Avaults - Anna

IT’S SO ACCURATE

Eye contact: how souls catch fire.

Yahia Lababidi, “Aphorisms” (via wordsnquotes)

minseok playlist:

teflon sega- press play and escape

miguel- adorn

6lack, jhene aiko- first fuck

akay, ayelle- lights out

andrew belle- santa fe

tokio hotel- what if 

exo- universe

junmyeon playlist:

lany- good girls

valntn, trevor dering- moan

maria lynn, toniia- all or nothing

lvndvn- moon lit district

drew vision- deep water

tank- f it up

exo- can’t bring me down

yixing playlist:

dvsn- with me

plaza- all mine

anders- the wall

stwo, jeremih- neither do I

alextbh, sam rui- you

xavier omar- if this is love

exo- cloud 9

jongdae playlist:

sg lewis- yours

jeris- the fix

alina baraz, galantis- make you feel

the weeknd- wicked games

smnm- everything

blood orange- better than me

exo- heaven

baekhyun playlist:

cigarettes after sex- k

kehlani, chance the rapper- the way

andrew belle- in my vains

jeremih- oui

of methodist- authority

guordan banks- wanna be yours

exo- lotto

chanyeol playlist:

tory lanez- say it

the weeknd- acquainted

blackbear- santa monica & la brea

sonder- too fast

tinashe, snakehips, chance the rapper- all my friends

j cole- wet dreamz

exo- she’s dreaming

kyungsoo playlist:

dvsn- think about me

partynextdoor- come and see me

daniel caesar, kali uchis- get you

r.lum.r- frustrated

kevin ross- don’t go

saint motel- my type

exo- they never know

jongin playlist:

oh wonder- shark

russ- losin control

leach- little taste of heaven

elhae- needs

en vogue- rocket

miguel- sure thing

exo- white noise

sehun playlist:

bryson tiller- let me explain

cigarettes after sex- nothing’s gonna hurt you baby

a.chal- gazi

daft punk- the game of love

brent faiyaz- lovely

sophie meiers, michael mason- don’t be scared

exo- artificial love

Writing isn’t just sitting down and word-vomitting.

It’s plotting your story, coming up with the characters and their personalities, coming up with their interactions, setting the mood, thinking of the right words to say for someone like that in that type of situation, wondering if your character is doing something that is out of character, wondering if you’ve managed to describe them the way you see them in your head.

It’s sitting down and struggling to bring those characters to life. 

It’s questioning yourself and getting that suffocating feeling in your chest when you think about your own writing.

It’s somehow managing to put all of that into words and then editing your own writing time and time again because you’re scared of the reaction you’re going to get from nameless strangers.

It’s questioning your own word choices, your own phrasing, your knowledge of the language, your ability to tell this story that’s been in your head for days, weeks, months, sometimes even longer.

It’s questioning if you’re good enough to put those thoughts into words, it’s questioning if those words are good enough.

Writing is never feeling like you did a good enough job at putting down those characters and events into words, it’s doubting yourself every step of the way.

It’s clicking that post button and then waiting in fear of the reaction.

Writing is sometimes not getting a reaction at all.

It’s going through the tags and finding a back-handed compliment that makes you want to cry because it just proves that your insecurities are true and that you shouldn’t be writing in the first place, that you’re not good enough.

It’s getting negative feedback because you didn’t write what some nameless person wanted to read, it’s getting hate because you decide to tell your own story in your own words.

It’s getting hate because you decided to include or not to include a smut scene in your story.

It’s getting constant asks about updates that make you feel that you’re not worth anything to your readers, that you’re there as a robot that’s meant to sit and be quiet and produce content that they like otherwise you’ll get punished with constant asks and hate.

Writing is waiting for feedback that never comes, which makes you doubt yourself. Writing is watching other people get more feedback, which makes you want to stop writing. Writing is getting feedback, but seeing other people not get feedback, which makes you feel guilty, and makes other writers resent you and exclude you from everything.

All in all, writing is giving a large number of nameless people a part of yourself in a story that took you a long time to come up with and put into words, but also giving them the power to give their feedback, ignore your story, or spew negativity your way. 

But, writing is a talent and I’m proud of you for writing despite all of that. You’re good enough and your efforts aren’t going to waste. You’re getting better at writing with every story you write. Regardless of the kind of content you write, regardless of the length, the genre, the feedback, the notes, the reblogs, the mentions… You’re good enough, you have a talent, and I’m happy you’re choosing to share it with the world. Don’t let the lack of feedback or negative feedback bring you down. Don’t let it turn you against other writers. Do what you love doing and the rest will come. All in good time.