ataraxiaspainting - i just want your love, so don't waste my time...
i just want your love, so don't waste my time...

☾ ( she / her ) ( panromantic asexual ) ☽ . . ♡︎( 18+ only please ) ♥︎ ( dark content + fluff ) ♥︎ ( 18 ) ♥︎ ( infj ) ♥︎ ( aya )

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Can We Have A Little Sneak Peek Of Your WIPs If You Dont Mind Sharing It?

Can we have a little sneak peek of your WIPs if you don’t mind sharing it?👀

MAJOR GASP!

honestly nothing fills me with more joy than sharing previews of my works with people, so sure!

life has been very busy lately (my research papers and i got another dog. she's a lot but she's my newest baby so i have to take care of her.), but i am slowly but surely getting back into writing longer pieces. too bad my brain is also all over the place, leading to a... lot of unfinished projects. thankfully though my planner is helping me get back into a less stressed-out mindset. :)

the main thing i am writing right now is a continuation of the chauffeur fic with yan aventurine. ratio will be making some appearances in the story, but sadly his presence won't be enough to save poor reader.

Can We Have A Little Sneak Peek Of Your WIPs If You Dont Mind Sharing It?

there is also another fic in the works for yan geto and a cursed spirit reader. reader will sort of be a similar type of curse to rika, where she is someone who has died but cannot exactly pass on.

Can We Have A Little Sneak Peek Of Your WIPs If You Dont Mind Sharing It?

finally, there is a yan gojo and yan geto fic in the works, and i'm hoping it will be sort of similar to scream (1996), in the aspect that the audience suspects one yan of the murders, and then the other one later on. very ambiguous stuff. it's very long so that's why i haven't posted it yet, despite working on it for like three weeks.

Can We Have A Little Sneak Peek Of Your WIPs If You Dont Mind Sharing It?

here is the posting schedule for these fics in particular most likely to happen (but not absolute):

blue silver (yan aventurine) -> 4/22/24

faith (yan geto) -> 4/25/24

more than words (yan gojo + yan geto) -> 5/4/24

thanks for the request, anon! <333

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1 year ago

Old Friend.

Yan Kenjaku x F Reader x Yan Geto.

Synopsis: The stranger looks all too familiar, aside from three peculiar mannerisms. How his fingers creep along the table’s edge. How his voice is too soft, too kind, and not at all cruel. How there are black stitches on his forehead.

Warnings: Yandere themes, kidnapping, misogyny, use of the word monkey, and descriptions of past physical/mental abuse.

Word Count: 900.

*~*~*~*

Flattery comes out from Suguru’s mouth one sentence at a time, the words themselves soothing but the tone not so. After being dressed in clothes you picked out, after being presented with food you loved before captivity, you feel as though you were just revived… reborn. This feeling is foreign and isn’t let into your heart all at once, but little bit by little bit, because you know that Suguru’s gifts are often never superficial, but you also know how fast Suguru’s temper can spew once he has had enough of your antics.

On your knees, that demand is always accompanied by Suguru’s pointer finger facing down to the floor, monkey.

Somehow that collar consistently finds its way into Suguru’s right hand, even without one of his servants giving it to him.

But yet, here and now, you don’t feel the same ominous aura. It’s something darker. Something that for once isn’t directed at you, but the servants Suguru always treated well. So, would that make his aura lighter? You’re not sure. Similar to when it comes to Suguru’s moods and false smiles and truthful lies, you don’t know what to think.

“Master Geto?” You ask, looking past him to the balcony exit behind him. With all the candles put on the table, his face looks nearly fully illuminated, but the shadow covering his eyes is still there regardless. 

“Yes, pet?” Suguru responds, his hands cupping his face as he looks at you. 

“I…” You start, your thumbs caressing one another underneath the long white tablecloth. “Just wanted to thank you… that’s all.”

Suguru chuckles at that. No. Not a chuckle per se. Some sound unknown to you, or perhaps the identity of such was forgotten by you after so many years of being here kneeling at his feet on the floor like a trained mutt. 

Speak.

I’m sorry, Master Geto.

Make it more desperate so I know you won’t make false vows unbefitting of my precious varmint. I’ll even help you. What happens when a dog attempts to hurt its owner?

“Don’t worry about it, [First] dear. You deserve a dinner such as this, for you deserve to celebrate too.” He has never said your name other than when he is displeased with you, so him doing such makes you wince. Suguru takes another sip of his sake, not paying much mind to your innate actions.

They get hit back, Master Geto.

Then what will happen to them next time, if they do it again?

Something will break.

“You look quite divine tonight,” He says, using his knife to split his remaining steak into quarters. He stabs one of the pieces with his fork and chews on it without making much noise.

“Uh…”

“Everything about you is quite beautiful… I can see you becoming my wife one day after all of this is over. That is, if you continue to be so cute and defenseless, it’s your place after all.”

What kind of thing? Speak up.

Anything. A bone… Something they like… Their spirit…

Correct… and what is that thing covering your hand?

“You’re not really eating, dearest… Is something the matter?” He asks. You find yourself questioning if Suguru's concern is genuine. After all, he has faked empathy towards you before, so this wouldn't be the first time.

“No, no… It’s good.” In order to avoid his anger, you proceed to fill your mouth with sake and sesame rice. This amuses him. Does he find your desperation endearing? That would be in character for him, now that you think about it.

A cast, Master Geto.

And what did you do to earn such a thing?

You… broke my hand, after I tried to use the pieces of that broken bedroom window to stab you.

“I’m happy you’re enjoying it.” He grins, leaning in closer. “I have an offer for you. How about we go outside for a walk after this? It has been quite some time since you have seen the full moon, hasn’t it?”

Finally, you can envision a vast expanse of twinkling stars right before your eyes. In the realm of dreams, they reside so near, immune to fading or descending. But you ponder if reality holds the same allure. It has been an eternity since you were last allowed to venture outdoors. Oh, how you yearn for a glimpse of the sky once more.

Tell me, do you think you earned such a thing?

…Yes.

Good. It seems you’re learning.

But the temptation stopped as fast as it came. Dread replaces it in an instant. 

This man isn’t Suguru. You know that much for certain. With every hell he has put you through, you have come to know him and his mannerisms. Those mannerisms are nothing like this man. The thought scares you. Is this man a curse, the same kind Suguru uses against you after every escape attempt? Or is he just a normal man who is acting like him as a placeholder of some sort?

Where… is Suguru?

“...Why are there stitches on your forehead?”


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1 year ago

i promise i’m working on requests… </3

requests should be at least halfway done by the end of the week, and inbox questions/comments will also be mostly answered by then too…

thanks for the patience, everyone, it’s just research papers are kicking me in the ass rn…


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1 year ago

Do you do OC's? For example, what if I were to request a yandere bully stalker? (Not a request) Is it alright?

honestly it really depends. i like writing for characters with a lot of depth and not really characters just formed out of the blue. if the OC in question has a lot of depth i can work off of, sure. otherwise i feel like it would be hard to write. the same for AUs.

(also please don’t think of yan OCs as being healthy. they aren’t. if you think that please don’t request things like that. finding the concept interesting is fine though. just don’t think unhealthy relationships are healthy. that’s all i ask lol.)

hope this helps!


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