I Can't Feel My Face~

°•I Can't Feel My Face~☆

Synopsis: Rockstar! Heeseung as your boyfriend

Genre: Fluff

Warnings: none

A/N: heeseung covers the weeknd and suddenly mfs don't know how to act (I'm mfs) this is my first time writing a one shot / drabble thing so it's pretty shitty but I wanted to put it out so I can maybe rewrite it later on (if you see typos no you dont)

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Rockstar! Heeseung is a global sensation. His fame is international, his name alone sends shockwaves through the music industry, and he has fans from across the globe who worship the ground he walks on.

Rockstar! Heeseung sells out massive venues in every major city. Fans are captivated by his performances which are a magnetic display of raw sensuality and dark captivating energy

Rockstar! Heeseung has designer brands tripping over their own feet to have him model their product. His face on their advertisements promises sales to skyrocket.

Rockstar! Heeseung is highly sought after both in the industry and by fans everywhere.

Rockstar! Heeseung is also off the market and pathetically shameless about it

Rockstar Boyfriend! Heeseung has been dating you since before his debut

He boasts about you every chance he gets to whoever will listen, his fans, interviewers, hell even the paparazzi that follow him everywhere.

"Heeseung! You did so well today, the energy was insane!"

"Ah, Thank you thank you. My girlfriend was in the crowd with you guys, so you know I had to make it memorable."

"Fans are dying to know what the inspiration behind this album is! Your new album blew straight to the top of the charts upon release and it truly is a masterpiece. So what's the story behind it?"

"Ah, Thank you so much, truly. My girlfriend actually was a big inspiration behind this album-"

"Heeseung! Heeseung! Where are you headed after the show tonight!?"

"I'm going to my girlfriend's!"

His fans (like anyone) know about you and actually find your relationship sooo cute. Often at his shows and fan meets, his fans will actually be the first to bring you up.

"Heeseung, I made this for [name], could you give it to her next time you see her?"

"Of course, She'll love this actually!"

Being famous also means he earns money faster than he can spend it.

That being said he loves buying you stuff, whether you're with him or not.

He could be in a whole different country and he'll see something that he thinks you'd like or would look good on you or something stupid that just reminds him of you and he's already swiping his card.

"Heeseung, you don't have to, this is too expensive for me."

"Which is why I'm buying it, If you like it there's no reason you cant have it, angel"

You will be all over Heeseung's social media and even his YouTube channel, which his management runs.

Heeseungs personal social media is mostly edgy promotional stuff, but he likes posting pictures of you and him together.

His YouTube is primarily for behind-the-scenes chats. Behind-the-scenes photoshoots, music video shoots, and even concert performances.

And you're in majority of these videos because Heeseung tries to bring you literally everywhere with him if you're able to come with him

In an interview he'll gush about how nervous he is to shoot something because you'll be watching from behind the cameras

"You look amazing in this collection. What do you think?"

"Thank you, but I think [name] would look 100 times better in this collection than I do!"

And the editors will add a little note like "Gushing about his girlfriend, [name]"

Hee[name]luvr23: editors thought we were new lol

User27578: if you don't know [name] then do you even know who Heeseung is LMAO

You appear so often that you'll even get your own little interview segment.

"What are my thoughts on today's shoot? I think Heeseung does everything well, his expressions and stage presence is always so intricate. He couldn't possibly mess anything up today, he looks great."

You basically gain your own fanbase from Heeseung without doing anything

Like you have fan accounts and everything Heeseung eats up those edits of you

Backstage moments at concerts are also not free from Heeseung's constant talk about you, cameras present or not.

"Everything's ready for you, we're just waiting to start. Are you ready?"

"Yeah, definitely. Oh by the way, [name] picked out my outfit for tonight. She said it would make me look more rockstar-like. What do we think?"

"Well, she's not wrong."

HeeHee1015: EVERYONE SAY THANK YOU [NAME], GOOD LOOORRDDD

[name]'slovebot: just put [name] on his styling team already HE LOOKS SO GOOD OMFGFDSHWAKJ

Heeseung, being the music prodigy he is, spends a lot of time in the studio with his producer. His music is a hypnotic blend of dark sultry beats and atmospheric melodies that pull his listeners into a world of sensuality and introspection.

His sound is smooth yet edgy, weaving elements of R&B and synth-pop to create tracks exploring themes of love, desire, and inner conflict.

His lyrics cut deep. Filled with vulnerability, seduction, and desire also WHINY ASS HELL.

So what's this cheesy pop boy band love song doing in there?

