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YOUR INSECURITIES BASED ON THE HQ CHARACTERS YOU LIKE
— 𝐍𝐄𝐊𝐎𝐌𝐀
author’s note: welcome back to the call out series!!! :D today we’re talking about the nekoma boys hehe so again, do let me know if you relate to any of them!! ^^ check out the other schools i’ve done here :) enjoy~
𝐊𝐔𝐑𝐎𝐎
you struggle to choose between your brain and your heart. logically, you know the practical choice to make, but you hesitate because your heart is pulling you in a different direction. you choose practicality in the end, but the ache in your chest never ceases. you’re consumed by the ‘what if’s and the ‘what could have been’s, and you constantly question if you made the right choice or not. you throw yourself into work to keep your mind distracted. but deep down inside, doubt and regret eats away at your soul.
𝐊𝐄𝐍𝐌𝐀
you are easily overwhelmed, whether it’s in terms of social interaction, school work, or just life in general. you feel tired and want to get away from everything. you value your alone time a lot and use it to do the things you enjoy so you can finally relax. but then you start to feel guilty for not doing anything and you wonder whether or not you’re wasting your life away. you just wish the world would stop wanting things from you. you wish you could live in peace.
𝐘𝐀𝐊𝐔
you’re insecure about your physical traits. there’s that one thing you wish you could change, whether it’s that mole on your face, your crooked teeth, your short stature, or your lanky body. you don’t like the way you were made and when someone points it out, the confidence that you’ve built up immediately crumbles to the ground. suddenly all you can think about is that one flaw and how much you hate it. you wish you were born differently.
𝐘𝐀𝐌𝐀𝐌𝐎𝐓𝐎
you try your best but you never succeed. you put in your 110% but somehow, your results are always just average. why is it that you don’t reap what you sow? does effort not equate to performance? you see others doing absolutely nothing, yet they perform so much better. you don’t understand why you’re getting the short end of the stick. you’re frustrated with them, but you’re more frustrated with yourself. you hate that the world is treating you so unfairly.
𝐋𝐄𝐕
everyone brushes you off and thinks you’re naïve. they treat you like you know nothing. but you do, you know everything. you just don’t say it because you know they won’t listen to you even if you spoke up. so you let them believe it. you let them believe that you’re immature, and that you don’t understand. but no one knows that you’ve experienced things too. no one knows that you understand the pain more than anyone else. and it hurts to not be believed.
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YOUR INSECURITIES BASED ON THE HQ CHARACTERS YOU LIKE
— 𝐀𝐎𝐁𝐀 𝐉𝐎𝐇𝐒𝐀𝐈
author’s note: hello everyone!! here’s my insecurities post for the seijoh boys :) nekoma is up next ^^ let me know if you related to any of these!! you can check out the other schools i’ve done here :) enjoy :D
𝐎𝐈𝐊𝐀𝐖𝐀
you’re extremely insecure. there’s always that one person you compare yourself to, and no matter how hard you try, they’ll always be better than you. you’re probably a blatant perfectionist with very high expectations of yourself. you force yourself to meet them, because you’ll hate yourself if you don’t. this means that you end up burning out a lot. you’re never fully satisfied with your performance and you always find faults with yourself. you are your worst critic and your own biggest enemy.
𝐈𝐖𝐀𝐈𝐙𝐔𝐌𝐈
you know you’re competent and you know you can succeed. so when you don’t, the doubts consume you and all you can think of is how much of a failure you are. if you were so good, why couldn’t you do it? if you say you can succeed, why the hell don’t your actions prove it? in the end it’s all about the results, and clearly, yours don’t show anything. maybe you weren’t as good as you thought you were. or maybe, you just weren’t any good to begin with.
𝐌𝐀𝐊𝐊𝐈
you are the least popular person in your friend group. compared to them, you think you are the least attractive, the least talented, and the one everyone else can do fine without. you try to make yourself stand out with humour, but you know you’ll never be as wanted as the rest. you hang out with them, but you don’t really feel like you belong. you hate that others are naturally wanted while you have to actually put in effort to be. you wish life wasn’t so unfair.
𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐒𝐔𝐍
you hate vulnerability. you don’t tell anyone about your problems, and you always deal with it on your own. you act nonchalent in front of others, saying it’s nothing when they ask you what’s wrong. but when you’re alone, you feel everything, and it’s always so raw and so painful. you hate the feeling of hurting, so you distract yourself and pretend your problems don’t exist. you’re always running away, because you’d rather live in ignorant bliss.
𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐃𝐀𝐈𝐂𝐇𝐈
you have trust issues because someone has broken your trust before. you are a pessimist, skeptical, and you don’t believe that people can change. you hold grudges against those who did you wrong and you want to erase them from your memory. but sometimes, you still think about how they betrayed you, how they walked out on you and made you feel like nothing. you hate that they’ll forever leave a mark on your life. because of them, you’ll never be the same again.
𝐊𝐔𝐍𝐈𝐌𝐈
sometimes, you wonder if people hate you. they’re always telling you ways you can be better, telling you who you can be. you act like you don’t care, but deep down, you know that you do. you see people whispering, and you can’t help but wonder if they’re gossiping about you. you hate society’s standards and you suffocate under them, but you still want people to like you. you just wish you could be accepted for who you are. you just want to be free.
𝐊𝐘𝐎𝐓𝐀𝐍𝐈
you cannot control your anger. you tend to lash out when you’re mad and say things that you don’t really mean. as a result, many people avoid you and you’re left all alone. you want to control yourself, but in the heat of the moment you’re blinded by rage and lose all sense of rationality. but no one realises it’s because you harbour a lot of hurt, and one spark ignites the whole fire. you wish people could understand. you wish they wanted to be around you.
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HAIKYUU BOYS AND HOW THEY SAY “I LOVE YOU”
— from gab. a self-indulgent piece i wrote after weeks of feeling guilty and frustrated over my writing. it’s different from my usual but i hope y’all like it regardless!! this is also a special fic to celebrate my birthday :D
— feat. sugawara, nishinoya, kageyama, tsukishima, kuroo, kenma, iwaizumi, oikawa, akaashi, bokuto, osamu, atsumu, and kita (das a lot whew)
SUGAWARA expresses his love though wordless sacrifices. he believes that love is best reflected through little but meaningful actions, with the hope that these accumulate enough to relieve fractions of your daily stresses. that extra hour of late night calls despite him resisting the tug of slumber; the slight tilt of his umbrella to keep you shaded regardless of his soaked sleeve — just few of the many subtleties that become second nature to him, just as keeping you happy becomes an inherent part of who he is.
NISHINOYA says “i love you” through his lingering touches. though physical touch has always been an innate part of him, with you, they now carry the heavy weight of his emotions. his fingertips tracing the crevices of your hands before enveloping them in his; an arm holding your lower back; his palm cradling your cheek when he wakes up before you— all his delicate and electrifying touches convey different and significant messages. yet rooted in all of them is his omnipresent promise that he’ll never let you go.
