When Have You Last Hugged Someone?

When have you last hugged someone?

No, not those hugs you give when you meet up with a friend or bid goodbye.

When have you last hugged someone? Wrapped your arms around them as tightly as you could, smiled or cried at their familiar scent, buried your face into their neck, pulling them to yourself as close as you could, so much that you wished you were one with them, so much that you never, ever wanted to let go.

For Gojo, the answer was never.

"C'mon, Satoru, let me go already!" Your laughing voice sounds muffled beneath his suffocating body. "You're such a baby."

Until he met you.

He tries to laugh with you, but he's too relieved, too focused on holding his tears back to let you go.

He had a nightmare, you see.

One you kissed him a teary goodbye, one your hands felt cold, one where he hugged you just like this but you felt cold and limp.

For the first time in his life, Gojo had a nightmare that woke him up with tears running down his cheeks.

His heart races as he thinks back on the cursed dream, his hand pull you even closer.

As someone who never let anyone get close to him- physically or emotionally, as someone who never let anyone touch him or his heart, it sure is terrifying to be on the verge of tears just because he saw you dying in his dream.

Gojo is no coward.

But he sometimes wishes he never met you.

Because he can't leave you. He can't leave you like he has been doing all his life. Whenever someone got too close, whenever he cared too much about anyone, leaving was the better choice for both parties.

But this time, even when he tried to, Gojo can't leave you.

Gojo is no coward.

But he sometimes wishes he never met you.

Because then, he wouldn't have to wake up crying in fear to the thought of you leaving him.

a/n: a lil drabble because it's free therapy to write when I'm sad. Anyways. When have you last hugged someone?

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Suna calls you ugly.

Lovingly.

"Hey, ugly." He always greets you with a teasing smile; kisses the fake pout off of your lips at his choice of words. You try to suppress your smile when you feel his smile against your lips.

He calls you baby when he's frustrated, darling when you fight, love when you're sad, babe when he's teasing.

His camera roll is full of pictures of you doing random things. You say they're ugly; delete them, rin! He agrees; they are ugly, he tells you with the smallest, lovesick smile on his lips as he looks at the picture.

"Hey, asshole."

He gives you an airy chuckle, placing his backpack on the ground. "I come bearing gifts."

"Snacks?" You ask; he watches with amusement at how your eyes sparkle. "Yes, ugly, snacks." Suna rolls his eyes, throwing his arm around your shoulder. "You don't get this excited when you see me."

"Shut up and give them to me already." You try to wiggle out of his hold, but his arm closes around you tight before you can. Suna pulls you back to his chest, pressing you to himself as hard as he can. You can feel his laughter in his chest as you shout for your life. You can hear his heartbeat doubling against your ear.

Whenever he sees you getting ready for a date or coffee plans with friends, "you look ugly." is the first thing he would say. But the words come out of his lips a smitten smile, pinching your nose, his hand squeezing yours affectionately as he says it.

He sends you fish memes, "Look, it's you." He captions it. You tell him to fuck off, knowing he's smiling widely on the other side of the screen.

And when he's away for volleyball tournaments, Suna always sounds down on the phones. You know he gets tired easily, you know he finds solace in your voice, but it's because of the time difference he doesn't let you talk with him often. "Good night, ugly." He says before hanging up. It sounds more like an I miss you.

He knows you understand that he doesn't mean it. He knows you know it's just him telling you, "You look pretty."

"I'm really grateful you're with me."

"You're the most beautiful thing that ever happened to me."

Everyone has different ways of saying things, showing feelings, and for someone not used to showing affection, this is Suna's way of saying, "I'm in love with you."

And you wouldn't want it any other way.