This Is Really How I Feel Sometimes

this is really how i feel sometimes

ladies and gentlemen, i present you run!bts (ep 98) yoongi 

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J.JK Soul Ink - Chapter 15

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The sky was black tranquility married to a poetry of stars. It was the softness that called body and brain to rest and let the heart go to its steady rhythm. Night came as a reward of sorts, a restfulness above to calm the soul. Yet your soul was anything but calm.

You stared into the night, face blank, puffing the smoke of the cigarette out your mouth,barely flinching as Jimin cleans your busted lip between your inhales. You couldn't rest no matter how much the boys told you too. You threw away the cigarette without a care and Jimin sighs,

"Y/N, I get that you're sad but for the love of god stop wallowing in guilt, it wasn't your fault, Jungkook is fine. We managed to lose the fuckers and bring him back here. He's okay,Jin's checking up on him now. Your stitches are holding up great on him."

You hum in acknowledgement before standing up and walking back inside into the warmth of the house just as Jin comes back down the stairs and he gives you a soft smile,trying not to look at the bruises that painted your torso and arms like watercolor stains of purple and yellow from the impact of being kicked and grabbed like some kind rag doll. The man had not cared if he caused you any damage all he wanted was to get paid. Jin was concerned he had cracked a rib or two from the welts of purple that were etched on your skin, but you assured him there was no internal damage.

"Is he okay?" You ask nervously and Jin nods making you all sigh in relief.

"He's okay, got a fever but it's a natural reaction after being shot, it's like a withdrawal of shock. He refuses to sleep until he's seen Y/N." Jin chuckles and you look down shyly grabbing your hoodie from of the couch and slipping it on to cover the bruises from Jungkook. The last thing you wanted was him to get angry and worry about you.

"Are you sure I don't need to look at them? You took some pretty hard hits by the looks of it." Jin says softly. You give him a reassuring smile and shake your head,

"Thank you for your concern but I'm okay, I've had worse."

The boys frown understanding what you had meant and you shyly shuffle towards the stairs before rushing up them. You pause in front of Jungkook bedroom door and take a deep breath before softly knocking and a voice croaks out from behind the door,

"Come in."

You slowly push the door open and walk in, shutting the door behind you and your breath hitches taking in Jungkook's weak form. He was pale, eyes has dark circles, his skin sheen with sweat,his long hair stuck to his face and his shoulder was tightly bandaged and he cradled his arm close to his bare chest. You rush over to him and grab the cloth that rested in a bowl of cold water, ringing it out and dabbing his face gently with it and he sighs in relief.

"Hey baby girl." He murmurs lifting his arm that wasn't injured and caressed your cheek softly and you lean into his touch, closing your eyes before opening them and moving your head to press a soft kiss to the palm of his hand.

"You scared me, when you passed out, I thought we lost you. Your pulse was so weak." You whisper, accidentally letting a tear slip, wiping it away quickly, sniffling and giving him a small smile. He looks at him sympathetically and rasps out,

"I'm sorry, d-didn't mean to scare you."

You shake your head and lean down and press your lips to his forehead and brush his hair back, placing your forehead against his whispering,

"Don't be, you're okay now, besides I should of been more careful."

"How were we supposed to know that was going happen? We had no idea. I let myself worry and I shouldn't because I know you can handle yourself, please don't blame yourself, I have a target on my back anyway, I was expecting to get shot at to be honest." Jungkook says softly looking into your eyes before closing them and pressing his lips to yours. You smile into the kiss before pulling away and dipping the cloth back into the water and repeating your actions from before.

"Hmm thank you nurse Y/N, I appreciate your help." He teases tiredly and you chuckle, shaking your head in amusement.

"You're very welcome Mr. Jeon, I suggest you get some sleep now sir." You say playfully and he pouts as you stand up. He grabs your wrist and you bite your lip, feeling his fingers dig into the bruise but you hide your pain not wanting to worry him.

"Stay? Please?" He asks sheepishly. You smile and nod, climbing into the bed and lying next to him and you rest your head on his chest and he wraps his arm around you and he squeezes your hip to try and reassure you but you hiss in pain from the pressure and he lets go instantly and sits up with some struggle much against your protests for him to lie back down.

"What was that? Are you hurt?" He asks and goes to lift your hoodie but you push his hand away quickly.

"I'm fine, just a little scratch." You lie and he frowns.

"Sounded more than just a little scratch to me, just let me look." He says and before you can stop him he's already lifting your hoodie up and his face turns from concern to anger as he lifts it higher before pulling it off completely leaving you in your crop top and sweatpants. He looks over the purple and yellow stains on your torso and arms and then to your busted lip that looked much better after being cleaned.

"What fucker did this? What happened?" He growls and you shiver, gulping.

"I'm fine baby I promise just a little sore. I was dragged into the crowd by some guy and blindfolded and he threw me into some room, I tried getting up but each time he just kicked me back down. He tried to tie my wrists together but he didn't have much luck. I sorted it, I'm fine I promise, focus on yourself, lie back down you're going to tear your stitches." You say helping him lie back down.

"I should of been closer, I'm sorry, did the bastard get what he deserve?" He murmurs still angry.

"Mhmm, knocked him out, pretty sure I broke his nose." I smirk lying my head on his chest. He chuckles and kisses the top of my head,wrapping an arm around me mumbling,

"That's my girl."

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"I warned you. I fucking warned you all! They're smart and hide in the shadows! How did you not notice them?! They've got Chanyeol. And you! How could you be dumb enough not knock her out, I told you she's not as weak as she looks!"