While a lot of his songs are about you and follow that dark and sultry vibe, he does like to explore other genres of music and make something that's just special for you.

His producers know good and well why there's songs like that sprinkled in his edgy discography.

But that doesn't stop them from asking just to give him a hard time.

"This one really stands out from the other tracks. What's the story here?"

"Oh, it's uh... you know, for [name]. Just felt like I had to sneak it in there. She's on my mind all the time so it only makes sense."

like it's okay we can all see you blushing behind that mic no need to be shy

He also LOVES to sample voicemails and voice messages you send him, he also asks you to come into the studio to record adlibs and/or to be on background vocals.

He thinks your voice is heavenly someone save him

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Heeseung is hunched in front of his computer in his studio late at night, working on a new track for his album. Your voice plays through his headphones as he's tweaking it to fit into the intro to his song. He's oblivious to your knocks on the door.

You peek through the door and spot your boyfriend, repeatedly clicking his mouse as he works and resting his chin on the palm of his hand. You smile softly and step into the room, shutting the door behind you.

"Boo." You say, slipping heeseungs headphones off his ears. He jumps slightly before smiling and swiveling his chair around towards you.

"Hey, is this my voice?" You ask furrowing your eyebrows as you hear the song blasting from his headphones.

He only grins and pulls you to sit in his lap, "Come listen," You pull the headphones over your ears as Heeseung lets the track play from the beginning. Sure enough, your voice is being played in the intro of his song, muffled because its an old voicemail you had left him, however long ago you dont remember.

"You're really out here sampling anything into your songs." You playfully roll your eyes and slip the headphones off your head and place them on his desk.

"Hey, its not just anything. Your voice totally fits the vibe of this song. And it makes the song more..." He trails off trying to find the right words, while you run your fingers through his hair. It's already tousled and messy from the amount of times he's run his own hands through it. "...more personal. It makes it feel more intimate and real."

"mmm, really?" You hum, a finger trailing from his temple down to trace his jaw. The way Heeseung always weaves pieces of you into his music makes your heart flutter and your heart race.

Heeseung's arms tighten around your waist, trying to bring you impossibly closer. His lips purse into a line as he looks at you with star-filled eyes, something he does when he wants something.

"Hey, I was thinking, actually... could you record a few lines for the backtrack. And maybe you could hum like you just did." He sounds almost breathless when he says the last part, he doesn't mean too but you're so close to him and you look so gorgeous.

"you're ridiculous," You playfully roll your eyes, resting your hands on his shoulders. "It's almost 3 in the morning, Hee. You should go to bed and come back to this tomorrow."

Heeseung is a simple and weak man so who is he to protest. "Okay, how about a kiss in the meantime then?"

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His friends, love you to death like that's gang, but Jesus Christ if they hear one more thing from Heeseung about you then you're gonna be out of a boyfriend.

Jay: Remember that after party in Tokyo?

Heeseung: Oh yeah, I remember before that [name] and I got lost trying to find this ramen house and ended up walking around the whole city before we found it.

Sunghoon: Bro, we were talking about the party.

Like I said before, Heeseung tries to bring you everywhere.

He gets so excited when he brings you as a plus one to red-carpet events and gets to match outfits with you

Will just about die if you try to step away from him, so reporters can take photos of him.

"What are you doing all the way back there??"

"I'm just giving you space so they can't take photos of you, Hee"

"But I want you up here with me."

pouty and utterly pathetic

and also captured on camera because fans go crazy over Heeseung pouting over you even being 2 steps away from him. Like okay, my turn when?

Your #1 hype boy

Always redirects attention to you when you guys are interviewed at these events

and you're a bit embarrassed because like?? YOU'RE the plus one, HE was invited here lmfao

"Heeseung! You look so good tonight. Who's you're date!?"

"My girlfriend, [name] We're matching tonight but I think she definitely pulls this look off better than me!"

Then he makes you twirl for the camera and the camera will zoom out to show both of you and Heeseungs eyes are GLUED to you and everyone can see the love and adoration in his eyes.

Also super attentive during these events and also when you're out in public with him in general

"Are you good? Are you ready for all of this?"

"Is this okay with you?"

"Let me know if you're uncomfortable, okay?"

"Just say the word and I'll take you home, angel."

Atp I think he's more eager to go home than you are.

If you thought he couldn't be more affectionate than he already is well, [loud incorrect buzzer]

While Heeseung likes to brag and gush about you in public, he tries to keep the PDA minimal.

Behind closed doors is a different story though, good luck lol.

