STOOOP WHAT'S THIS, I WANT TO LOOK THE HASTAGS NOT THIS

STOOOP WHAT'S THIS, I WANT TO LOOK THE HASTAGS NOT THIS

NOOO

definitely tonight it's not going to be a chill night

I want him in my life :((

Akira when something is bothering you

Genre: comfort/angst, fluff, gn!reader

warnings: mentions of bad mental health (ed, depression, sh, etc)

word count: 838

A/N: I had this in the drafts for a couple months and mostly wrote it cuz the mental illness was hitting me extra that day lolll. but I'm doing good now!! I hope if you've ever felt something similar this can make you feel better :)

likes and reblogs are appreciated, fic under the cut <33

A lot of things were on my mind, college, my family, my weight. I can't remember the last time I ate a proper meal. I hadn't been taking care of myself properly and I would just work or sleep the days away. I thought about hurting myself, running away, or just ending everything. One day, he asked if he could come over just to hang out. I tried my best to hide everything and plaster my best smile and the laugh that he loved hearing so much. But of course, he knows me down to the minute details.

love, you okay?

Hm? Yea, why'd you ask?

You seem quieter than usual

Ah it's nothing I'm just a bit tired

. . . . .

You're lying to me

huh? why would I-

He moved closer toward me and stared me straight in the eyes. Our difference in height made me have to look up at him.

Something's bothering you, isn't it?

It's really nothing

You've been zoning out and only saying one or two-word answers

. . .

He cupped my cheek, his hands smooth and warm. I tried to laugh it off again, as if it was nothing, yet his gaze was still as serious as ever. Firm but warm.

You know you can tell me anything

I wanted to tell him everything, but the weight in my chest made it impossible for me to open my mouth. I couldn't bear to look him in the eyes. I could only hold on to his hand. Something about him is like magic. He could understand my different kinds of quiet. He knew that I couldn't get the words out of my mouth.

Come here

He slowly let go of my cheek and placed it behind my head and pulled me into his chest.

I know it's hard for you to say what's on your mind sometimes. I'll wait for you however long it takes.

I could hear his heartbeat and the steady rise and fall of his chest as he breathed. I could feel the tears falling from my face, staining his shirt. As all my emotions bubbled up to the surface, he stayed quiet as he listened to my troubled sobs, patiently patting my head.

As my tears subdued and my breathing started to calm down, I bring myself up away from his chest, his hands moving to secure my back. I knew deep down he was concerned but all he showed me was his kind smile that would make butterflies flutter inside of me.

You're a pretty crier

I couldn't help but laugh

Thank you

Are you ready to tell me now?

I nod slowly

Take it slow, I'm here for you all night

The words finally managed to flow out of me like water from a leaking pipe. Slow but sure. I still couldn't look him in the eyes. He listened intently to every word I said, making sure that I felt heard. He played with my hair as I talked knowing that it helped me calm down.

I just feel so lost, I don't know what to do. I feel worthless and the only way I know to push myself to be better is to torture myself.

Love, look up for me

As I turned my head up slowly, he placed a soft kiss on my lips. He tasted like the usual Leblanc coffee that he and I both loved.

It really is hard being you huh

I chuckled

You can be such a handful sometimes you know, but I wouldn't trade you for the world I know I can't give you the best advice and I can't give you an instant solution, all I can do is be there for you. I really don't understand how you could see yourself like that when all I've ever known is how perfect and beautiful you are. I'll be with you every step of the way so you can depend on me a little bit more okay? I'll stay with you every single day if you need me to.

Being left speechless, all i could do is bury my face back into his chest saying a muffled "thank you".

All I could hear was the sound of his pretty laughter. He smelled like coffee and felt like rain on a summer's day. He was everything I needed.

He continued to pat my head as he hummed a soft melody he had probably heard on TV. He always claims that he's not much of a singer but I loved his voice. Drowning in the sound of the melody I could feel myself drifting away.

Love? Don't fall asleep, you haven't eaten yet, right?

Hm?

I'll warm up some curry for you, eat a little bit, okay?

. . . . .