They look down ashamed with their mistake as Lay sits across from them holding an ice pack to his face, glaring at them.

"S-Sir we tailed them, we have a car sitting outside the house right now." A guy speaks up. Yixing nods and stands up,

"Make sure they watch them, don't approach until I say, I want them to be unprepared, I want them all dead but Y/N and Jeon Jungkook, I want him brought to me so I can kill him myself. She needs to be back before Beom-Seok gets back, if he finds out she ran away to be with them, he'll kill everyone." Yixing snarls.

They nod and scurry away and Yixing sits down sighing in frustration wincing from the throbbing pain from his black eye.

"You'll come back one way or another Y/N..."

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In the wash of the new light, your face takes on the appearance of an old photograph, one of nostalgia, so beautiful. Jungkook watches as it brings your skin into focus, not yet animated with the warmth of who you are, for you are still in the land of dreams. And since there is no better thing to do but to bring his body so close that your hearts synchronize, he hugs you till you wake, when the light is so strong that you come into the present with him, eyes open.

You let a soft tired smile slip onto your face seeing Jungkook was already awake staring at you with adoration, brushing your hair out your face with a small smile on his face.

"Good morning." He rasps his voice a few octaves deeper from sleep. You lean up and press your lips to his and he smirks into the kiss, slipping his hand out your waist and tugs you onto his lap despite the ache in his arm. You giggle and place your hands on his chest as he leans up wanting more.

"Is this how we're going to start every morning?" You tease pulling away from the kiss and he chases your lips wanting nothing more but to have his lips on yours.

"Mhmm get use to it baby girl." He smirks pulling you back into a kiss but swipes his tongue across your bottom lip asking for entrance and you open your mouth just enough for him to slip his tongue in and take dominance. You slip a hand into his locks and tug gently and his moans into your mouth and you pull away and take his bottom lip in between your teeth and tug it gently before letting go making him shiver. You chuckle and lean back sitting up and tease,

"You gotta heal first before you get anything else."

He groans and whines, "You're a cruel woman."

You giggle before leaning down so your mouth was beside his ear whispering,

"I just want you in top condition."

He tenses and looks at you with a smirk and nods as you lie back down beside him.

"I think I cope with that." He murmurs.

"Good now, I'm going to talk with the boys about what our next move is, you rest up okay?" You say climbing out the bed and he sits up, shaking his head.

"I'm fine, I don't want to be kept out the loop." He says determinedly and climbs out the best wincing at the ache in his shoulder and stumbles slightly and you rush over to hold him steady and he laughs wrapping his uninjured arm around you and walks out the room and into Namjoon's office where everyone but Hoseok and Yoongi was.

"There you are was going to get Jimin to come wake you both. How are you feeling Kook? Y/N?" Namjoon says looking you both over to make sure you're okay.

"I'm fine, sore and achy but nothing I can't handle." Jungkook says nodding at Namjoon.

"Same here, I've took a worse beating." You mumble and they nod before changing subject.

"Got any idea what's their plan?" Jin says and Namjoon nods and turns to the screen behind him.

"So it's definitely confirmed Kang Beom-Seok and Zhang Yixing are in business together. Yixing takes everything over if he marries Y/N which is why he's so set on getting you back but technically speaking he can't." Namjoon says smirking.

"Why not?" Yoongi asks walking into the room wiping his hands making me cringe knowing exactly what had been happening. Interrogation.

"Because Y/N isn't actually Beom-Seok's daughter. But Beom-Seok only wants Y/N back because she's technically the only successor he has because he thinks she doesn't know about her not being his daughter, he's not protective of her because she's his daughter, he's not protective at all, he's possessive, he knows if something happened to her he'll have no successor at all meaning-" Namjoon explains but I cut him off,

"The business can no longer continue."

Namjoon nods.

"They only want Y/N to keep and gain power, but the thing is it doesn't work like that since she isn't his true successor, it's just the way the mafia works, you have to be their pure blood and you have none of his. His gang is doomed. She would of eventually found out and everyone would know, he'd get executed for taking another mans daughter just so he can continue his business, even if he was dead yet alone killed him, that's just how it works." Jungkook chuckles finding amusement in the situation.

"But that's not all." Namjoon says and changes the screen to photos of each of them from afar.

"They've been monitoring us..." Taehyung whispers with wide eyes.

"Way before we even met Y/N. They wanted to tear us apart for months. We're classed as the top dogs in the city, Beom-Seok just below us, if we fall apart or die he's on top which is what he wants, I don't care about rank but if Beom-Seok gets to the top, the whole city will be torn apart. We're the only thing in his way. He isn't going to rest until we're dead." Namjoon says looking at all of us.

Hoseok walks into the room and shakes his head,

"He won't give us anything. Beginning to believe he's genuinely been kept out the loop. I've tried everything to try and get something."

"Even-" Taehyung begins but Hoseok gives him a look and nods,

"Everything." Hoseok says and Taehyung shivers turning back to Namjoon.

"Okay well you know what to do." Namjoon sighs and Hoseok nods going to walk out the room but Yoongi stops him,

"Hold on...There's a car outside the house...I'm going through the cameras, it's been there all night...they didn't fall for it."

He looks back up from the computer with a stern look and murmurs making my heart race,

"They know we're here."

Hello Love! I hope you are doing okay 🥺♥️ I miss youuu and your amazing writing 😭

Hey sweetheart I'll be back as soon as I can, I'm having some issues with my laptop I use to write but I promise I'll be back soon with an update. I miss you too 🥺❤

jin is always a mood

before Jungkook was born

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