Will be all over you, he'll follow you around the apartment and latch onto you like you'll disappear into thin air

After Heeseungs had a particularly long day, which is pretty much every day with flying to another country and back on some days and having dragging schedules on others, All he wants to do is come home and laze around with his girlfriend

His favorite thing is laying in bed with you at night, whether your both scrolling on your phones, talking, or something else.

He likes that you both can enjoy each other's company without having to do or say anything.

He likes being able to lay on you most of the time, but he's definitely not complaining when you're the one practically lying on top of him.

Sometimes when you fall asleep before him, he'll go live to talk to his fans for a few minutes and he likes to sneakily pan the camera down to his chest where your fast asleep.

No particular reason he just thinks you look cute and likes to flex that he has the most gorgeous girl on the planet lying in bed with him.

[name]luvr: SHES SO CUTIE OMFG

user6738: Heeseung can you gtfo of the way, I'm trying to admire your gf

lowkey fights with his fans over you (all jokes ofc)

"Heeseung will you let [name] know that I saved 100 kittens from a fire today and drove them to new homes in my lambo (I'm 6'2 btw).. okay well I saved 200 kittens, now what?"

"are you 6'2 tho, do not ever let me catch you in the streets br- ow!"

"You're being too loud, Hee"

There must be something in the morning air because he is crazy.

The morning sun filters through the curtains of your apartment. You and Heeseung are still in bed, no plans for the day. You're awake just teetering the edge of sleep and being fully awake

"Do you want anything for breakfast? I could make something"

The thought of you leaving him and the warmth of your bed right now just about kills him because he hugs you closer to his body and buries his face in your neck

"I'd rather just have you right here."

Oh!

"Wow, smooth talker." You playfully roll your eyes

"Only for you."

TOUCH / clingy boyfriend

enhypen ｡｡ when your boyfriend is clingy

n : f!r / 1082 𝑤𝘰𝑟𝑑𝑠 . . . 𝓬 — 𝗈𝗇𝗍𝖾𝗇𝗍 ⨾ kissing skinship fluff ⟢ 𝖼𝖺𝗍𝖺𝗅𝘰𝗀𝗎𝖾

( 𝗋𝖾𝖻𝗅𝘰𝗀𝗌 ♥︎ 𝖼𝗅𝑖𝖼𝗄 )

LEE HEESEUNG

“i want you to stay here forever”

you both were lounging on the couch, once again watching the notebook. almost like a tradition at this point.

heeseung couldn’t even bring himself to complain about how boring it was, catching himself watching the way you’d marvel at how great the movie was for the nth time. his eyes roaming over your face, imprinting every detail in its wake.

subconsciously, heeseung’s figure leans against yours, his hand coming up to cup your face. in the midst of confusion you turn your head towards him, the ghost of a smile on your lips.

heeseung, who’s spent the whole movie trying to catch your attention, finds himself flustered from holding your adoring gaze. burying his head on your shoulder right after, trying to hide the big smile and blushing ears. his hands sliding down to rest at your waist comfortably.

“just stay here for a moment” hee mumbles, feeling your body shift, his arms tightening slightly around your hips.

PARK JONGSEONG

“20 more minutes”

that was the cycle you and your boyfriend has been in for the past half hour. earlier you told him you had plans with a few friends. he seemed to be fine hours ago but just by the hour mark when you had to start getting ready, the way he held you and the way his eyes settled on you really made you rethink.

“i have to get ready” you state, attempting to pull away from the grip.

“why do you have to go today? why not tomorrow.” he whines, his arm sliding around your waist for a steadier grip. face burying just by the slope of your neck, his warm breath fanning the spot just below your ear.

you just realized how close he was to you.

“jay..”

placing a soft, but firm kiss to the shell of your ear, he whispers, “please, baby”

SIM JAEYUN

you didn’t know what to do.

standing around in a function your friend dragged you to just to end up sitting alone at a table was not ideal. especially when you’d rather be doing other things right now like being at home with your boyfriend.

unfortunately, you were stuck here and he was stuck in another city with his friends so you had no excuse to avoid the event this time.

“how’s busan?” you asked your boyfriend through the phone.

“oh you know, it’s quite fun here. how about you? didn’t you say you’re going to an event with gigi?”

“yeah, i’m at it right now, we were just talking to someone a few minutes ago. it’s really fun!” you lied, but if you didn’t he would’ve nagged. so there was really no better option.

“really? you don’t seem like you’re having fun” that call came from just by your ear. and not the one covered by your phone. turning around, your boyfriend was adorned in a slick suit, his head tilted playfully. “missed me?”

PARK SUNGHOON

“hello?” you picked up the phone, your voice raspy and half awake.

