We Purple You Too

we purple you too ♡

*Spring Day comes on*

NAMJOON BEING FINALLY SO VOCAL ABOUT IT REALLY HITS..

BTS were always aliens. Over 7 years ago, they debuted in their mother country, South Korea, the scene was dominated by only individuals from the BIG 3 companies. Awards, variety shows, music shows… nothing was left for them to take. They will always be the shadow of someone wherever they went. Yes, everyone in that industry worked hard but they always had to work even harder than anyone. Recording all night after filling someone’s spot just to be shown clapping and reacting when it airs. Suga even said later “A medium-sized, ordinary idol was my second name. Countless people get cut from broadcast. But someone’s empty spot is our dream. They say some of these kids can’t make it cuz their agency is too small … I know.” 

They had to put their content online because there was no place left for them elsewhere. The most ironic part was how they had to make it overseas to be noticed in Korea. But overseas wasn’t a piece of cake nor a free one either. Humiliation, xenophobia, racism, belittlement, prejudice… all of this and more was added to the heavy bag BTS had to carry alone. Some will say, but they made millions, but they are popular, but… But you think getting stabbed and hated on can be ok from your standpoint when you are not the one feeling the blade on your flesh or seeing the blood on the soil. Suga said in UGH repeating what others tell them in case they try to express their pain: “Ah, what the hell is there to be upset about being criticized a bit? You earn a lot, why are you whining again? You’d have to put up with at least that much, ahem” And JHope said also in the same track “Someone gets hurt at someone’s actions. Someone becomes gloomy at someone’s speech and behavior. Someone’s spur of the moment becomes someone’s moment. Someone’s rage becomes someone’s life Damn.” Yes, forget the sleepless nights and the exhausted bodies running left and right. Their mental health was taking a blow. And some had to go to therapy.

Why do you think BTS made ‘SEA’ a masterpiece of a song that could have topped the charts where they talk about their doubts when they started getting noticed, when things started to change, when both worlds who ignored them finally saw them as walking gold… this song ended up being a hidden track (Only available and hidden in the CD album), meaning that only if you search for it you will find it. Only if you are an ARMY you will be aware of it. Because BTS knew that no one could relate to them but ARMYs, the only ones who were there when it rained and not only when the birds came out to sing. In SEA they said back in 2017: “In the end, we reached the mirage and it became our reality. The scary desert became the ocean with our blood, sweat and tears. But why is there this fear in between the happiness? Because we know too well that this place is really a desert” 

They thought that their fame back then wasn’t lasting. They felt the piercing stares and expectations of everyone and cried together behind closed doors then came out smiling the next day. No one saw the wounds hidden behind pretty clothes they wore. No one saw the gloomy shadow of worries that swallowed their thoughts when the stage’s lights got bigger. Until one day after they grasped their fears and decided that no matter what the end might look like they will keep walking… With crying faces they told us they almost stopped being ‘BTS’. ARMYs kinda knew it was hard on them… the fandom didn’t have it easy either. But the boys at the frontline took most blows without making a sound. Today… they decided to fight. For them and for us. In ‘Louder Than Bombs’ they tell ARMYs: “Where’s my way? The ground keeps quaking. I collapse on my own, mute. Louder than bombs, yeah. I want to tell you, that darkness exists everywhere, don’t be afraid of it. Whatever night may swallow me, I won’t give up. The fight for you, we’ll shine. You and I, we feel it together. Sadness and pain. It’s not a coincidence. Yeah, we picked this game”

Why are BTS so humble? Because they have a leader who think like modern day ‘Socrates’ and members who are more mature than what is shown on air. They know that once they sold their soul completely to fame, that nothing will be left of them and that it’s ‘THEM’ that makes us ready to change the world. Why are BTS and ARMY so close? Because we only had each other since the start. Why are BTS so different? Because the road they had to walk in was from the start something exclusive yet unyielding. Why are BTS sad even after achieving incredible things? Because they feel like they will never be enough. What was given so effortlessly to many, they always had to slog away for it before the show is over, the lights get turned off and the crowd decides to go home. Why does this clip hits hard? Because… actually I will not answer this one. The answer should be clear by now. I will just let you feel the heaviness that it makes you feel. 

| Cr twt clip BTSBEINGBTSYT text by @mimibtsghost

[ENG TRANS] BTS PROFILE 1 | FESTA 2020

| Cr tr twt  STUDIO_0613

Me: *decides to take online classes cause I really don't want to go to campus right now due to everything going on and so I can learn to pace myself with both school and work, specifically choosing the ones with no set dates or time so I can learn self-pacing without neglecting my work or looking after my parents while still self-studying other subjects the college doesn't offer courses for*

My College: Oh by the way the online courses are not self-paced and we won't tell you what books you need until 3 days before the class starts oh and you can't pick up the book or have it shipped to you until 4 days after your order :)

Me: But I have work and other obligations-

My College: Not our problem :)

Me: I wish you could have informed people about the courses not being self-paced before I spend a fortune on books and supplies and the class itself, and why notify me about the books I need so close to the courses' start dates, how am I supposed to get them in time for-

My College: Again, not our problem. :)

Me: ...

My College: .... :)

the reason why we all ache for nature, for woods and gardens and warm sunlight, is that we feel so trapped in today's expectations. they want us to dream big, and put us down for impossible goals. they want us to become someone and leave a legacy, yet whenever we try, we're told it's not enough.

then, some of us realise it's a trap. it's turning us into small cogs in a bigger machine, shaping us however they want. we realise this capitalist system won't let us breathe, won't let us be free.

so we run away to places where its grasp hasn't reached yet. we care for small gardens, tend to our plants, we find joy in simple things, where everyone else told us to not bother looking.

we crave peace, and rest, and most of all, we want to dream without being belittled. we want that warmth, that serenity. we want to be ourselves, without apologising for it.