boryrory - a small shrub.
a small shrub.

I cry a lot.

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2 years ago
Praise the woman who took me in her arms & / wouldn’t let go of me. We sank to the floor / in the middle of the aisle in Rite Aid. / It was a late morning & I walked slowly, / furious that spring could still be so wonderful. / Magnolia tempted me to forget about my mother / for a few minutes. I stared at a Brooklyn blue sky / through branches clasping pear blossoms. / The limbs shook in sunlight. My eyes adjusted / when I went into the pharmacy & realized / everywhere I looked the world announced / it would soon be Mother’s Day. Something / ripped itself out of me. A howl so wide / I thought I would burst. The woman near the counter / understood right away the way my mother / once understood I had been born in a specific sadness. / The woman did not say she was a mother but I knew it. / She put her arms around me & waved away the cashiers, / the security guard who repeated Ma’am, Ma’am? / A stranger rocked me in her arms, so much kindness / as we fell over & crashed against a row of votive candles. / She didn’t say it would be okay. She didn’t ask me / what was wrong. But her arms put me in a vicious prayer. / I almost bit her, almost pushed her away. / We held on. We held on & praised the nameless thing / that makes us what we think we aren’t strong enough / to know. She knew. She didn’t let go of me.
Praise the woman who didn’t wipe my snot from her shirt, / my tears from her collarbone, who did not tell me to / pull myself together while everything inside me dropped. / Crushed bones. Blossoms pushing through my mouth— / a word: Mom Mom Mom. This broken birdsong of mine / with no bird, no wing, no way to fly back through time. / Praise the woman who did not leave me / like something suddenly dead on the sidewalk / with a breeze blowing over its face. / Praise the woman who smelled like fabric softener / & coffee & the good things I must believe I am too. / Praise the mothers who walk slowly through the world, / bringing children into themselves, burying children sometimes / before themselves, & who defend something harder / than innocence. Praise the guts & grace of mothers. / Praise their exhaustion & their good work. Praise their wit, / their wonderful ways of listening to the world fall / asleep against its clean pillow. For the woman / who knelt with me in an ugly heap in the middle of / Rite Aid on an unbearable spring day, / who helped me buy a Mother’s Day card / for my dead mother, who knew better than to say /I’d be just fine, for you I lift my arms each spring / & wish you a kindness so fantastic I sometimes feel / I’m in midair, the shadow of my wings clapping in joy / above your children who must love you.

Rachel Eliza Griffiths, “Good Mother”

2 years ago

“On earth, the terrible things and the beautiful things continue to happen beside each other. On the moon in the darkness, nothing. On earth in the darkness, sometimes rain swells like applause.”

— Jeffrey Morgan, from “All Night No Sleep Now This” published in BOAAT (via pigmenting)

2 years ago
Orpheus In Spring - Jenny George

Orpheus in Spring - Jenny George

2 years ago

The point is to laugh into a kiss, to laugh at yourself, to laugh w the world but not at it, to share your dreams w people who listen to them, to realize when you’re wrong, to apologize even if it’s years later, to eat the bread that comes w dinner, to dive into the sea even when the water is cold, to forgive yourself but not be blind to your self, to remember your friends birthdays, to look for luck everywhere, to be sentimental and unashamed of it, to admit when you don’t know, to hold a shell to your ear and listen for the ocean, to hold your own hand and not shy away from someone else’s, to stop and smell the roses and the night blooming jasmine and the freesia, to live outside your head, to know how to cook for when you’re joyous and heartbroken and ravenous and lazy, to not crush the spider but help it outside, to always rediscover who you are and allow room for others to do the same, to watch the sunrise, to keep flowers in your house, to not let hopelessness poison you

