Cordelia: So If I Died, You Would Be Upset?

Cordelia: So if I died, you would be upset?

James: No, if you died I would destroy this whole city in a pathetic attempt to try to reach you, only to feel worthless and useless without you in my life.

Cordelia: But you don’t love me?

James: Absolutely not.

Adam Silvera looking at us crying because they die at the end but it's in the title of the book

*spoiler for “they both die at the end”*

just thinking about how they never really got to say goodbye.

just thinking about how in the beginning mateo said he was raised in his home and would die in his home.

just thinking about how he knew the stove was broken.

just thinking about how rufus died listening to mateo singing to him.

just thinking about how finding each, indeed did kill them.

just thinking about how so many songs fit them- so well (ribs by lorde, “you’re the only friend i need”, like real people do by hozier, kiss goodnight by idkhbtfm, carry me out, burning hill, pink in the night, francis forever, your best american girl- anything by mitski, two ghosts- harry styles, etc.).

just thinking about how mateo probably thought his father wouldn’t love him the same or lidia either if they knew who he loved so he neglected that feeling.

just thinking about the part where rufus holds mateo’s hand before jumping.

just thinking about how rufus was the reason mateo lived so long that day and mateo was the reason he died so shortly after he did.

just thinking about how no one could tell the pluto’s rufus had died, they just kind of assumed the next day i guess.

just thinking about how rufus was left behind again but he probably thought he was the one who left mateo.

just thinking about how rufus probably blamed himself for not getting up earlier, thinking he could’ve saved mateo.

just thinking about how rufus lied to the ambulance and said mateo never got the call.

just thinking about how all the stories connect.

just thinking, just thinking, just thinking.

LMAO

Evangeline @ Cal

renegades characters as kermit memes that nobody asked for

nova:

adrian:

oscar:

ruby:

danna:

max:

callum:

phobia:

leroy:

adrian’s dads:

me: *reading they both die at the end*

end of the book: *they die*

me: