If Only

if only

pairing: bucky x black!reader

word count: 661

summary: y/n watches bucky fall in love with natasha.

warning: angst

part 2: happy for you

a/n: all of my one shots have been sad lately i am so sorry, i promise fluff is coming soon :) and also reader and nat do not have any friendship problems.

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watching someone you love falling in love with someone else hurts, and experiencing that first hand was never easy.

i walked into the kitchen after waking up and grabbed a bottle of water, i opened it up and guzzled it down feeling the coolness spread through my body.

as i was drinking my water nat came in wearing bucky’s red henley, she smiles at me before sitting down. i feel a pang in my chest seeing her in his red henley, i tried to shake it off but i was still hurt.

bucky and i had been or were bestfriends for a while, we were at one point in time inseparable. when natasha came back from wherever she was, bucky caught feelings and left me in the dust.

after a while they started dating and he came to me about everything, from gifts to how to ask her to be his girlfriend.

i did my best to hide how hurt i was but soon enough tony caught on, them steve, then sam, then vision, until eventually everyone but nat and buck found out.

after a while everyone but bucky was in the kitchen talking, i drank my water in silence listening in on conversations. as i was finishing my water bucky walked in and kissed nat on her cheek, before sitting next to me.

i didn’t feel like sitting and listening to their conversation about whatever so i got up and left without a word. i walked into my room and shut the door behind me before locking it, i asked friday to turn on soundproof mode so no one could hear me.

i slid down my door and let out a loud sob, i felt hot tears steam down my face as i sobbed. i sobbed for hours until i felt fatigue hit me in waves.

i got up and unlocked my door before walking to my bed, i close my eyes and soon enough i fall into a dreamless sleep.

when i wake up it’s around ten, i get out of bed and walk into the living room to see everyone watching a movie. i walk over to the couch and sit next to wanda, i lay my head on her shoulder and she lays her head on top of mine.

as we’re watching the notebook bucky and natasha come out of the elevator with smiles on their faces, it takes everything in me to get up and walk into my room.

i walk into the kitchen and walk right back out as i see natasha and bucky kissing each other, as i walk into the living room everyone can see the hurt look on my face. i walk over to the couch and sit back down next to wanda, and she frowns.

“what are you guys watching” bucky asks walking into the living room with natasha clinging onto him.

“the notebook” peter answers, his eyes still focused on the tv.

of course they join in and of course they sit next to me, if it wasn’t for steve mouthing ‘stay’ i would have left.

at the end of the movie i’m crying into wanda’s shoulder and she was rubbing my back “i hate this movie” i say through tears making everyone laugh.

hearing bucky’s laugh made me cry ever harder “alright i’m calling it a night” i mumble as i get up but i feel his hand wrap around my wrist “come on stay” he pleads and i notice everyone looking at me. i try to hold my tears back but i just cry more.

“i’m sorry but i can’t” i say and he removed my hand from his grasp, i quickly walked out of the living room into my room.

i shut the door behind me and once again sobbed, not even bothering to ask friday to turn on soundproof mode.

i figured it was time to move on but it wasn’t as easy as you thought.

if only it was.

𝑚𝑎𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑙𝑖𝑠𝑡 ❦

fluff: f | angst: a

Peter Parker

Steve Rogers

Bucky Barnes

Loki Laufeyson

Tony Stark

Vision

misc. (characters i don’t really write for)

ꕥ traitor - thomas sharpe x reader

ꕥ captain america - sam wilson x reader

ꕥ neighbors - scott lang x reader

ꕥ castaways - avengers x reader

friendly reminder that tara lewis was a member of the bau longer than each of the following: luke, matt, ashley, kate, alex, elle, jordan, gideon! idk how else to tell y’all that she’s not a side character. she’s just black and you’re racist

neighbors

pairing: scott lang x black!reader

word count: 467

summary: cassie makes a new friend and introduces her to her scott.

a/n: here’s some scott and cassie lang content!

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i was walking my dog, duke, around my neighborhood trying to get use to the area. i didn’t know anyone but i knew that the neighbor to my right has a daughter, who might i add is absolutely adorable.