2 years ago
Woodland Moodboard
Woodland Moodboard
Woodland Moodboard
Woodland Moodboard
Woodland Moodboard
Woodland Moodboard
Woodland Moodboard
Woodland Moodboard
Woodland Moodboard

woodland moodboard 🌳🌿🦌

2 years ago
MAYBE YOU NEED TO WRITE A POEM ABOUT MERCY // Start this one with the woman standing at the edge / of the woods. Or the desert, it doesn’t matter, / what matters is she’s standing under a darkening sky / and she knows, at this point, having spent months / in the hospital, that there’s nothing she can do— / no threshold between threat and tranquility, / no demarcation she can draw around herself / or her child for protection, everything is actually / everything else, the stone just kicked / and whatever comes next are the same. / And, knowing this, a great emptiness swells / inside her stomach, an airiness she could float away on— / and the night bellows and the sun rings once more / then slips under the horizon. Maybe then: / a humming of an old tune, her own hand / stroking her red hair. Mercy.
As in the story the man on the bus told me / about his late wife, how by the end she’d forgotten / their wedding, even, and their children’s names, / and once she went missing in the depths of winter / dead bent on saving the cattle from the blizzard / that years ago left all the calves frozen / on their sides. He told me his wife saw angels. / It was her last day, she was at home and the nurse / called him to the living room where the bed was. / His wife asked, Do you see them? And he said, / Yes. And together they counted the wings. / When he told me this story, the man wasn’t sad. / He had just picked up groceries to make bread— / he missed fresh bread, he said, and so / he bought yeast and flour and fine kosher salt. / He wanted to watch the dough rise. // Because the man wasn’t sad, I tried not to be sad, / too. He smiled and got off the bus. Out there, / the streetlamp flickered and the cold night grew / and off he went to warm his kitchen. I waved / and wondered if there’s a word for the way / joy and pain are the same, how, if we’re lucky, / they thread us like an electrical wire cuts a tree, / and there we stand, tender and green, reaching, / charged, humming.

Chelsea DesAutels, “Maybe You Need to Write A Poem About Mercy,” in A Dangerous Place

2 years ago
I Feel Feelings

i feel feelings

2 years ago
April Morning / JONATHAN WELLS // You are living the life / you wanted as if you'd known / what that was but of course / you didn't so you'd groped / toward it feeling for what / you couldn't imagine, what / your hands couldn't tell you, / for what that shape could be. // This Sunday the rain turns cold / again and steady but the window / is slightly open and there is the vaguest / sense of bird song somewhere in the gaps /between the buildings because it's spring / the calendar says and the room where / you are reading is empty yet full / of what loves you and this is the day / that you were born.

Jonathan Wells, “April Morning”

2 years ago
Home Sweet Home

home sweet home

2 years ago
boryrory - a small shrub.

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2 years ago
Ghost Crabs — Maya C. Popa
are mostly speculations on shape, / a way to say ghost with scientific / aplomb. They haunt a stretch / of the Atlantic from Nantucket to Brazil, / their numbers dwindling like everything / that isn’t us. / Jeeps driving / down the beach pack the sand too firmly, / entombing the crabs in their burrows / overnight. I don’t know that the world / was ever more forgiving, the lorries / less heavy with stolen bodies, / the drownings fewer over holiday weekends. // The ghost crabs come like spies / and it is beautiful to hope for them, / over the bright channels of the sea / and our unbright moorings. // You will know / when it is time to mourn, they seem to say. / Today, I glimpse their rushed transparencies / and think, it could never be too early.

Maya C. Popa, “Ghost Crabs”

2 years ago

“I really do sincerely feel that bewilderment is at the core of every great poem, and in order to be bewildered, you have to be able to wonder. You absolutely have to be permeable to wonder. Maintaining an orientation towards wonder in a time where the government is conspiring against it, in a time where black people are being murdered at the hands of the state, in a time when the Earth is very much trying to warn us about what we’re doing to it, maintaining an orientation towards wonder becomes really difficult. It’s the work that I have to do every day, the work of trying to find sources of wonder, even in our sadness and loneliness, or even in our anger.”

— Kaveh Akbar for LitHub [x]

2 years ago
You, Reading This, Be Ready by William Stafford

Starting here, what do you want to remember?
How sunlight creeps along a shining floor?
What scent of old wood hovers, what softened
sound from outside fills the air?