“babe, i found this new game we could try out later” you immediately recognized the voice even through your state.

“hoon?”

“yes, baby?”

you stay silent. the words died down in your mouth at how softly he spoke the petname. you knew he’s had an abnormal sleep schedule, due to tiring schedules and other hindrance.

he’s spoke to you about it (although with enough convincing) and you promised to let him annoy you at whatever time of the night it was. he wouldn’t tell you why, but the excitement in his eyes made you regret nothing.

so you smile, “what was the game-“

“i love your voice” your boyfriend blurt.

at your increased silence, sunghoon hurried to explain himself.

“i didn’t know how to tell you back then, but i really like your voice. it puts me to sleep… and i’m sorry for waking you up every night for the past week, it’s just.. you sound really cute sleepy.”

well, now you were definitely awake.

KIM SUNOO

“don’t you have a meeting to attend to?”

just about two hours ago you met up with your boyfriend, just to pick up your cat from his flat. barely interacting enough, unfortunately your schedule was packed and you had a class soon.

he told you he had a meeting when you said you’d come back to his apartment after class, so you both had to wait until tomorrow in hopes your schedules won’t clash again.

but now here he stood just beside you, casually browsing the lettuce aisle in the supermarket after grabbing your shopping cart from behind.

he looked back at you, as you stood there looking dumbfounded at him.

“what? i have my priorities”

YANG JUNGWON

lazy mornings are your favorite. okay, well, lazy saturday mornings are heaven. waking up to your sleepy boyfriend and cooking up a small breakfast for yourself. it was a great feeling.

to add to that, your boyfriend sneaking up behind you from the back. maybe that was what perfectly described heaven.

“you smell good” your boyfriend hummed, arms tight around your waist, chin propped on your shoulder.

“good morning to you, too” you chuckle. “what do you want for breakfast? we should go to that-“

“can we sleep in today?” he mumbled lazily, already starting to drag you back to the bedroom, “just wanna be with you right now” he rasps.

NISHIMURA RIKI

“come on, my hands are cold”

you didn’t get it. didn’t understand how often his hands had gotten cold throughout the entire night and why.

he’s asked you to hold his hands before dinner and you just assumed he was really cold, but really it was only september and there was barely a chill to the weather.

“it’s not even cold out” you reply and look back once you realize your boyfriend was not by your side. a pout lined his lips, he resembled a duck, really. which in turn made you chuckle at how adorable he looked right now.

the little steps he took to finally get to you, and the way he intertwined his hands to yours once he was a distance away from you. all of it made you involuntarily smile.

“your hands are just warm, i guess” he adds, looking away. when you chuckle and rub his knuckles, continuing to skip down the road, you missed the way his eyes looked at you and maybe the way his ears went red too.

juni : how we feel about the new layout? i’ve got a few more posts ready for you all, and a new posting schedule as well yay!

SEUNGHAN NOOOOOO 😭

‧₊˚ 🧷 When you’re not here 911 calling - OT7

(synopsis) ࣪ ִֶָ☾. when enhypen is clingy ~❀

ot7 enhypen x fem!reader ִֶָ☾. tooth-rotting fluff, crack ִֶָ☾. clingy enha ִֶָ☾. kisses, petnames ִֶָ☾. wc 720

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𝑳𝒆𝒆 𝑯𝒆𝒆𝒔𝒆𝒖𝒏𝒈 - 이희승

ring...ring...ring...ri- "hello? seungie what's wrong?" you had just left 10 minutes ago to grab some groceries to cook dinner when all of the sudden, you get a call from your boyfriend. "baby? are you done yet? i miss you" your heart melted at the cute, sulky tone of your boyfriend on the other line and you could just envision his pouty face. letting out a soft chuckle, you pay the cashier and head out of the store. "i'm walking home now you big baby" you laugh, adjusting your shopping bag onto your shoulder. "yay!!" heeseung cheered. "you've been gone for agesss" he whined. sure he was a big baby trapped inside of a 23 year old man's body, but he was your big baby.