KAGEYAMA has never been good with words and emotions. thus, he shows love the way he knows how— by immersing himself in your passions. while volleyball has always been a source of comfort to him, opening up that part of himself to you and watching you enjoy it kindled a whole new fire within him, a sensation that he came to know as love. with this logic, he hopes that engaging himself in your own world of passions will blossom the same pleasant warmth and express the love he can’t accurately convey.
TSUKISHIMA lets his love pierce through his apathetic mask by always ending the night talking to you. regardless if it’s in person or over call, he weaves sincerity and affection into his words as he asks you, “how was your day.” he drops everything to genuinely listen to you, because in that moment and in his mind, all that matters to him is you. in the tenderness of it all, his silence and the steadiness of his breaths become a blanket enveloping you with warmth and a reminder that he’s there, he cares, and he loves you.
KUROO’s love flows through the playful banter and teasing he throws at you everyday. he believes that love should be simple, fun and light-hearted, the exact emotions he aims to make you feel every time you two joke around. like waves seeping into the sand with each crash, each of his jokes and witty remarks gently and steadily permeate deep within you, molding a lasting impression of his love for you. an impression that only grows with time and never fails to remind you to have fun and to enjoy the little things.
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marina made music to comfort teenagers that felt that they were raised to focus on work and achievement and success but were ultimately very, very lonely. The family jewels was made for kids that felt they were too stiff and closed off to be loved. “A control freak driven by a greed to succeed” and “I know exactly why I walk and talk like a machine” and “could never tell you what happened the day I turned 17” the ENTIRETY of obsessions, the desperate pleading of “I’m vulnerable, I’m vulnerable.” Marina comforted those who felt unlovable and overwhelmed with their youth, who felt like their whole life depended on their teenage years but simultaneously believed they were wasting them, and who feared their whole life would be missing out on opportunities.
Baby Fever | Tōru Oikawa
Pairing: Tōru Oikawa x reader
Prompt/summary: Lately something changed. You swore you didn’t want kids for pretty much your entire life, but then one day you found yourself smiling at the little baby in a woman’s arms at the grocery store, and found yourself wondering what a baby mixed with your and Oikawa’s genes would look like, and now you were in too deep to stop it. The only question that remained was: did Tōru even want a kid?
Word count: 7.3K
Warnings/contents: Smut: Biting, spitting, spanking, lot’s of praising, degrading name calling, oral, hand job, male masterbation, female masterbation, consensual somno. Strong language, fluff, 18+
Notes: Alright, my obsession with Tōru Oikawa is borderline unhealthy at this point. Who’s coming to therapy with me?
In this, both you and Tōru are 26 years old, married and living a good happy life in your apartment with your cat. Enjoy!
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Ever since the two of you became close friends, and especially so once the two of you started dating, you were certain that you knew everything about Oikawa, and likewise in his position of knowing all there was to know about you.
But then one day, completely out of the blue, there was a bit of a shift in your personality. You weren’t sure what was going on, and it arose a question inside of you. The issue was that you were starting to feel attached to babies. Babies you’ve never seen, as well as your friends baby, that was becoming cuter to you lately. You weren’t sure what was going on with yourself, but it forced you to realize that there was one thing you weren’t sure about Tōru.
Did he want a baby? You had always made it pretty clear that you didn’t necessarily like or want kids, and so it was just never asked as he never brought a child up before, but now you were laying awake questioning if maybe the man that was snuggled against your body might want a baby with you, and had just not said anything because you didn’t want one.
And then there was your other issue to worry about. Why were you suddenly smiling at babies in public, and getting happy when they waved back at you? Why were you seeing the little clothes in the baby department and wondering what a child that had both your and Oikawa’s genes would look like.
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haikyuu boys and what do they wish you in 2021
(they told me btw ;) )
HINATA
to be motivated throughout the year. "do what you like and like what you do" - is something he would say. to not lose hope in yourself and believing in your future success/happiness/relationship/whatever you want to archive.
KAGEYAMA
to be yourself and wait for people who will love you no matter how many bad traits you have. to never want to change yourself for anyone, because right people will stay no matter what.
SUGAWARA
positivity. to see only good in people and situations. because you attract what you put your energy into. so, waste time on positive experiences.
KENMA , SUNA & TENDOU
he wishes you stop caring what do other people think about you :) because they see only what they want to see, hear only what they want to hear. their actions are reflection of their own inner state and what do they think about of themselves
YAMAGUCHI
a want to becoming better and growing. he wishes you to stop running from your past mistakes and learn from them instead. you are not the same as you were last year.
DAICHI
to value what you have now and be grateful for everything, so you receive what you have always wanted.
OIKAWA
he wishes you love and self love. make your inner peace and forgiveness of yourself your main goal and look how much you'll improve.
TSUKISHIMA
to find something that matters to you. something that will keep you going. something that will make you proud of yourself. maybe if it won't matter in a few years, the effort you put into will not be useless.
Hoodie.
Levi’s clothes are disappearing day by day. Prompt from this list.
Genre: Modern AU, fluff, kinda crack?
Warnings: Implied smut, swearing.
Word count: 725 words.
Angel: This one’s in my draft for like a week.
“Stop hogging the blanket!” He clicks his tongue at you, your name coming out of his mouth in a demanding tone, he sounded like your mother. You ignored him anyway, submitting to the warmth and softness of the fabric and turning your back on him, making your lover scoff.
“How dare you.” He mutters.
The morning came fast, your man and his punctuality never cease, he woke up before his alarm and did productive things before deciding to take a shower and pick some clothes. His eyebrows rose at the sight of his unusual closet.
Levi never spoke up about your habits. How you lightly snore when you sleep, how you whine to yourself when you can’t find your things, when you make a mess and leave it for exactly one hour before deciding to clean it up.
You are weird in your own, little way. And Levi usually does not mind.
But these days, the man’s closet seemed to be getting bigger as weeks pass by. There is something wrong but he can’t point it out. Is he losing clothes?
Levi grew accustomed of waking up without the duvet, and sometimes without his pillows, too, but in the three years that you are in a relationship, he never witnessed you take his clothes. . . in short, he hadn’t caught you, yet.
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You lay on your bed while flicking through your phone, browsing through the newsfeed and gossiping online while hugging your boyfriend’s black hoodie. It’s one of his favorites, you knew that, but it became one of yours, too! Besides, he doesn’t seem to notice. . .
Sounds made by the fan is white noise to your ears, you swear your eyelids are getting heavier moment by moment. Regret filled your heart as you realize that you could have been in Levi’s apartment today, but he said that he’d work late, so you decided to go home to your own nest because it’s been two weeks since you last slept in your own bed.
You kind of miss your boyfriend’s place, now. His scent just lingered all over the apartment and words can’t describe how much you love it. But, it’s fine, I have his hoodie tonight anyway, you thought.
