once and imma say it again, if you wanna propose to me, do not buy me a ring…just buy me a horse….or a cow. Please 👀