I Got My First Big Boy Chain Yesterday. It Was Just 2.30 At The Hardware Store, I Picked One I Really

I got my first big boy chain yesterday. It was just €2.30 at the hardware store, I picked one I really liked, silver, long hoops, a little on the heavier side, quite large overall (maybe I'm overcompensating). I felt really good about it and went out and bumped into my sister's husband. He's a big metal head, I looked up to him throughout my childhood for how cool he looked, I wanted chains like his all my life and.. he complimented them. I just started getting into this and I already got the greatest compliment I ever could, things can't get any better than this.

My sister, a metal head as well of course, recommended italian punk bands to me as well and I'm very happy about it, I didn't know any prior so this is great.

I've yet to learn how to deal with my psychosis but my family has been very supportive and willing to accompany me anywhere I need to keep me safe from the intruders when I am sure they're in the house. still no idea how to handle the electronics being haunted or the people being replaced since that requires me to do things on my own more but oh well.

things people have done to help me during a psychoses episode

i was on the buss and i hallucinated bugs crawling all over my hands, so my friend pulled my hoodie sleeves over them with permission and held my hands through the sleeves to "keep them off". they used the logic you would in a real bug situation.

i went nonverbal in a bad one in class, so my friend wrote me a note to give to the nurse since the teacher wouldn't let her go with me.

i often am very paranoid about the delusion that meat is actually rotten, so my dad will sometimes eat a bit of it before me

instead of telling me my delusions arent real, they help me through it using logic like it was real. they dont tell me that nothings going to hurt me in my sleep, they stay with me to keep me safe. then when it passes i can realize its not real

my fiance @waxingwolf and I.

he's a goth and he inspires me a lot to be myself and not care what other people think, he's really cool.

I tried getting into goth before but I don't think it suits what I'm looking for as much as punk does, but I'm not a punk yet, I'm still in training.

I've been crossdressing for a long time, I really enjoy the feeling of being pretty and feminine from time to time, colourful wigs are also really nice to have.

I used to identify as a femboy just about 3 years ago as well, but I don't anymore.

I'm not really a feminine guy anymore, I'm either me or a cute doll to dress up.

anyway a week ago I got myself a skirt, a kind I'd wanted for years now but couldn't find and felt too intimidated to make (my sewing skills leave a lot to be desired sadly). it's long, pleaded and black. it's not for crossdressing and it's not for femboy purposes.

this is my man skirt, cause honestly what makes a skirt a man skirt? well, it's that a man is wearing it.

anyway societal norms can kiss my ass, I'm going to dress however I want and it won't make me anything other than me.