Just as you were about to concede to the drowsiness due to your incredibly hectic day, the door of your bedroom gradually opened, the light from your living room illuminating the dark, cold nook.
Levi stood by the doorway, eyeing you. His suspicion did not fail him, eyes darting to the hoodie residing in your arms. Your sleepiness seemed to evaporate as you realize what he had realized.
“I knew it!” He says, barging into your room. He had been cold all day and God knows how salty he was at work just because he wasn’t with his favorite hoodie!
“I promise, I didn’t steal your hoodie—” You defended yourself and you were cut off when your man stole his hoodie away from you, “Hey, give it back!” You stood up, ready to fight for the piece of clothing.
He glared at you, keeping the hoodie so close to him you felt kinda jealous. Realizing how serious he is about his clothes, you smiled sheepishly after realizing that he might go through your closet and go berserk the moment he finds out how full your closet is because of his own clothes.
“I’ve been cold all day because of you, woman.” He spat out your name as if he had loathed you, he is so serious about this!
With the sleepiness already gone, you stood in front of him, scratching his undercut and grinning when you had felt him groan under your touch.
“How about I keep you warm tonight, yeah?” You offered, mischievousness glinting in your eyes. And of course, who is he to decline? He needs your warmth after a long, tiring, and cold damn day.
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Soreness has greeted your body first thing in the morning. Every part of you aches, while your lover who’s cheek is currently squished against your chest is sleeping soundly. Bruises of last night’s hot love-making is evident on his neck and chest, and you really don’t want to think about yours.
Limping from the bed to the bathroom, a smirk formed on your swollen lips, seeing his hoodie on you.
Hah, at least I get to keep it.
I need a comforting Levi helping a reader study for exams😭😭 reader is stressed to no end about trying to do well so Levi helps them study. It can be a fix or HC! Love the blog❤️🥰
A/N: ANON. I NEEDED THIS. WE ALL NEEDED THIS. This is for all of y’all with exams coming up. love u all we will get thru this together!!!!
Stressed - fluff! modernAU
To say you were stressed was the understatement of the year. Exam season had crept up on you, and between the 7am lectures and recorded classes, to say you were behind was also the understatement of the year.
You had an exam the next day, and you couldn’t focus. The class was full of high achievers, scholarship students, and upper years. You cursed yourself for selecting the course in the first place as you pressed that 1.75 speed button on the recording playback yet another time.
The professor’s voice droned, sounding just slightly like a mouse as you tried to focus. The anxiety swirled in your stomach, making it impossible to focus. What if your internet died? What if the exam software doesn’t work?
You had done practice question after practice question, practice exam after practice exam, yet nothing would quell the churning your stomach made as you had to rewind the lecture back nearly twenty minutes. You hadn’t heard a single word of what your professor was saying.
The door opened to your apartment, and Levi walked in, hanging his coat on the hook as he shrugged off his bag. He took one look at you, one pajama leg high and the other low, your tshirt wrinkled from the amount of times you had clenched your clammy hands in the fabric, your hair half in and half out of your hair-tie, and the frazzled blank look in your eyes and he knew.
He sat you down in your chair, putting on your favourite study soundtrack as he handed you your highlighter and flash cards before walking away, his sweater sleeves pulled just past his forearms as he donned an apron adorned with hearts.
Soon, your eyes got bleary after highlighting what seemed like every word of your notes. Your hand was tired, and your brain was bursting with information you tried desperately to remember. Just when you were about to have another breakdown, you felt gentle hands shaking your shoulders. You looked up to see your boyfriend, now changed into his home clothes, hand outstretched. It was dinner time.
He made your favourite, curry with pork katsu, and as you munched, you could feel the slight spicy tinge of the curry tickling your throat. Turns out, food did wonders for calming you down, and as you patted your tummy after the meal, handing your empty plate to Levi, he smiled down at you. He sent you back off to your desk, pressing a soft kiss to the top of your head with the promise that he would be there soon.
The whirring of the dishwasher going hinted at his arrival, and soon your ever-attentive boyfriend was indeed right beside you. Taking the highlighter from your hands, he got you to sit back and close your eyes, running through your huge stack of flash cards one by one. Term, definition, what is its significance.
With every definition you got correct, you felt a little bit of control coming back into your life. As the definition of each term flashed in your head as Levi mentioned the word, you felt your anxiety melt slightly, the churning in your stomach settling.
By the time the pile was depleted, you only had a small handful of terms that landed in the ‘not so sure’ pile. Levi helped as he handed you your notes, helping you skim for where you had written in your cute little letters about that term you weren’t sure about.
Before you knew it, everything was accounted for. All the terms memorized. Suddenly you felt a rush of tears coming to your eyes and before either of you knew it, you had jumped from your seat and was gripping Levi hard, rubbing your nose against his cheek. You thanked him for getting you to calm down. You thanked him for dinner, for cleaning up, and helping you from breaking down over an exam where it turned out you had total control over the material.
After recovering from the initial shock of your outburst, he had pressed a soft kiss to your forehead before taking your hand and standing up.
“Come on brat, a good night sleep is just as important as studying hard. Let’s get to bed.”
Needless to say…you got your A.
FALLING IN LOVE WITH BNHA BOYS
→ pairing: bakugo, todoroki, kirishima, hawks, dabi
→ warning: smut
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怒り BAKUGO
↬ falling in love with bakugo katsuki is like driving your car down the fast lane like no one is watching; it’s thrills down your spine and a pulsing in your head; feeling breathless when he kisses you; being bonked on the head with test papers while studying; holding his hand while drive to nowhere in particular; passionate kisses that make your toes curl; seeing him at the pool and flushing like a cherry; late night phone calls where his gruff and husky voices makes you feel funny; watching him take down bad guys with a smirk on his face and never feeling more attracted to him in your life; it’s knowing that with all his cold shoulders and complaining translate directly into how much he cares.
↬ bakugo katsuki falling in love with you is seeing you smile and scowling at that fluttering feeling in his chest; it’s kissing your hand when he’s holding it while no ones looking; feeling a heated urge when he sees you at the pool wearing that; study dates where he can’t help but think how cute you look while you chew on your pencil; late phone calls where your soft voice lulls him to sleep; trying his best to impress you while he’s blowing up shit, proud of himself; pretending he doesn’t care but scared that if he showed you how badly he wanted you you might run away; seeing you walk toward him in the hallway with this glow and he never wants this to change. ever.
氷 TODOROKI
↬ falling in love with shoto todoroki is like watching cherry blossom petals fall around you like a dream; it’s gentle touches and longing looks; standing right next to him whenever the two of you are in the same room; it’s because even when all you see and hear is chaos, he is the only sense of calmness and right everywhere you look; him giving you soba noodles that he so happened to accidently make too much of; his hand from his cool side touching you and still leaving a burning sensation on your skin; switching which side you walk on during dates depending on the season; seeing him as not just hot and cold, but warm and cool.