𝑷𝒂𝒓𝒌 𝑱𝒐𝒏𝒈𝒔𝒆𝒐𝒏𝒈 - 박종성

"ynnieee" you heard your boyfriend whine. you set down your pen and walked over to the couch where jay was currently snuggled into. "i miss you" he frowns and oh does it melt your heart. "awww by jongie missed me? i was just 5 feet away in the other room silly!" you giggle, sitting down next to him on the couch. without warning, he wraps his arms around you, pulling you down next to him and planting a big, fat smooch on your forehead. "shhh, it's cuddle time with my princess"

𝑺𝒊𝒎 𝑱𝒂𝒆𝒚𝒖𝒏 - 심재윤

“jaeyun??? jaeyun are you okay??” you called out frantically after receiving a distressing message from your boyfriend that read: “come back quick pls. i need you here right now” so you turned your car around immediately and sped back home just to find your boyfriend greeting you—perfectly fine— at the door. “hi baby! you came back!” he giggled, his puppy smile showing. “yah! sim jaeyun! what is this?” you yelled, holding up the message on your phone. “ohhhh that! i just missed you!” he smiled. “why you little-” it was safe to say that you loved your very clingy boyfriend very much.

𝑷𝒂𝒓𝒌 𝑺𝒖𝒏𝒈𝒉𝒐𝒐𝒏 - 박성훈

you had just woken up to your alarm and you were about to get up and ready for the day when a pair of arms pulled you back down. “nooo please don’t leave” a sleepy voiced mumbled from behind you. “more cuddles please” sunghoon asked as he nuzzled his head into your neck. “aigoo hoonie, how can i say no to you” you smiled, giving in to his ask. it was rare for sunghoon to be this clingy so how could you deny him his cuddles? you would never do such a thing anyway.

𝑲𝒊𝒎 𝑺𝒖𝒏𝒐𝒐 - 김선우

“yah! where are you my ynnie???” sunoo yelled out. you had left precisely 6 minutes and 24 seconds ago and sunoo was already calling you back. all you needed to do was finish the cookies but somebody was a bit too clingy today (it’s okay you didn’t mind one bit) and needed you with him 24/7. “cominggg” you giggle at your boyfriend’s clingy actions. walking into his bedroom, he immediately lights up when he sees you. “yay ! you’re here!!!” he then proceeds to tackle you onto the bed, securing his arms around you to make sure you can’t leave him. you always loved when sunoo got clingy.

𝒀𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝑱𝒖𝒏𝒈𝒘𝒐𝒏 - 양정원

we all know that jungwon has his times of being this adorable little cat. so it wasn’t shocking when you felt a pair of arms wrap around your waste and small kisses being gently placed on your neck. “hi wonnie” you smile, knowing he was feeling clingy today. “mm, come cuddle please, pretty” the small whisper of his voice melted your heart and you just couldn’t say no to such a cutie! he took your hand and led you to the couch where he already had a movie and a warm blanket ready for the two of you. “ta-da! now you can’t escape me!”

𝑵𝒊𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒎𝒖𝒓𝒂 𝑹𝒊𝒌𝒊 - 西村 力

ni-ki didn’t like showing physical affection in public, but he was a big baby behind closed doors. “babyyyy” he whined, trying to get you to comeback and give him more kisses. “pleaseeeee, i’m dying here without youuu” you playfully rolled your eyes as you walked back into your bedroom where your boyfriend was waiting. “now, kisses please” he sat up straight and smiled to you. gosh he was so cute. “whatever you say my big baby” you were so glad that he felt safe enough with you to show this side of himself to you and only you.

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hiii! i’m back from the dead!! this made me giggle a whole bunch and while writing ni-ki’s, i just had that image of him making heart fingers for jake (iykyk) anyway, hope you guys enjoyed this and i’ll be back to posting every day if i can! <333

⚘. Perm taglist: @vmpivory

i don't know if you've seen the clip of jay talking bad about his visuals again, but what do we think about his s/o making sure he knows how handsome and pretty he is?

he talks about his visuals so bad so often 🙁

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⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ WHAT I SEE IN YOU - JAY

contents. jay is insecure about his looks and you find a way to prove him otherwise tags. established relationship, insecurity on jay's part, fluff, suggestive if you squint but not really, my note. i'm really trying hard to get back into writing i SWEAR, also if you're reading this i probably posted a face reveal library.

it’s late. the kind of late where the world outside is quiet, the stars are hidden behind clouds, and the soft hum of the heater fills the apartment with a soothing warmth. you’ve both spent the day together—nothing special, just a lazy day indoors, cuddling up, watching movies, and laughing at dumb jokes only the two of you understand.

you’re sitting on the couch now, legs tangled together as you scroll through your phone. jay is beside you, lying down with his head resting on your lap. you’ve been absentmindedly running your fingers through his hair, and he seems relaxed—content, even. but then, you hear it. that sigh. it’s soft, but it’s there, filled with just the right amount of frustration to make you pause.

