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Spill (Hot-Coffee Edition) - e.d.

Summary: While Ethan loves you with every fiber of his being, he’s not perfect. And you’re not perfect either, especially when it comes to spilling liquids in his Jeep. It’s not the nicest moment in your relationship. 

A/N: Here it is! The long awaited angsty-version of Spill! It’s not required for you to read Spill, since it’s pretty much the same only with some changes affected by the coffee being hot rather than cold. But, if you wanna read the OG Spill, it’s right here. Let me know what you think! Love ya! 

Here’s the reality when it comes to being in a relationship and the shit that goes through your mind when you’re in love: it’s not always amazing.  

In fact, there are several times where you need to remind yourself that you do, in fact, love the other person, and that the love you have for them is unconditional. Too many times, you’ll find yourself repeating the mantra in your head, trying to focus on their more positive qualities: like their smile, their laugh, the way their hands fit in yours, how they take care of you when you’re not feeling your best. Shit like that. Shit that’ll make the red fade from your vision and that’ll remind you that you’re in it for the long haul, because you love their negatives more than their positives. Pushing through the hate to the love.  

You gotta remind yourself of that.  

Which is exactly what you and Ethan are both trying so fucking hard to focus on right now.  

See here’s the thing: Ethan’s list of things he loves more than anything in the world is pretty short. It’s pretty much you, gray, his mom… and his Jeep. The dude loves his Jeep. He worked hard for it, got it customized just for him, it’s like his baby. And he’s so annoying about it.

But, he loves you. And he’s whipped for his girl, more so than for his Jeep, so when you’re on the way home after some early morning meetings and you’re begging him for a Starbucks stop, it only takes a little bit of arguing for him to finally give in. He just has one single request, that comes off as a threat. 

“Y/N I swear, if you spill—"  

“I won’t spill, E, fuck.” You giggle, already bouncing as you see the Starbucks coming up on the road, already buzzing for the warmth of your white mocha.  

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Song:More by Halsey

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Part five:

More-Halsey

Two days later

“Hey Ethan?” You knocked on his door as you stood in the doorway looking into his bedroom you saw he was sat at his desk

“Hm?” He looked up seeing you were holding a piece of paper in your hand

“Will you read this...I wanna know if it makes sense before I give it to Grayson we’ll actually drop it off in the mail box.”

“Yeah sure.” You gave a small nod as you into the bedroom handing him the paper you watched as his eyes scanned over it you could see his face soften

Hi Grayson...I’m writing this letter because I’m too afraid to say it in person because of what’s been going on with you and I don’t know how you’ll react and it scares me, I wanted to tell you sooner but I could never find the right time and now doesn’t seem like a good time either apparently but I need to say it or you’ll find out sooner out later.

I’m pregnant...I know you said you didn’t want kids until your married but I didn’t know this was gonna happen..I was told I couldn’t have kids,I spent years in waiting rooms just wanting to find out if I could have kids because it’s my dream to get married and have a kid or two, I should probably say the next part in person...so when you read this call me please.

“Yeah it’s good...are you sure you don’t want me to take it over?”

“I’m sure, I’ll be back in a little bit.”

“Okay be safe please.”

You nodded as you grabbed your keys slipping on your shoes and walking out the door climbing into your car you drive off to yours and Grayson’s house you let out a breath as you placed the letter in the mailbox..heading back to Ethan’s you didn’t wanna be there when Grayson saw it.

Grayson’s pov:

It was around 1:30 when I went out to get the mail noticing an envelope with my name on it I was curious as to what it was so after getting the mail and going inside I set the mail down and picked up the letter walking to my office sitting down and opening the envelope I read the letter... my eyes began to water.

I grabbed my phone out of my pocket dialing y/n’s number she picked up after it rang twice

“Hi Grayson.”

“You’re pregnant?”

“Yeah, but that’s not what I wanted to talk to you about...I wanna talk to you face to face but I-I can’t even look at you without feeling sick Grayson, so we’re doing it over the phone.”

“What did you wanna tell me?”

“This isn’t the first time I’ve been pregnant, I got pregnant with my ex-boyfriends child...but I lost the baby due to stress,and then the first time we had sex...I also got pregnant and everything was going good until I had another miscarriage...that’s why the one time you came into the room I was punching the wall..I was looking at the clothes in my dresser drawer because I’ve had two miscarries and I don’t wanna have another so i just cried and punched the wall I was so upset and I looked at my tummy and said “when you decide it’s your time to arrive I’ve loved you for all of my life.” Because I have loved each baby even if they weren’t that big I knew I was growing a human inside me and i was so happy,I went to the doctor yesterday and she said everything looks fine so far, the baby is only the size of a pea but it’s growing, and I’ve never been more excited in my life than at this moment Gray...I’m finally able to give motherhood a-a try.”

“Oh my god, I’m so sorry sunflower why didn’t you tell me before...I wanna be here for you and the baby but I can’t do that until I get help...and I will.”

“I didn’t tell you because I was scared, scared of you leaving...like Tyler did, everyone leaves me eventually.”

“I could never leave you baby..you’re my sunflower forever yeah?” I felt my voice crack as I took all this in

“Yeah, I love you Gray.”

“I love you too honey, when will you be coming home?”

“I’m not sure yet, maybe soon.”

“Don’t stay away forever.”

“I won’t...I love you too much.”

“I love you too.”

I hung up the phone as I sat at my chair crying, I was having a baby with the love of my life, I really need to get help if this is actually happening...I can’t be a dead beat dad that baby is going to need me.

I jumped as I heard a knock on the front door getting up from my desk I walked out of my office and over to the front door opening it to see Kylie standing there in booty shorts,a crop top, leather

Jacket and heels.

“What are you doing here Kylie?” She pushes passed me walking into the house as she dropped her purse onto the couch, removing her jacket.

“I’m here for you silly.”

“What,why?”

“You don’t remember do you?”

“No I don’t.”

“Hmm let me jog your memory.” I felt my eyes close as her lips were on mine our lips moved together slowly...god I shouldn’t do this but I need it, I really fucking need it especially after what y/n just said

“what the fuck?”

“So do you remember?” She smirked at me as I rolled my eyes walking over to her purse she pulled out two small bags of a white powdered substance along with a rolled up $100 bill and a card.

“Kylie wait.”

“What?!” She groaned as I stopped her

“Nothing,lets go in the kitchen.”

“Good more time for me then.” She laughed as her hands were working to get my belt undone

I really fucked up this time.

I will forever have heart-eyes for him