↬ shoto todoroki falling in love with you is breathing in fresh air on a chilly autumn day, hugs and cuddles for the first time; kisses that make a warmth in his chest blossom; being scared of losing you after villain’s had attacked ua, holding you tightly against his chest; not being able to sleep and going to your room to chat; going to cafe’s and having to be dragged away; whispering your name like a prayer in your ear when you’re about to come, watching you sleep so peacefully afterwards; your eyes, filling with compassion and heartache and love when he talks about his childhood and father; his pride, when you don’t take shit from his father and stand up to him; his world, right in front of him this whole time.
岩 KIRISHIMA
↬ falling in love with kirishima is like stepping into the sun after being exposed to night for years; it’s seeing him smile and a thousand emotions exploding in your chest; his support no matter what path you take; his love overflowing you like a current, reminding you how beautiful you are to him; his determination, filling you with a sense of pride; working out with him, telling you how “manly” you look; constant cuddles, so much that the other student of class 1-a tell you to get a room; getting the best hugs, ones that lift you off the ground and make your stretch out your legs like a leopard; loving kirishima for the selfless man he is.
↬ kirishima falling in love with you is admiring your strength and courage to be who you are and pushing him to be his best every day; it’s soft cuddles in the bath, loving when you touch his long hair; it’s walking you home from school; talking about you so much that bakugou threatens to blow his head up; texting you wholesome shit to see if you’ll smile in class and then getting his phone taken away; it’s having you officially join the bakusquad because you’re practically a member anyway; it’s the whole room lighting up when you enter; always being as close as humanly possible, because you light a warm flame inside of him.
翼 HAWKS
↬ falling in love with hawks is like running your hand into a steady stream that turns into a mighty river; it’s watching him fly and your heart travelling with him; it’s that smile of his that turns your insides to mush; him carrying you through the sky and kissing you on some rooftop; lunch dates where you just talk about whatever; seeing him on the pro hero charts and feeling a rush of warmth, congratulating him with a peck on his cheek; it’s visiting his apartment at night, when the darkness begins to consume him; it’s his wings wrapping around you both to pull you close as he fucks you from behind, murmuring praises into your ear and hold you throughout the night as he spoons you from behind, the haziness of the night swallowing you whole.
↬ hawks falling in love with you is watching you from buildings, worried about your safety; sometimes it’s refusal to talk about work and you desperately calling out to him; later it’s delicately kissing you on the head, as you bury your face into his chest; it’s seeing you trust him, believe in what he’s doing; listening to him talk about his past; it’s thinking about you at night, grasping at the empty bedsheets next to him; standing to close to you in the morning at work, making you flustered with the attention; it’s locking his office and using his wings to shield you; it’s you gently cleaning his wings for him while he traces your hips in the shower; it’s seeing you today and the next day and the next.
火 DABI
↬ falling in love with dabi is like dousing yourself in kerosene and hoping you don’t light aflame, and enduring as skin peels and blisters; it’s watching him closely, too closely; it’s catching his attention and finding yourself in an unknown basement, kidnapped; questions and questions but never about how you are, just who and when and where and why; it’s seeing the sadness in his eyes, wanting to take it away even when he is your captor; it’s joining the league, because as much as he hid his distress at the thought of you leaving, you knew; it’s going to his bedroom at night because it’s too cold and risking being turned to ash, just at the promise of a little warmth; it’s him looking at you with wonder and curiosity as you hold his face in your hands without disgust, even kissing him.
↬ dabi falling in love with you is cold-blooded fear; it’s something nostalgic and foreign in his chest that he doesn’t want anymore, but it’s heavy when he steps close to you; it’s keeping watch over you the longest, though no one mentions it; refusing to answer to your questions, but still listening to your one-sided conversations; it’s feeling his shoulders unclench when he hears your voice; it’s panic in chest when shigaraki talks about letting you go again since you’re not a treat to the league; it’s aggressive tears that sting his face and creating a burning sensation again when he even thinks about it; it’s ecstacy swallowing him whole when you tell everyone you’re staying; it’s holding you so tight he could break your bones when you slip into his room at night, afraid he’ll break if he lets go; so he doesn’t.
Hi there, I have really bad anxiety and sometimes, the thoughts in my head is so loud that I just flip onto autopilot I guess?? Like, I can go to school and do the work but the whole time I’m there, I’m just an emotionless robot who doesn’t talk to anyone that day (only brief sentences at best) and has their earplugs practically glued to their ears. I’ll forget to have lunch and probably be clumsy. I call these days “silent days”. (Sorry for the long-ass explaination)
So, can I have Headcanons for Kemma, Kuroo, Tsukishima, and Hinata on how would they deal/treat their s/o (knowing abt them beforehand) during these “silent days”??
I have adhd n go into depressive states like that pretty often, so i can relate! Please take care of yourself. U r so important n ily!! /platonic + never be sorry for long explanations!
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Kenma Kozume
• He's worried over you, fussing like a very standoffish mother hen.
• He'll bring/buy you lunch during these days, reminding you to drink, and helping you not to be so clumsy.
• He'll pay more attention to class to take notes for you if you don't feel up to it/just can't do it.
• He will bring a second handheld or let you play a game on his phone if you'd like to, He hates seeing that empty look in your eyes.
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Kuroo
• If you thought his doting nature was bad before, you haven't seen shit yet.
• Forget lunch? Here, he packed more than he can eat, take it.
• Not drinking enough? He'll buy you a water or a juice from a vending machine.
• Forget hygiene? He's got you! Always carries that spray mouthwash shit on him + Baby wipes (they actually work wonders when ur too out of it to actually shower!!)
• He'll let you rest on his chest and nap whenever you need to. Volleyball can wait for now, you're way more important.
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Tsukkishima Kei
• Tsukki does NOT want to outwardly show he cares, but his doting is worse than kuroos.
• Meals, water, a hug ready at any time, and and very small dinosaur plush keychain for you to hold.
• He'll share his notes with you + go over classes with you if you need him to.
• Tsundere tsukkishima actually cares so much! you're his love and he'd do anything for you despite the fact he's a raging asshole.
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Hinata Shoyo
• Holy shit. Holy shit.
• Hinata always panics slightly whenever you're in these states. He's always afraid of messing something up!
• He will always Have an extra bento on him for you. If you don't eat it he always will! (meat is god flashbacks ( <o> _ <o>) )
• He will cuddle you if you so much as say the word. he loves you so so much!!
hey lovie do you think you could write something kind of related to the piece where Levi was describing the reader to his daughter, and it's right after the reader's death, maybe at her service or something and he's coping with her death and write how he interacts with his daughter after? I think you write angst so well but you can do whatever you want with it! Thank you!
Ok sure, I will break your heart a thousand times
Summary: Levi has witheld himself since his wife’s death, his daughter needs him but he can’t bring himself to do anything. Until Hange and Erwin step in.