“hi” i hear a little voice behind me, i turn around and see my neighbors daughter smiling at me revealing her two missing teeth.

“hi sweetheart” she giggles at the nickname making me smile.

“i like you’re hair, it’s soooo curly” i smile at her compliment, i see her eyes sparkle as she looks at my hair.

“why thank you and i like yours too, the tiara makes you look likes a pretty princess” she giggles at my compliment.

“i’m cassie” she holds her tiny hand out and i shake it.

“i’m y/n” i say and she squeals making me giggle.

“we’re friends now” she declared and i smile, she runs away and yells “daddy i made a new friend” i giggle at her excitement.

“and who could that be peanut” her dad asks as she pulls him towards me.

he’s very handsome and i can tell he has a great personality based off of his daughter.

“daddy this is my new friend, y/n” cassie announced and he looks up, his eyes widen as i smile.

“hi nice to meet you...” i trail off not knowing his name.

“scott and it’s nice to meet you as well” he smiles at me and i smile back feeling warmth spread in my chest.

a year and a half later

“i’m gonna get you” scott yelled goofily as i ran around with cassie on my back.

“he’s picking up speed” cassie yells through her giggles.

“cassie hold on” she tightens her grip around my neck and waist.

i turn around stopping scott in his tracks, i grab his chin and kiss him catching him off guard. i pull away and run off with cassie down the hall.

“that wasn’t fair” scott yells making cassie and i giggle as we run upstairs, i walk into her room and kneel beside her bed so she can get off of my back and get into her bed.

“alright sweetheart get some sleep” i tuck her in and make sure she’s good before kissing her forehead.

i turn her nightlight on and turn her light out before meeting scott at the doorway “night peanut” he says pulling me into him.

“night daddy, night y/n” she mumbles sleepily before scott closes the door, leaving to cracked slightly.

scott and i walk into his room and he pulls me in for a kiss, i wrap my arms around his neck deepening the kiss.

he pulls away and rests his forehead in mine “i love you” he says barely above a whisper and i smile.

“and i love you”

happy for you

pairing: bucky x black!reader

word count: 370

summary: after being gone for two years, you come back to find a little surprise.

warnings: none

a/n: i know natasha cannot have kids but let’s just say she can here.

part 1: if only

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it has been two years since i had last been in that tower, steve had sent me on a long mission which required me to live a different life.

i was excited to come back and see everyone. no one but steve knew where i was and i had contact with absolutely no one but steve.

i walked into the tower with my suitcases and look around the tower, it looks the same as when i left.

i heard talking coming from the kitchen, i walk towards the kitchen quietly and stood in the doorway quietly.

i cleared my throat and everyone looked towards me, i swear tony’s eyes almost popped out of his head when he saw me.

peter got out of his seat and ran over to me, hugging me. after peter everyone piled in to make a a big group hug. eventually everyone pulls away from the hug and bombards you with questions.

as i’m talking with everyone i hear tiny giggles and a goofy roar come into the kitchen, i look up and see bucky holding a child in his arms.

i notice the little girl cock her head as she looks at me. her eyes are blue and her hair is reddish-brown, the perfect mixture of her parents.

i smile at her and she smiles back holding out her arms to me, bucky puts her down and she waddles over to me. i pick her up and sit her in my lap, her hands immediately go to hair playing with the curls.

“we’ll give you two a moment alone” steve says guiding everyone out of the kitchen, leaving bucky and i alone.

“so how is it, married life” i ask and he sits down next to me,

“it’s great” he admits and i smile.

“you finally got it, the family you wanted” i look at him and he nods.

“yeah, i’m a full time family man” he jokes and i laugh

“what’s her name” i ask looking at the little girl.

“sarah rebecca barnes” he says and i smile before looking at him.

“its beautiful” he smiles at my response.

“i’m happy finally, it feels nice” he says and i smile

“i’m happy for you”

The Falcon and The Winter Soldier (2021) /  Black Panther (2018)