“what’s wrong?” you ask gently, not taking your eyes off your phone yet.

he doesn’t respond immediately, and you think maybe he’s just lost in thought. but then, there it is again—the sigh, heavier this time.

you finally look down, and you notice he’s scrolling through his own phone, staring at something a little too hard, his brow furrowed in that way it does when he’s deep in his own head. he’s chewing on his bottom lip too, which is another sign something’s bothering him. you frown and tilt your head to get a better look.

“babe,” you say a little firmer this time, your fingers stilling in his hair. “talk to me. what’s going on?”

jay’s quiet for a moment before he huffs out a humorless laugh, dropping his phone on his chest and rubbing a hand over his face. “it’s nothing,” he mutters, but the tension in his voice says otherwise.

you raise a brow. “you’re really bad at lying, you know that?”

he groans, dragging his hand down his face before covering his eyes with his forearm, almost as if he’s trying to hide from you. “it’s just… stupid stuff,” he mumbles. “don’t worry about it.”

you bite your lip, unsure of how to proceed. you know he doesn’t like talking about his insecurities, but you also know that if you don’t get him to open up, he’ll just let it fester inside until it explodes later. so, you take a deep breath and decide to push a little further.

“it’s not stupid if it’s bothering you,” you say softly, your fingers returning to their gentle motions in his hair. “come on, talk to me. what’s on your mind?”

he stays quiet for a few moments, and just when you think he’s going to brush it off again, he speaks—barely above a whisper.

“it’s just… i don’t get it.”

“get what?”

he shifts, uncovering his eyes and sitting up, pulling his knees up to his chest. he doesn’t look at you, instead focusing on the wall ahead as he speaks.

“people are always saying things about how i look. how i’m ‘handsome’ or ‘pretty’ or whatever, but… i don’t see it.” he laughs again, bitter and self-deprecating. “i look in the mirror and all i see are flaws. i see a crooked nose, or my lips are too thin, or my eyes are too small. i see all the things that people don’t point out, and i just… i don’t get it.”

your heart aches hearing him talk like this. you’ve always known jay struggled with his self-image sometimes, but hearing it laid out so plainly hurts more than you expected. you’ve never understood how he couldn’t see what you see when you look at him—how he couldn’t see just how breathtaking he really is.

“jay…” you murmur, reaching out to gently cup his cheek. he doesn’t pull away, but he still won’t meet your eyes. “you’re so much more than what you see in the mirror.”

he lets out a hollow laugh, finally turning to look at you, his eyes filled with doubt. “yeah? well, what if what i see is all i can focus on?”

you sigh, moving closer to him on the couch. your hands trail down from his cheek to his jaw, your fingers tracing the sharp line of it as you speak. “then i’ll just have to make sure you see what i see.”

he raises a brow, a hint of curiosity breaking through the gloom. “and what is it that you see?”

you smile softly, leaning in so your faces are just inches apart. “i see someone who is so incredibly beautiful, inside and out. i see someone whose smile lights up my entire world. i see eyes that hold galaxies in them, a nose that fits perfectly in the crook of my neck when we hug, and lips that—” you pause, your thumb brushing over his bottom lip, “—that i can never stop kissing.”

he blushes at your words, his eyes flickering down to your lips for a brief moment before meeting your gaze again. “you’re just saying that,” he mutters, though the tension in his voice has softened just a little.

you shake your head. “i’m not. i mean every word.” you move your hands down to his chest, resting them there as you lean in closer. “you are, without a doubt, the most handsome and the most pretty person i’ve ever seen. and i’m not just talking about looks. i’m talking about you. everything about you.”

jay swallows hard, his eyes darting away again, but you can tell your words are starting to sink in. he’s always been so hard on himself, always his own worst critic. but you’ve seen him at his best and at his worst, and to you, he’s always been perfect.

“i don’t know how to believe that,” he admits quietly, his voice barely audible now. “i look at myself and all i can think is, ‘why does anyone even think i’m attractive?’”

you frown, your heart clenching at how deep his insecurities run. but instead of letting it weigh you down, you decide to take a different approach. if words alone won’t work, then maybe actions will.

you shift, swinging your leg over his lap until you’re straddling him. jay looks surprised by the sudden movement, his hands instinctively coming up to rest on your hips, but he doesn’t push you away. if anything, he seems a little flustered by the sudden proximity.