Disclaimer: Believe it or not I don’t own AoT I know shocker. I don’t own you because that’s illegal and we don’t stan the ownership of people. I also don’t own the GIF below.
Warnings: angst. Death. Angst. Did I mention the angst?
Please don’t repost that’s not cool, reblogs are fine
Levi x reader
Levi stood in the military graveyard, the sea of white headstones that surrounded him like the ghosts of his fallen comrades watching him in pity from their memorials where they now lay, their duty having been served. The rain fell softly from the sky as if the stormy clouds above were shedding their own tears for him, the gentle pitter patter of the droplets echoing throughout the empty final resting place for fallen soldiers.
The captain stared down at the newest headstone in the cemetery that rested a few centimetres before him, his silver eyes dulled with grief and had it not been raining it could have been mistaken that he was crying. His body as still as the bodies that lay meters beneath the ground, his jaw clenched tightly as his own grief took form.
The service had been a grand one, one that Levi knew you rightfully deserved for your years of service. As captain it was mandatory he attend every service for every scout member, he had always hated to go to military funerals because it meant another good solider had died. But this one had been the hardest to sit through, at any moment he feared he would have let his emotions get the better of him, he hadn’t moved from your resting spot since the reception ended twenty minutes ago and the procession had moved on to the remembrance leaving him alone in the rain with the headstone of his wife.
He closed his eyes briefly letting the unforgiving rain continue to trickle down his hair and over his frozen skin.
He could still see it as it happened, he could see you launching yourself towards another solider and pulling them out the way before the titan’s ugly hand had swiped at your ODM cables and launched you into an old building that had been outside the walls, your body crunching at the impact.
Levi inhaled sharply as the nightmare came flooding back, as he recalled sitting in the rubble which surrounded your broken body as he held you to his chest, begging you to stay with him as a trail of blood ran from your lips the fear in your eyes burned into his brain as you took your final desperate breaths.
His heart squirmed in his chest as he remembered the fading heart beat and your whispers of confessed love for him as he begged you to stay with him, your eyes slowly shutting leaving him to hold your lifeless body in his arms as he silently wept.
“Wish you were here brat.” he muttered reaching out to place a hand on the top of the headstone, the marble slick beneath his fingers from the rain as he kneeled beside it, making sure not to get too dirty, his military trench coat damp from the cold but he didn’t seem to care “you were amazing you know. I might not have said it enough but I- I loved you. The world won’t be the same without you in it.”
He wasn’t surprised at the silence that followed, he supposed this would be his life now: to be whispering his love to a white headstone, the woman he loved beneath his feet and deaf to his words. He released a muffled moan as he leaned in, resting his head against the cool marble, his ebony hair falling around his face as he remained kneeling on the sodden earth, one hand on the gravestone and his forehead pressed against the engraving of your name.
“Daddy.”
The captain’s eyes snapped open and he pulled his head off the headstone to turn and face the child that sat in Petra’s arms behind him, her huge (y/e/c) eyes staring intently back at him, curiousness embedded within their depths, her raven black head of hair ruffled from the wind and drizzle.
Levi stood up turning to his soldier who stood with his child in her arms, he avoided Petra’s sympathetic brown eyes as he reached out to take Kuchel from her. Petra slowly unwrapped her arms from around the small child as she passed her off to her father, Levi grunted a thank you as he held his daughter into his chest, his arms supporting her from underneath and wrapping around her ensuring she would never fall.
“Come inside Captain.” Petra warmly said giving him a small smile turning on her heal and leaving, heading towards the small white church that lay within the cemetery.
Levi watched his friend leave before turning his attention back onto the head stone, his daughter squirming in his arms as she buried her face into his ascot, her doll like hands grasping the collar of his trench coat. Levi let slip a small smile as he pressed his lips to her soft raven hair, resting his cheek on the top of her head as he gently rocked her back and forth his eyes not leaving the final resting place for his wife.
...
That was five months ago.
It was late at night, Levi wasn’t even sure what time it was, all he knew was that the paperwork he was filling out needed to get done. His hand aching in protest as he continued to scribble his signature over countless pieces of paper, his heavy and tiered eyes threatening to close and never open until morning.
He reached across the desk to grasp the tea cup that sat beside his ink pot and brought the china cup to his lips. Shit. It was cold. He had been working so hard he had left a perfectly good cup of tea go to waste, his heart clenched for a second as he placed the cup back down, staring at it in annoyance. Five months without someone to voluntarily refill his tea for him. He still hadn’t gotten used to your absence he longed for your company when he was loaded with work, you had made it bearable.
He sighed rubbing a hand across his face.
How had he lived five months without you?
Truth was he hadn’t. He hardly slept anymore then he already did, he hardly ate, his training had increased a great deal as he pushed his body to its limits trying to take his mind off of the whole situation. He didn’t even see his daughter half the time, often handing her to a cadet to look after her while he attended a meeting, telling the cadet if he saw so much as a scratch on her pretty face, he would make sure they never walked again. He wasn’t good at the parenting thing, the only reason he had been so sure he wanted a child was because he knew you would be there to help him not fuck it up.
He moved his hand away from his away from his face, his eyes landing on the framed wedding drawing on his desk. He couldn’t bare to see your smiling face looking up at him through lead pencil lines his own face looking back, the faintest smile on his face.
Levi sighed as his eyes stayed trained on the drawing, wishing he could pull you out of the frame and have you here with him. He reached over to turn the frame downwards so your image now lay smiling into the table.
He could still see your wedding day in his minds eye. It had been a huge event despite yours and his wishes, but Hange had begged for a big white wedding which he eventually agreed to. But the guests and the presents and the dancing he couldn’t have cared less about, the feeling he got when he saw you walking down the aisle looking so beautiful had taken his breath away. You had been the most desired woman in the entirety of the three walls, the other wives of the military superiors had nothing when it came to you. You had been an angel in a halo of glowing light and as he had watched you dance with the children he knew he was the luckiest son of a bitch alive.
Now you were gone. Only living in his memory.
A subtle knock came from the door and he was drawn from his momentary reminiscing, his gaze slowly landing in the door to his office where the knock had come from. He sighed leaning back into his desk chair resting an elbow on the arm rest and resting his chin on his hand dragging his little finger across his full lip.
“Name and business.”
“Levi?”
“What is it four eyes?”
The door opened to reveal Hange, her hair in its usual ponytail and her glasses reflecting the flickering candle light, her freckled face held a confident glare as she entered the office closing the door behind her as she walked over to Levi’s desk. He stared up at her through bored eyes arching a brow as he waited for an explanation into her arrival, he exhaled heavily and picked up his quill beginning to fill out more papers only for the section commander to snatch the quill from his hands.
“I have a lot of work to do Hange, what do you want?” he grumbled leaning back into his chair.
“Levi we need to talk.” she said, her voice not holding any signs of its usual insanity.
