What A Lovely Answer To The Questions About The Paintings, And A Very Cultured One Too.

What a lovely answer to the questions about the paintings, and a very cultured one too.

Do you find there's much crossover between your philosophy and your music studies?

I truly do not think there is any kind of crossover between philosophy and music.

Philosophy keeps me alive by creating questions I will never be fully capable of answering. It does not persue truth, but understands that what we really need is doubt. That is to survive, at least.

It's raw and cruel. And needed.

It likes to slap me in the face and prevent me from breathing. Philosophy is the reason I lose sleep and spend most nights at the library. It's why I can't seem to ever be able to stop talking so fast or hyperventilating.

My piano gives me clarity and whispers as if it were scared to startle me. Even when I'm playing Prokofiev, who's supposed to shake you to your core, I am at peace. Music caresses me and holds me as no one ever could do. I am fragile and vulnerable, and life seems to be placid when I am in its presence.

It puts me to sleep and tucks me in. It never forgets to kiss my forehead. Nothing exists and every thought I have ever had disappears into thin air.

It's all about balance: one would make me kill myself horribly and painfully, meanwhile the other would put me to sleep forever in its warm arms. My soul demands both to keep me here.

In neither scenario do I have any kind of answers, though. I'm starting to accept it lol.

And here I was thinking the last answer was great, but that one is fantastic.

As someone who hasn't delved too deeply into either subject, I wasn't sure if there would be anything in one that carries over to the other, but that truly was a fascinating answer that you gave, thank you.

And all written from a phone as well, clearly you're very gifted.

A completely different question if you will indulge me - what are some of your favourite smells?

You are such an adulator.

Also, you keep asking questions and remaining anonymous: quite a contradicting behaviour.

Anyway, my favourite smell is cinnamon. Conditioner, body wash, lotion, hand cream: I love it if it's cinnamon scented, but apparently, it's quite difficult to find. Yves Rocher does a cinnamon line in winter and every year I stock up on everything.

I also love to boil cinnamon to make the house smell like it.

But my actual perfume is Euphoria by Calvin Klein. As long as I can remember, I have always used it and I think it stuck with me. So, I guess it's one of my favourite smells.

Doms that crave you like you crave them. That pant as they kiss you aggressively, that leave marks everywhere because they love seeing them.

That fuck you so hard because they desperately need to feel you around them, that make you cum over and over again because it’s just so intoxicating to them.

Needy doms!!!!

born to be the clingiest girl in the world, actually

obsessed with the thought of someone getting off thinking about me