Growing Up Undiagnosed Autistic Is Like 'huh. I Wonder Why I Feel Almost Like An Alien Compared To Everyone

growing up undiagnosed autistic is like 'huh. i wonder why i feel almost like an alien compared to everyone else and why i have this feeling that i'm fundamentally different from everyone else in a way that i can't really comprehend. how peculiar that it feels like everyone just gets these things i cant possibly wrap my head around. its awfully strange how despite also being mocked and ridiculed for being different, people will also tell me that i'm overthinking and i'm just 'normal like everyone else''. and then time passes and then you have The Realization.

I think we can last forever, I am afraid everything will disappear, just trust me.

Lost in the lights, I'm outta my mind it holds to the end of this night every night you spin me up high the moon that embraces you, let me have a taste.

autism memes made by neurotypicals: you say i'm autistic, i say i'm AUSOME! 😋🥰🙏 autism memes made by autistic people: the sun is too loud and it takes me three hours to get out of bed.

Folks have got to understand that they probably aren't messed up by some Secret Big Trauma that they just can't remember; but rather by a million tiny microtraumas that they do mostly remember but don't even register as traumatic because nobody actually understood that these things would cause trauma, much less stack on each other over the years.

having adhd is like "fuck, it's half past noon. that pretty much means it's one o'clock. that means it's lunchtime. that means it's pretty much three. that means it's almost five o'clock, and that means the day is pretty much over and i don't have time for any of the things i was going to do today :( time to scroll aimlessly through social media until bedtime"

"a joy to have in class" aka This Child Will Not Be Diagnosed for at least Eight Years