“Tch, we are talking shitty glasses.” he scoffed opening his desk drawer to pull out another quill and dipped it into the ink pot, only for Hange to snatch it away clutching the two quills tightly as if they would fly away, her hands resting on her hips.
“I’m being serious Levi. We need to talk.” she said again, her lips unsmiling and her brown eyes held a serious edge to them that made Levi think she actually had something worth his time to hear.
“About what?” he drawled watching her through tiered eyes.
Hange shifted slightly on the spot, clearly uncomfortable as to what she had to say. Levi was her best friend and she had noticed his gradual decline and depressed disposition, she had noticed how hard he was pushing himself, the bags under his eyes looked as if someone had drawn dark circles around his eyes with ink. She was worried he would work and work and work until he drove himself into an early grave beside yours.
He may have been humanity’s strongest, but he wasn’t invincible. He was human.
“You’re not well Levi.” Hange said softly careful not to agitate him, she held her ground even as he frowned at her.
“I’m perfectly fine four eyes. I’m still alive, in my books that’s as healthy as you get.” he said crossing his legs over and resting his arms on the sides of the desk chair, his golden wedding ring glinting in the candlelight.
Hange inhaled a deep breath, it hurt her to see her friend be in such denial. Levi was the strongest person she knew but this seemed to have made a chink in his armour, she didn’t want to push him into any kind of hysteria but knowing Levi his hysteria would be name calling and more paperwork.
“You haven’t slept properly in months, you’ve lost about ten pounds and you haven’t given yourself a day off to grieve properly since (y/n).... since (y/n) died.” Hange spoke faltering slightly at the mention of her friend.
“What’s your point Hange? I’m beginning to lose my patience.” Levi growled his bored expression holding signs of evident pain and annoyance.
“I’m trying to tell you that you need help!” she yelled slamming her hands down into the table causing the items in his desk to wobble slightly, Levi raised an eyebrow not even phased.
“Keep it down would you? I have my spawn sleeping in the other room.” Levi sighed glancing back at the door to check that his daughter hadn’t been awoken due to her aunts outburst, he turned back to see his friend’s face slightly red and he noticed that behind her glasses, her eyes were shaking with tears.
“Levi you aren’t you. Erwin suggested you take Kuchel and have a few days off, just the two of you.”
“Not going to happen. Tell eyebrows thanks but I still have to do my job.” Levi drawled, Hange sniffled slightly taking her hands off the desk.
“Erwin said if you refused the offer he would relieve you of your duty’s until you were healthier.”
The scientist held her breath waiting for her friend to react. She was expecting him to flip the desk, or maybe assault her from his uncontrolled rage at the break he was unwillingly forced to take. She expected this because it was what he had done when he returned back from the expedition that day, your body clutched tightly to him as he rode through the gates. Levi had completely destroyed his office from his tourment, Kuchel had had to be carried away by Oluo to get her away from her grieving father. Hange expected that reaction now, but he remained still, too tiered to make a move.
“I’m not going on some shitty holiday with my kid,” Levi said, his voice holding a chilling edge, his misty eyes narrowed as his hair fell around his face “I’m going to do my job to save lives and kill those lumbering bastards. Make this world better for my daughter not have a vacation, if Erwin doesn’t understand that then that’s his problem.”
“He’s worried about you Levi, we all are. You’ll kill yourself eventually if you carry on like this.” Hange whispered a tear falling from under her glasses causing Levi to scoff and look away.
“Tch. Let me die, if it means I’m making this world better with each fucking Titan I kill then so be it.”
“What about Kuchel?” Hange whispered and Levi’s eyes widened slightly his lips parting as he let his gaze fall back in the woman before him, tears still sliding down her cheeks.
“What about Kuchel?”
“Levi she’s a child not an idiot. She knows her mummy isn’t coming home, she knows her daddy is in pain. How can you say you will die so easily? That child, your daughter, she needs her father, now more then ever. Sure you can kill as many titans as you want but would that really make Kuchel’s world better if both her parents are dead?” Hange said her voice not even wavering, her glasses flashing white as her eyes began to cease the water works “I know you’ve been trying to spend time with her where you can but you can’t keep handing her off to cadets to babysit her. She was asking where her Daddy was today, she asked why her daddy didn’t love her enough to spend time with her.”
Levi’s heart lurched in his chest as Hange’s words, his own eyes now sparkling with tears. Of course he loved Kuchel, he loved her more then a father could possibly love their child, his neglect wasn’t because of carelessness. He had been so wrapped up in his own head and motives he hadn’t seen how it affected his child. Your child. The overbearing weight of depression and grief had worn him so ragged he was ignoring what he had left to be grateful for. He inhaled sharply closing his eyes trying to hold back the tears that were irritating his vision, his throat growing scratchy and dry as his mind began to accept what had actually happened.
“What do you do if Ku leaves your life? There are already speculations you aren’t fit to be we father. They could take her away Levi. Please, stop hurting yourself.” she begged tears uncontrollably running in waterfalls down her face.
“They wouldn’t dare...”
“Levi please stop fighting. For once just please allow yourself time to heal. (Y/n) is gone, but you have a daughter to take care of. Don’t let her out of your life too.” Hange whispered her voice shaking, Levi opened his mouth to respondbut closed it as her words sink in.
You were dead. You weren’t coming back and he needed to fix himself if he wanted to provide a good life for Kuchel. You would have slapped him silly for acting so weakly in a time that required strength, he had lost himself in his own heart shattering grief he had lost sight of the one person who still needed him.
Hange watched as Levi released a soft moan resting his elbows on the desk before him and hiding his hands in his face, his ebony hair concealed his eyes from her and the tears that fell from them.
“I loved her Hange.” he muttered pulling his face out of his hands to stare at her, her breath catching slightly at the sight of him crying. A single tear rolling down his narrow cheek.
“I know you did shorty.” Hange answered, her voice soft as Levi wiped the tears from his cheeks “(y/n) was...”
“Everything.”
“Yes. She was.”
“I thought I had learned to lose someone. I thought I would never lose her, I thought I would be better at protecting her.”
“Everyone dies Levi. You know more then anyone.”
“(Y/n) wasn’t everyone. She was mine.”
Hange closed her mouth a small smile working it’s way into her face as she nodded, a small exhale leaving her nose. Levi was quiet for a moment his steely irises quivering as unfallen tears danced across the surface of his eyes, his heart numb in his chest as he thought about his empty and alone he had felt in the world.
You had been his world. But Kuchel was a star glimmering beside you, one that he had payed no attention too when you had left him, Kuchel who’s brilliant light was slowly fading needing healing too.
He had to make things right. He just didn’t know how.
“I don’t know how to fix this.” he breathed letting his eyes meet hers, she remained silent for a while mulling over his words “why should she want me as a father after what I’ve put her through?”
Hange bit her lip, her mind forming answers.
