I Feel Like Im Dying, I Have A Terrible Headache, My Brain Wont Let Me Sleep And I Keep Hallucinating

I feel like im dying, i have a terrible headache, my brain wont let me sleep and i keep hallucinating spiders and bugs on me or on the walls hurrayy /sarc

Go do your thing you blessing to this rock we all live on

Dear everyone who is currently working on a Thing, whatever that Thing may be,

Good luck with the Thing. You can do the Thing. You will do the Thing. You just have to do the Thing.

Best wishes,

Someone who is also doing a Thing

therapists genuinely shocked when telling me to have a "growth mindset" doesnt remove the creatures living in my walls that whisper to me

Like "go exercise, you'll feel so much better once you move your body" doesn't apply to a lot of physically disabled people. And "just force yourself to socialize, you will have fun once you're there" doesn't apply to a lot of autistic people. And "your intuition will always tell you the truth" doesn't apply to a lot of psychotic people. And so on. And I'm not saying that this means that you can't or shouldn't promote these things, but they aren't universal solutions for everyone

Para culture is acceptance and recovery.

I repressed my urges for so long, I hated myself, and in the end it hurt me beyond words. When I found this community I was afraid to be hurt again. But after a while I started to heal.

Para culture is learning to cope, whether it be through fiction, through art, or just through talking it out on anon blogs like this.

I'm still scared of my feelings, but less now. I've learned that instead of reacting with disgust I write about them, draw about them, talk about them. It is still hard but less now.

Para culture is waking up and feeling sun on your face through your window and for the first time in years not flinching away, believing such beautiful things aren't meant for beasts like you. Para culture is self love and slow healing.

para culture is!

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🗾🐾 THE ARCHIPELAGO BURROW

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[★] Collective Info [★]

🌲| Name: Horus / Byrder / Cross

🌲| Pronouns: He/Ae/Bird/Wing/Fly +

🌲| Interests: QSMP, DSMP, OSMP FNAF, LOZ, Philza, Psychology + more

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[★] System Info [★]

✦ | Nondisordered Hydraconscious DID system of 2k+ alters

✦ | Over 9 large subsystems

✦ | Rentry:

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QUICK PSA: yes this is a old account before we found out were a system, it was run by our old hosts Wilbur and Finn, but now its run by us all :3 expect many infodumps about our systems and experiences <3

System Details under the cut

Our system is made up of subsystems! We have 11 (i think idek atp) and each are mostly separate from the main/bodies system

The Archipelago Burrow: The main/bodies system, made up of around 30 members, first alters that split or that have stayed in this system since formation. Not many front front this system anymore, mostly made up of traumaholders and very little fragments.

The Michaels: Made up of 3 members, split from Michael, Michxel is the alter that split off and one other who they dont know well. Michxel fronts often, Michael doesnt anymore.

Snow Wing System: there was around 160 alters before a system reset happened, but just because the system reset to around 9 alters didnt mean the others went anywhere, so ae created aer own system, now made up of the 160 alters. Ae sometimes front but not often

Kaleidoscope Cluster: The first big subsystem to split knowingly. They are a introject of a friends system (whom we missed so much they showed up, this is a common theme with us) around 300 members, they dont front to often but show up sometimes

Cowboy Col.: After Kaleidoscope showed up so did the ex that gave us ptsd's system. We figured they were around for a while but they actually showed up and scared us to death, only 1 alter has fronted from this system so far. Around 300 alters

Spiderverse Col.: Kaleidoscope was lonely so they created Spiderverse to be their partner sys, only 30 members and they front sometimes, mostly with Kaleidoscope.

Aether Amalgam: Ever heard of the youtube channel Acrylic and Aether? Well we introjected her (Aether) system too. Weve watched their content for around 2 years and the hyperfixation won- Over 1k members, They front a lot. They are also siblings with Kaleidoscope :3. Their host Aether has been around in TAB for around 2 year now but only recently told us about his system, sideblog is @aether-sys

Travelers: Not really a subsystem but moreso a collection of alters who can travel between systems/dont belong to one set system. This is a very fluid thing for us considering how long weve been plural and how many alters weve had for so long, Those from this collection front a lot.

That was just them main dudes and theres more systems that don't care to front/arent comfortable being online so i left them out. Our plurality is weird and complex lmao :']