There Is Something So Devastating That Is Wanting To Be An Academic With The Want To Have A Bountiful

there is something so devastating that is wanting to be an academic with the want to have a bountiful amount of knowledge. and having an amazing work ethic, actively putting forth the effort to continue education. but it’s so hard, studying and going to classes is so difficult. it’s hard to romanticize a life that is draining. it’s is hard to be a college student and go to work, without trying to let either one slip. those who can do it, you are such a hard worker!!

being on ur period turns u into a small wounded animal who wants to find a secluded area (ur room) to die alone in unbothered

the feminine urge to collect daggers.

Sometimes you’re 23 and standing in the kitchen of your house making breakfast and brewing coffee and listening to music that for some reason is really getting to your heart. You’re just standing there thinking about going to work and picking up your dry cleaning. And also more exciting things like books you’re reading and trips you plan on taking and relationships that are springing into existence. Or fading from your memory, which is far less exciting. And suddenly you just don’t feel at home in your skin or in your house and you just want home but “Mom’s” probably wouldn’t feel like home anymore either. There used to be the comfort of a number in your phone and ears that listened every day and arms that were never for anyone else. But just to calm you down when you started feeling trapped in a five-minute period where nostalgia is too much and thoughts of this person you are feel foreign. When you realize that you’ll never be this young again but this is the first time you’ve ever been this old. When you can’t remember how you got from sixteen to here and all the same feel like sixteen is just as much of a stranger to you now. The song is over. The coffee’s done. You’re going to breath in and out. You’re going to be fine in about five minutes.

my bf to me

i love you so so much but god you complain so much

it's because I'm so good at it