“Tell me Levi.” she finally said “if (y/n) was here what would she say?”
He paused. The tears now pouring down his face as his mind brought him back to his days spent with you, your fingers running through his hair when he was stressed, or your laughter as you showed your amusement at something he had said. He could still smell your hair and feel your body as he pulled you close into him, the world melting away as he kept you safely in his arms never to be harmed.
“She would tell me to get a grip. The same way I would tell her the same thing. She would laugh at my stupidity and refuse to give me any affection until I fixed things.”
“If the roles were reversed, would you want (y/n) to be acting like you? Ignoring your daughter and neglecting her own health?”
“Of course not.”
“Then fix this Levi. I was (y/n)’s friend and it angers me to see you acting like this. She wouldn’t want this for you.”
Levi nodded standing up, his chair squeaking along the stone floors, he nodded to Hange and she gave him a weak smile before turning on her heal and exiting out the door. Levi sighed, left alone in the quiet office before he turned and walked towards his bedroom door where Kuchel was sleeping, she had been sleeping in his bed since you died. She complained that her room was too cold but Levi had a feeling she wanted to try and help heal him by keeping him company.
For a three year old she was incredibly intuitive, he didn’t give her enough credit.
He slowly entered his bedroom trying his best to slowly close the door and not wake her. A small candle that a acted as a nightlight for her sat flickering on the window sill, her small form nestled sweetly in between the bed sheets where her mother once lay, her tiny dark head almost engulfed by the white pillow and her toddler body drowning in the bedsheets.
Levi made his way over to the bed crouching beside her so his eyes were level with her head. A small smile made its way onto his lips as he watched her chest fall and rise, her rosebud lips parted slightly as she lightly snored. He noticed that her tiny hands were curled up into fists and her relatively long onyx hair curled gorgeously around her face, his heart swelled slightly at the sigh of it all.
“Ku.” he whispered her nickname, slowly reaching a hand out to gently shake her body.
She stirred, her huge eyes fluttering open to reveal her striking (y/e/c) irises and the breath hitched in Levi’s throat at the sight of them his mind flashing with images of you, the same colour eyes sparkling in the banks of his nostalgia. However, he quickly pushed his own sadness aside and waited for his daughter to properly wake up. She sat up rubbing her eyes with her doll like hands, blinking at him with curiosity, Levi gave her a small smile and ruffled her hair, still crouched beside her bed.
“Daddy?” she whispered, a small yawn escaping.
“Hey brat.” he muttered back and she released a childish giggle.
“Brat.” she repeated happily flashing him a toothy grin as if she was proud of her new found word.
“Yeah that’s you, a brat.” Levi mumbled placing one hand over her tummy and the other on the bed beside her.
“Why did you wake me up?” she asked lying back into her pillow as Levi kept a hand on her, rubbing his thumb over her back soothingly, he inhaled and closed his eyes briefly.
“Ku, how would you feel about a trip. Somewhere away from here, just me and you?” he asked softly, his cold eyes now holding an elemental warmth as his child’s face lit up, her beautiful eyes sparkling with joy.
“You mean that daddy?” she asked sitting up clasping her hands together.
“Yeah, I mean it brat. Wherever you want to go I’ll make it happen. So where do you wanna go?”
She was quiet for a moment squeezing her eyes shut trying to picture somewhere to go. Her nose scrunched up as her tiny mind tried to form an idea, Levi smirked to himself as he watched her. God, she was so much like her mother it was as if you were in the room with him, your warm presence in his mind spreading through his body.
He was drawn from his thoughts when Kuchel released a small gasp her eyes wide and dazzling with the idea she had conjured.
“Can we go to a castle? Like the ones in the stories that mummy read to me?” she asked. Levi huffed in amusement.
He knew there were a few old castles lying in some quiet areas of wall Rose long abandoned by nobles and made into resorts for military personnel on leave or holiday, some of which the survey corps owned. He was sure he could make it happen.
“What kind of castle?”
“Um...a big one?” she said unsurely causing Levi to let a chuckle slip at his toddlers words.
Once again he reached forward to ruffle her raven hair the thick locks of curls tangling with his fingers, bringing his face closer to hers as she released another giggle. She reached forward to place her chubby hands on both his cheeks, smooshing them together and bursting into laughter as she pressed his cheeks into funny faces, he sighed letting his hand fall from her head and around her body as she continued to smush his face in her delicate hands.
He rolled his eyes as his face was bullied by her toddler hands, her squeals of delight ringing in his ears as he playfully growled and lunged forward to wrap his arms around her small form, pulling her towards him dragging her across the bed sheets the girl squealing in shock as she was pulled into his chest. Levi grunted standing up, looping an arm under her legs and placing his other hand on the back of her scruffy head holding her against him securely as she nuzzled into his broad chest. He smiled warmly at her pressing a soft kiss to her cheek, his full lips brushing over her smooth skin as his hair tickled her nose.
“Ew daddy.” she giggled wiping her cheek, he smirked down at her.
“Shut up brat.” he grumbled trying his hardest to scowl at her but his adoration for her was too overpowering causing him to fail miserably at pretending to be upset with her.
Levi gently pushed her head onto his shoulder keeping his hand on the back of her hair, her body nestled snugly against his torso as he held her close, her tiny face resting on the fabric of his white shirt, her chest falling and rising against his own. Levi sighed cocking his head to the side to rest gently over her own head that was cushioned on his muscular shoulder, her tiny breaths tickling his neck slightly.
“Can we go to a castle daddy? Can you do that?” she asked, he nodded and she gasped excitedly pulling her face out from between his shoulder and cheek to stare at him “we can take Bessy.”
“Who’s Bessy?”
“Your pony horse.” she replied giggling and he huffed.
“I thought you were scared of my mare.” he said raising his eyebrows, she shook her head.
“No daddy. Aunty four eyes took me to see your pony horse and I fed her a carrot. She has a funny nose, it tickled.” she said holding a hand up to him to show him where the horse had taken the carrot.
“Four eyes had a funny nose?” Levi teases and Kuchel frowned.
“No daddy, the pony horse had a funny nose.” she explained clearly not grasping her father’s cruel humour.
“Could have fooled me.” he muttered as Kuchel rested her head against his chest, nuzzling her nose into his ascot his grip around her tightening.
He exhaled. He could remember taking Kuchel to see his mare, she had been ok with the other horses but something about his big black mare had terrified her. So much so she had run off crying only for you to laugh chasing after her and comforting her by explaining that Levi’s mare helped look after her daddy when he went on missions. It only showed to him now how much he had missed out on Kuchel over the last five months for her to have gotten over her fear of his horse, Hange was right he really had been to caught up in his own mind he had forgotten about the one thing he had left to care for.
Erwin was also right, he needs a break. A break from his grief, a break from paperwork, a break from the military and a break from himself. He needed Kuchel and all the time in the world to make it up to her.