I'll eat with you if you want

...okay

He let me cling to him for however long I needed. Something really is magical about him. My one and only, the one person who can understand me down to the minutia, I don't know where I'd be without him.

still have my heart

a genshin impact smau | kaedehara kazuha

IN WHICH, kazuha's friend gets into a fight with one of your friends

OR

IN WHICH, two exes meet due to being involved in a fight with their friends

TAGS; kazuha x gn!reader, angst, fluff, modern au, exes to lovers, toxicity (?), swearing, a 'little' bit of xiao x y/n

WARNINGS: some of these warnings may appear on future chapters but im writing them down now just in case. kazuha and y/n are toxic to each other, implied fake friendship (???), family problems, mother issues, actually all family issues, stalking, panic attacks

STATUS; ONGOING ! (start 07. 03. 22; end to be determined) VERY SLOW UPDATES!! (sry)

TAGLIST; closed!

notes; holy shit im actually doing this, also please ignore time stamps, taglist is closed!! posting updates at random (very slow updates)

you still have my heart

profiles;

the musketeers + kazuha ; power rangers

ACT 1; OLD FRIEND

[1.] xiao got his ass beat

[2.] ruining my chances

[3.] well this is awkward...

[4.] can we talk?

[5.] no more fighting

ACT 2; SHOULD'VE BEEN ME

[6.] are you free?

[7.] am i the bad guy?

[8.] lumine is my new best friend

[9.] ah.

[10.] anything i want?

[11.] blocked

[12.] feeling of guilt

[13.] i wont let that happen

[14.] worries and concern

[15.] :3

[16.] whatever

[17.] xiao's dilemma

[18.] y/n's dilemma

[19.] kazuha's dilemma

ACT 3; THE ONLY HEARTBREAKER

[20.] alixia?

[21.] miss pink hair

[22.] private conversation

[23.] gold digger

[24.] overthinking

[25.] tea time

[26.] blossoming friendship

[27.] hang out

[28.] GIRL FUCK YOU

[29.] distrust

[30.] yes mother.

[31.] THEY MESSAGED ME

[32.] truth

[33.] in your dreams

[34.] aether and lumine

[35.] told u so

[36.] ill deal with her

[37.] so what if i am?

[38.] secrets revealed

[39.] friendship over

[40.] twisted confession

[41.] turn tables

ACT 4; WHY DIDNT YOU STOP ME?

[42.] deja vu

[43.] back to square one

[44.] kamisato ayaka

030. Celebration dinner

previous :: MASTERLIST :: next

Of All People… - scaramouche x fem!reader smau

SYNOPSIS When you, a student who finds her best friend admits the terrors of high school. A best friend who’ve you’d hated ever since he left. Of all people, why was he the one to make you swoon, a person you swore to hate?

Fun facts!

scaramouche put the bouquet in front of [Name]'s dorm

yes everyone collectively forgot they kissed

they're both cocky and in love hehe

itto, Albedo, and mona were the only ones that got to answer because [Name] and scara were so fast like omg

Taglist ;

@viridescent-ivy @sakiimeo @ttoshiiroz @lxry-chxn @stopandget-help @r0ttenhearts @h-8chi @thenightsflower @killuixz @linn-a-a @vodkistt @raideneiari @yuyan @layla240 @barbatosfavouritenun @plinkuro @taikabae @beriiov @ghostxrism @rifran @elakari @kairxse @belovedxiao @alwaysmentallyill @mellowknightcolorfarm @xingyunclouds @scooofyaei @nambii @scaraapologist @samyayaya @kunikuzushisbeloved @dee-zbignuts @kaekazuha04 @monochromaticelliot @erosdevil @wisteriarain @kaoyamamegami @dazaiswifenicole @phoenix-eclipses @vivinsoul @vuvulia @r4yyyyy @cinnamontimecrunch @whatamidoing89 @aludicpoet @cindywasneverhere @vvasant @st0pthatsgay @kxr0mi @divinechicha @sketcheeee @wonderful-worlds

Author's note:

Watch me disappear for another week haha joke

Ayaka ily girl

Slay

❥ [ 19. ] crash course

I WISH YOU WERE SOBER — [ previous. masterlist. next ]

synopsis — in which you were never really one for spontaneity or precipitous decisions, until you got yourself drunk at your senior year university party and woke up the next morning with the most dreadful of hangovers…along with a painfully distorted memory of a stolen kiss on that hazy evening.

