This Hit Me Hard

this hit me hard

“Dad… Thanks for everything.”

My feels

this is absolutely heartbreaking and beautiful at the same time, I am numb and my heart hurts

A mood honestly

there is no reason for me to be as dumb as i am yet here i am

I LOVE YOU JUNG JAEHYUN

Jaehyun must’ve gone through it, for a while. 

To finally admit it. The fact that he cant even look at the camera until he’s admitting he’s not perfect and how hard he tries to be. 

He’s telling us this because he wants us to give him our love and support. With his bare face. and not because he’s wearing the sexiest clothes, having the best abs or his face is looking particularly fine that day.

Having abs, flawless skin and physique and face. EVERYDAY? He’s human. Not a robot. He would waste waste his life away pretending to be otherwise. 

Stans are always praising Hyuk, Doyoung and Taeil for vocals or Mark and Taeyong for rapping or dancing. But Jaehyun? There’s never a fuss till he makes a boyfriend video or pulls up his shirt. 

HIS DANCING. HIS SINGING. HIS HARD WORK. HIS KINDNESS. HIS HUMOR.

Lets reward his honesty with support. And make this guy fall asleep with a smile because he knows his fans absolutely adore him and not just cause they lust for him. Because they appreciate all the work he puts into perfecting his skills and who he is as a person. And they let him know this.

Imagine busting sleepless nights to perfect a performance, checking your fan cam and seeing that all anyone talked about was that half second your torso was exposed and nothing else.

Reduced you to something so superficial. It’s more than okay to fan girl but remember to praise their hard work once in a while. It means so much to them.

And don’t pretend to support idols but the moment they show you they have flab, scars or pimples like a normal person, you say “This isn’t who I remember him to be” this is who he’s not forcing himself to be.

Lets stop please putting so many labels on idols that are impossible to fulfill. Like the most perfect face, the best dancer, rapper or singer of the century, the person who’s perfect and never makes mistakes. The idol who can do it all. 

No one is fully capable. All the time. They are just trying their hardest and trying not to let you see the parts that are less than perfect. 

Lets support honesty so that idols feel like they can be themselves around fans and not enforce this flawless manufactured doll mentality.

I love you.

Some of y’all have never had the pleasure of seeing Nakamoto Yuta’s healing smile and it shows… so here

“My dear girl, is it that you are so lonely that you had to create this?”

— Mark Z. Danielewski, House of Leaves