“w-what are you doing?” he stammers, his face heating up.

you smile down at him, brushing a few stray strands of hair away from his forehead. “showing you how much i love every part of you.”

before he can protest, you lean in and press a soft kiss to his forehead, lingering there for a moment. “your forehead,” you murmur against his skin, “where all your brilliant ideas come from.”

you move down, kissing the space between his brows. “your eyebrows, even when they’re furrowed in frustration, are adorable.”

jay’s breath hitches, but he doesn’t stop you. you continue, your lips brushing over the tip of his nose. “your nose, which, by the way, is perfectly straight and cute.”

he lets out a small laugh at that, his hands tightening slightly on your hips. “it’s not—”

“shhh,” you interrupt, kissing the side of his nose again for emphasis. “no arguing.”

you move to his cheeks next, pressing soft kisses to both sides. “your cheeks, which are so soft, even when you pout.”

he’s blushing now, his eyes fluttering shut as he lets you continue. you smile at how relaxed he’s becoming, your heart swelling with affection for him. you move lower, pressing a kiss to the corner of his lips.

“your lips,” you whisper, brushing your thumb over them again. “the same lips i can’t get enough of. soft, warm, perfect.” you lean in and capture his lips in a gentle kiss, slow and deliberate, as if you’re trying to pour every ounce of your love into him.

jay kisses you back, his grip on your hips tightening, but he doesn’t rush it. when you finally pull back, his eyes are half-lidded, his breath a little heavier than before. “you don’t have to do all this,” he mumbles, though there’s no conviction behind his words.

you smile, running your hands through his hair again. “i want to. because i love you, and i want you to see what i see.”

he bites his lip, looking up at you with a mix of affection and vulnerability. “i don’t deserve you.”

you roll your eyes playfully, leaning in to kiss his forehead again. “you deserve the world, jay. and i’m going to make sure you believe that, even if it takes forever.”

he chuckles, his hands sliding up your sides to rest on your waist. “you’re stubborn, you know that?”

“mm, i prefer ‘determined,’” you tease, leaning down to kiss him again, this time with a little more heat behind it.

jay responds immediately, pulling you closer, and for a moment, the weight of his insecurities melts away. it’s just the two of you, wrapped up in each other, and nothing else matters.

when you finally pull back, both of you are breathing a little heavier, your foreheads resting against each other. jay’s eyes are soft, a little dazed, but there’s a small smile playing at the corners of his lips. “you’re really

determined to make me believe all of this, huh?” he murmurs, his voice low and a little breathless.

you grin, brushing your nose against his in a soft, teasing gesture. “i told you, i’m not stopping until you do.”

his hands slip from your waist to your back, pulling you just a little closer, and the warmth between you is intoxicating. but more than the physical closeness, there’s something deeper, more profound in the way he’s looking at you now. you can see the flicker of doubt still lingering in his eyes, but there’s also something else. something softer, like maybe—just maybe—he’s starting to believe you.

“it’s hard, you know,” he admits, his voice barely above a whisper. “to shake off everything i’ve told myself for so long. i’ve always been... hard on myself. it’s like my brain just focuses on the bad parts, the parts that don’t look right.”

you nod, your fingers tracing lazy circles on his chest as you listen. you’ve heard this from him before in bits and pieces, but this is the most open he’s been about it. and while it breaks your heart that he feels this way, it also makes you want to hold him even tighter, to show him that he’s so much more than just his appearance.

“i get that,” you say softly, leaning your cheek against his. “we’re all our own worst critics, right? but that’s why i’m here. to remind you of everything you don’t see. and not just because of how you look.” you pull back a little, locking eyes with him. “because you’re kind. and you’re funny, even when you’re not trying to be. you work hard, and you care so much about the people around you. those are the things that make you truly beautiful, jay.”

his breath hitches slightly, and he looks at you with a vulnerability that makes your heart clench. “you really mean that, don’t you?”

you nod, your hand slipping up to cup his cheek again, your thumb brushing over his skin. “every word. i’ve never been more sure of anything.”

for a moment, he just stares at you, his eyes searching yours as if he’s trying to find some trace of doubt, something that would make him believe you don’t mean what you’re saying. but you do. you mean every single word, and you’re going to make sure he knows it.

he sighs, a soft, shaky exhale, and leans into your touch, closing his eyes for a brief moment. “i don’t know how i got so lucky,” he murmurs, his voice thick with emotion.

you chuckle, your thumb still caressing his cheek. “you make your own luck, jay. and besides, i think i’m the lucky one here.”

he opens his eyes again, and this time, there’s something lighter in his gaze. a small smile tugs at his lips—genuine, soft, and so incredibly him. “you really know how to make a guy feel special, you know that?”

you grin, leaning down to press a quick kiss to his lips. “good. because you are special.”

he laughs softly, and for the first time since this conversation started, it’s a real laugh—one that fills the room with warmth and lightness. “you’re really not gonna let this go, huh?”