note — we love supportive friends <333

taglist — @tihgnari @ceylestia @eissaaaa @venyan @sohyuki @senjurro @bobaducky @dinoshimaaa @sharoshing @ioverjn @hey-comrade-hold-stil @skaramush @lesboluvs @clovcly @ventuswhat @zephestia @theother-victoria @neptun-es @ihaveahunterlisence @minyoungieee @astolary @wrenhyperfixates @heartonthemoon @goodthingimsam @capybara4lyfers @slvdsjjk @michelindu @kimiesstuff @itssoizzy @kazuzux @hiqhkey @layla240 @justrisahere @one-offmind @diaflower @liquor-kissez @tokanite @pooonyo @sweetstrawberrybabe @yeeden @nejibot @lcvez @rion-s @sakushoujo @koiir @lost-wicked-artist @dampam @q1ngx1n @yer1sdi4ry @bleedingwhiteroses222 @starglitterz @xdncrkay @uwak-uwak-uwak-uwak @apyrose @zanashair

I WISH YOU WERE SOBER.

pairing — ?? x f! reader [ college seniors! smau ]

characters — albedo, childe, xiao, thoma, kazuha, scaramouche, diluc, heizou, ayato (prime kisser suspects) / hutao, ganyu, ayaka, lumine, venti (mystery machine)

synopsis — in which you were never really one for spontaneity or precipitous decisions, until you got yourself drunk at your senior year university party and woke up the next morning with the most dreadful of hangovers…along with a painfully distorted memory of a stolen kiss on that hazy evening.

(or, you’re fucked because neither you, nor your friends, have absolutely any clue about the identity of the person you somehow ended up kissing last weekend. and just when you’ve finally set your mind on unmasking who the mysterious individual is, all the guys around you begin to exhibit rather unorthodox behaviors.)

warnings — mentions of drinking, cursing, annoyingly sLOw burn

author’s words — hi huhu my first try with writing smau :””) would like to credit @ilkuni for all her amazing series and for the influence behind the style !! you honestly inspired me to also attempt in making my own hehe, i hope you’re having a lovely day >< and to @sohyuki !!!! the first person i bounced off the idea to, and encouraged me to go for it :(( this wouldn’t have been possible without that little push, so THANK YOU! ilu lots <3

note — displayed timestamps and dates on the photos are inaccurate unless there’s a specified author’s note. writing + uploading schedule will be sporadic. send an ask if you want to be added to the taglist!! <3

chapters with this symbol [❥] are set in texts or tweets whereas those in this symbol [✎] are written. additionally, chapters marked with this symbol [❞] will contain written flashbacks from the night of the party.

twitter profiles — mystery machine / prime kisser suspects

| i. save me ’til the party is over. |

❥ [ 01. ] shitty hangover ❥ [ 02. ] she threw up lmao

❥ [ 03. ] three hours ✎ [ 04. ] you did what?!

❞ [ 05. ] another drink ❥ [ 06. ] beside his car

❥ [ 07. ] reckless actions ❥ [ 08. ] unwanted implications

❥ [ 09. ] cross his name ❞ [ 10. ] bumping into strangers

❥ [ 11. ] cars and bets ❥ [ 12. ] drink and drive

❥ [ 13. ] a genius idea ✎ [ 14. ] a…date?

❥ [ 15. ] it’s your spelling ❥ [ 16. ] is it over?

✎ [ 17. ] get away with anything ❥ [ 18. ] should we?

❥ [ 19. ] crash course ❥ [ 20. ] ice cream and movies

✎ [ 21. ] god knows ❥ [ 22. ] the standard

❥ [ 23. ] trending ❥ [ 24. ] i can do this!

✎ [ 25. ] find out for yourself ❥ [ 26. ] even you?

❥ [ 27. ] check in ❥ [ 28. ] tba

| ii. kiss me in the seat of your rover. |

❥ [ ++. ] tba

✎ [ ++. ] tba

❞ [ ++. ] tba

| iii. real sweet, but i wish you were sober. |

❥ [ ++. ] tba

✎ [ ++. ] tba

❞ [ ++. ] tba