Will you ever bring a better gift for the world
than the breathing respect that you carry
wherever you go right now? Are you waiting
for time to show you some better thoughts?

When you turn around, starting here, lift this
new glimpse that you found; carry into evening
all that you want from this day. This interval you spent
reading or hearing this, keep it for life—

What can anyone give you greater than now,
starting here, right in this room, when you turn around?

"What can anyone give you greater than now" William Stafford

2 years ago

still obsessed with how joel was just a pocket full of dad powered sunshine in the first half of the episode. he was like my demons? those bitches have been exorcised it’s time to be silly and goofy. I’m suddenly capable of talking about my feelings. look I found that ravioli u like. let’s actually stop here on the side of the highway and play boggle. my face is a little sore bc I’m relearning how to smile but it’s worth it. honestly in an au where the fireflies weren’t at the lab I bet he would have suggested they keep walking to california so they could have a beach day

2 years ago

Nighttime Begins with a Line by Pablo Neruda

by Yusef Komunyakaa

So my body went on growing, by night, went on pleading & singing to the earth I was born to be woven back into: Love, let me see if I can’t sink my roots deeper into you, your minerals & water, your leaf-rot & gold, telling & un- telling of the oldest tales inscribed on wind-carved rocks, silt & grass, your song & prayers, your oaths & myths, your nights & days in one unending lament, your luminous swarm of wet kisses & stings, your spleen and mind, your outrageous forgetting & remembrance, your ghosts & rebirths, your thunder stones & mushrooms, & your kind loss of memory.

2 years ago

how do you just get up and deal with the fact that there’s a last time for everything. there was a last time you sat on your dads shoulders and there was a last time your mom tucked you into bed. there’s going to be a last time you kiss your sister on the head and there’s going to be a last time you hug your best friend. there’s going to be a last time you feel exactly as you feel right now and there’s going to be a last time that person says i love you. i need to lay down

2 years ago

"And I also know that love is a pretty quiet thing. It's lying on the sofa together drinking coffee, talking about where you're going to go that morning to drink more coffee. It's folding down pages of books you think they'd find interesting. It's hanging up their laundry when they leave the house having moronically forgotten to take it out of the washing machine. It's the texts: 'Hope today goes well', 'How did today go?', 'Thinking of you today' and 'Picked up loo roll.' I know that love happens under the splendour of moon and stars and fireworks and sunsets but it also happens when you're lying in blow-up air beds in a childhood bedroom, sitting in A&E or in the queue for a passport or a traffic jam. Love is a quiet, reassuring thing: something you can easily forget is there, even though its palms are outstretched beneath you in case you fall."

– Everything I Know About Love, Book by "Dolly Alderton"

2 years ago

the entire point of life is to be silly, kind, and really weird btw.

2 years ago
Here, the world is perpetual March, / and we love a dog as if that’s the only thing we can do, as if // death cannot touch this slice of New England, the trees / growing a canopy of shade just for us. // Yesterday, we strapped the smallest life jacket / to her furry body, took her swimming for the first time. // We watched her paddle from the shore to the center of the lake, / then back again until she grew tired. And last night // while we argued about things that won’t / matter in a month, he was still petting the puppy’s wet head, // and I cried like I’d never known a kindness / so pure and gentle as that, as a pat on the head // for doing nothing but existing. I wouldn’t / call this jealousy, but there is no word // in my human tongue that seems appropriate. / It’s the feeling of all the stones I swallowed in my youth // growing  jagged in my belly. And I scratch / the surface of my skin with any sharp thing // I can find to cut them out.

Diannely Antigua, from “Training”

2 years ago
The Secret World Of Arrietty (2010)

The Secret World of Arrietty 借りぐらしのアリエッティ (2010)

2 years ago
Whatever Was Left, That Was Ours For A While.
Whatever Was Left, That Was Ours For A While.
Whatever Was Left, That Was Ours For A While.
Whatever Was Left, That Was Ours For A While.
Whatever Was Left, That Was Ours For A While.
Whatever Was Left, That Was Ours For A While.

whatever was left, that was ours for a while.

sunrise - louise glück