“never,” you say firmly, resting your forehead against his. “you’re stuck with me and my endless compliments forever.”

jay’s arms tighten around you, his hands moving up and down your back in a slow, soothing motion. “that doesn’t sound so bad,” he admits, his voice barely above a whisper. “actually, it sounds... kinda perfect.”

you smile, leaning in to kiss him again, your lips lingering on his as the warmth between you two deepens. there’s no rush, no urgency—just the steady rhythm of your breaths, the soft press of your lips against his, and the quiet understanding that you’re both exactly where you need to be.

when you finally pull back, jay looks at you with that same soft expression, his eyes filled with something you can only describe as pure affection. it’s a look you’ve seen before, but somehow, it feels different now—like maybe, just maybe, he’s starting to see himself the way you see him.

“i don’t deserve you,” he says again, though this time there’s no sadness behind it. just awe.

you roll your eyes playfully, brushing your nose against his. “we’ve been over this. you deserve everything. and i’m going to keep reminding you of that until you believe it.”

he smiles, and it’s the kind of smile that makes your heart skip a beat. “i guess i’ll just have to get used to it, then.”

“good,” you say, your voice soft and full of affection. “because i’m not going anywhere.”

jay pulls you closer, pressing his lips to your forehead in a gentle kiss, and you can feel the steady beat of his heart against your chest. “thank you,” he murmurs, his voice barely audible. “for... for everything. for always knowing what to say. for always being there.”

you smile, resting your head against his chest, your fingers tracing patterns on his skin. “i’ll always be here, jay. always.”

for a while, the two of you just sit there, wrapped up in each other, the quiet hum of the room surrounding you like a comforting blanket. it’s peaceful, the kind of peace that comes from being with someone who knows you, who understands you in ways no one else does.

eventually, jay breaks the silence, his voice soft and a little hesitant. “hey.”

“yeah?”

he shifts a little, his hands sliding down to your hips again as he looks up at you, a mischievous glint in his eyes. “so... when you said you can’t get enough of my lips...”

you raise a brow, smirking down at him. “oh? what about it?”

his lips curl into a grin, and there’s a teasing edge to his voice as he leans in closer. “i think you missed a few spots earlier.”

you laugh, rolling your eyes but leaning in nonetheless. “oh, really? care to point them out?”

jay’s grin widens, and he tilts his head slightly, his eyes flickering down to your lips before meeting your gaze again. “well, i could, but... i think i’d rather show you.”

before you can respond, he’s pulling you down, his lips capturing yours in a kiss that’s much more heated than before. it’s slow, deliberate, and you can feel the way he’s pouring everything into it—the lingering doubt, the affection, the gratitude. his hands slide up your back, pulling you even closer, and you can’t help but melt into him, your own hands tangling in his hair as you kiss him back just as eagerly.

when you finally pull apart, both of you are breathless, your foreheads resting against each other as you try to catch your breath. jay’s eyes are half-lidded, a soft smile playing at his lips as he looks up at you.

“okay,” he murmurs, his voice low and a little hoarse. “maybe i’m starting to believe you.”

you laugh, your heart swelling with warmth and love for this beautiful, complicated, wonderful man. “good,” you whisper, pressing one last kiss to his lips. “because you’re perfect, jay. and you always will be.”

he doesn’t argue this time. instead, he just smiles, his hands still holding you close, and in that moment, you know that even if it takes time, even if he still has his doubts, he’s starting to see himself the way you do.

and that’s all you could ever ask for.

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I would just like to give all ot6 briize a warm FUCK YOU and the same goes to SM.

I can’t even begin to explain how hurt I am from the moment I saw Seunghan’s official statement that he would be leaving RIIZE.

You all know what he did wasn’t even a crime and yet SM enables k-briize to so easily control this group and the members like they’re not even human beings. Global fans deserve as much of a say as Korean briize and the fact that they drove Seunghan out of the group despite the members warmly welcoming him back and wanting him, they still claim to “want the best for RIIZE” when all they have wanted was to be reunited as a group of 7 again.

This is just straight up bullying and these so called “briize” don’t even have Riize’s best intentions at heart, this was all just selfish and manipulative because they didn’t like Seunghan. I hope you guys are happy because you’ve destroyed a young man’s dream and possibly the best thing that’s ever happened to him as well.

We love you so much Seunghan, I’m so sorry your company couldn’t even so much as try to protect you and you had to be treated this way, you deserve so much more support and love and I hope you know thousands of us do and always will.

RIIZE is and always will be 7 <3

< petition for seunghan >