You, My Soul Doubling, The Best Terror Ive Known.

“You, my soul doubling, the best terror I’ve known.”

— — Traci Brimhall, from “Arctic Lullaby,” Come the Slumberless To the Land of Nod

“We’re each of us alone, to be sure. What can you do but hold your hand out in the dark?”

— Ursula K. Le Guin, from “Nine Lives”, in The Wind’s Twelve Quarters

thinking about that 1980 interview in which John Carpenter described Laurie Strode as aware of [Michael] because she’s more like the killer, she has problems. She’s a little uptight, a little bit rigid. She and the killer have a certain link: sexual repression. She’s lonely, doesn’t have a boyfriend, so she’s looking around. And she finds someone—him..........

“Her dreams, his manner of appearing, such flattery had not failed to reach her heart; his sad gaze, the endearing, tender strangeness of his speech. Herself not knowing rhyme or reason, she’s pined and languished many days; her heart may wish to pray in season to holy saints, but to him it prays; worn out by struggle unabating. If she lies down on slumber’s bed, her pillow burns, she’s suffocating, she starts up, shivering with dread; her breast, her shoulders flame, she races to breathe, she chokes, mist’s in her eyes, her arms are thirsting for embraces, and on her lips a kiss that dies…”

— Mikhail Lermontov, The Demon (tr. by Charles Johnston) 

cannot stop thinking abt the paris review’s essay series on the history of significance of certain colours, hue’s hue:

Periwinkle, the Color of Poison, Modernism, and Dusk

Eau de Nil, the Light-Green Color of Egypt-Obsessed Europe

Marian Blue, the Color of Angels, Virgins, and Other Untouchable Things

Incarnadine, the Bloody Red of Fashionable Cosmetics and Shakespearean Poetics

Jonquil, the Light Yellow of Early Flowers, Mad Painters, and Dust Bowl–Era Pottery

Scheele’s Green, the Color of Fake Foliage and Death

Lilac, the Color of Half Mourning, Doomed Hotels, and Fashionable Feelings

Hooker’s Green: The Color of Apple Trees and Envy

Blaze Orange, the Color of Fear, Warnings, and the Artificial

Chartreuse, the Color of Elixirs, Flappers, and Alternate Realities

Living Coral, the Brutal Hue of Climate Change and Brand New iPhones

Mustard, the Color of Millennial Candidates, Problematic Lattes, and Aboriginal Paintings

Russet, the Color of Peasants, Fox Fur, and Penance

Verdigris: The Color of Oxidation, Statues, and Impermanence

“I clung to him as though only the one who had inflicted the pain could comfort me for suffering it.”

— ANGELA CARTER, from ‘The Bloody Chamber and Other Stories’.