He glanced down at the child in his arms noticing her half closed eyes as sleep tried to take her away from him.
“Mummy’s not coming with us this time. Is she?” Kuchel whispered, Levi felt his heart sink slightly as his forgotten depression seeped slowly back.
“No Ku. No she isn’t.” he replied quietly and Kuchel nodded.
“Why did mummy leave us? Does she not love me anymore?” she asked quietly and Levi felt his body grow cold for a second his eyes widening as he cast his gaze in front of him trying not to let anymore tears slip past his walls, he swallowed back the tears his Adam’s apple quivering as is chest grew heavy with sorrow.
“Mummy’s going to be gone or quite some time Ku. But remember that she will always love you, we both will always love you. Ok?”
She nodded trying to stifle another yawn as her tiny frame relaxed into her father’s warm chest, her hands grasping his shirt tightly as her eyes slowly began to close little by little.
“Will you tell me about mummy?” she asked sleepily, Levi sighed shaking his head. The wound had not fully healed yet, he didn’t need to rip it open again.
“When you’re older Ku. So you can fully appreciate what I have to say about her.”
“Ok daddy.” she yawned.
Levi smiled weakly walking back over to the bed and gently setting her down, her light body sinking into the mattress the pillows welcoming her pretty head as she snuggled into it. Levi reached forward and pulled the linen covers up over her body, tucking it in under her as her eyelids finally grew too heavy to keep open, Levi felt himself grow light as he once again watched her fall asleep. He lowered himself down to press his full lips to her soft hair, pulling away to stare at her a little longer, his hand resting on top of her gently rubbing soothing circles on her back.
“Daddy.” she mumbled her voice muffled.
“Yeah?”
“When we go to the castle will there be princesses?” she asked, her tone drowsy as she fought to stay awake, Levi sighed in thought.
No. The princesses who had once owned the castles years ago no longer lived there anymore, but he wasn’t going to tell her that.
“I’m sure if you look hard enough you’ll find something like that, maybe.” he answered and she nodded.
“Was mummy a princess?”
Levi smiled huffing in quiet laughter. He would have said you were an absolute deity, the very air he breathed and so much more. But in truth he only had one thing to say about you:
“She looked like a princess,she was the definition of a royal pain,” he said softly, he could almost hear your laughter from the heavens at his crass sarcasm and it caused his heart to ache “but she was a warrior. She was an amazing warrior.”
“Warriors are better then princesses.” Kuchel agreed “princesses are too fluffy, mummy is better then them.”
“Yeah, she wa- is. She is.”
“When can we go to the castle?”
“When I say so.” he grumbled and she giggled weakly.
“You’re funny daddy. Mummy said you were funny too, that’s why she fell in love with you.”
“She did?” Levi asked his heart fluttering his vision blurring again with tears as Kuchel nodded finally seeming to succumb to the call of sleep.
“Good night daddy.”
“Night Ku.”
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I hope you liked this. I wrote the ending and it didn’t save so I had to rewrite the entire thing! Anyways, I’m at 300 followers thank you so much, your support has been so overwhelming since I started two and a half months ago thank you so much. Let me know if you want a fic on when Kuchel and Levi visit the castle, I think it would be cute ❤️❤️
Shout out to @jean-does-not-have-a-horseface another ace writer here on tumblr who has helped me greatly with getting started. But also a shout out to all of you for liking and reblogging and following, your support is just amazing. Love you all xx
Part two 👇🏼👇🏼👇🏼👇🏼👇🏼
“I don’t understand how you love this kind of weather so much” or “if your hands get cold, you can put them in my pockets” for Levi ! Whichever!
Cold Hands — (Levi Ackerman x Reader)
i used both in this fic! i hope you enjoy!! Levi and his cold hands...Sigh.
ft. a painter s/o!
i know nothing about paint colors so don’t come at me pls :)
The harshness of the cold air made your face scrunch up and you pulled your scarf up over your nose, teeth chattering. You’d been perusing the various different shops in town and had brought your boyfriend along with you. Opting to walk instead of drive, since it was only a few minutes down the street, you squealed in excitement at the anticipation of seeing all the bright lights downtown. This time of year was your favorite—the caroling, the lights, the sheer thought of spending precious time and getting gifts for your loved ones made you happier than anyone could ever imagine.
It was Christmas time, one of your favorite holidays. It also was Levi’s birthday, adding to the specialty of it all. It pulled you back to when you were a child, ooh-ing and ahh-ing at all the scenery. When you’d met Levi, you discovered that he hadn’t had the same experiences as you. He wasn’t too fond of that day, brushing it off as it being just another day that he lived through. You, of course, respected that and gave him the space he’d needed.
Over the years the two of you, sometimes four including Farlan and Isabel, had spent the holidays together. You’d first made him hot chocolate and he was reluctant to try it, but after some gentle persuasion he did. He’d looked so cute with his whipped cream mustache and grumpy expression—so cute that you’d had to take a picture. He wasn’t happy, of course, but he let you keep it anyway.
For memory purposes.
Another time you’d sat in your pajamas while sitting beside your tree (that you’d spent forever setting up) and had on a Santa hat, wishing Levi a Merry Christmas and an even happier birthday. That year was the year you’d gotten him to wear a Santa hat as well. He’d gotten you a brand-new camera and of course you had to snap a picture, which sat in a white picture frame on the mantle of your fireplace.
The clicking of the lock sounded behind you and Levi joined you at the bottom of the steps, hands buried in his jacket pockets. “Let’s go,” he jerked his head in the general direction of the shops. “It’s cold as hell out here.”
You smiled and shot him a wink, holding open the pocket to your jacket. “Y’know Levi,” you said. “If your hands get cold, you can put them in my pockets.”
“Be quiet,” Levi mumbled.
“Hey Levi,” you called, holding the two different sized tubes out for him to see. “What do you think of these one?”
“They’re the same color,” Came the quiet words from Levi, who was standing behind you and looking at the two different sized tubes in your hand. “I don’t see the difference.”
“Okay look,” you placed the bigger tube between your arm and side to point to the fine print on the smaller one, containing the color in it. “This one’s obsidian, and this one,” you shifted paints. “Is jet black. They’re like slightly different.”
“Why do you need black paint? You have several of those things laying on the fucking floor. Pick one.”
“I need new ones, they’re empty.”
“Oh really? I wonder where the paint could’ve gone,” Levi glared at you, referring to the puddle of dried black paint on the floor in your art room. “Can you just mix one?”
“It has to be perfect. Now pick.”
“Fine. That one,” He pointed towards the bigger tube in your left hand.
“Thank you baby,” you placed the second tube in its place back on the shelf, shifting to browse the collection of blue paints.
Upon realizing that you’d probably be here forever, Levi sighed, staring out the window at the frost on the windows and sheets of snow covering the ground.
“I don’t understand why you love this kind of weather so much,” Levi murmured, resting his chin on your shoulder and slipped his still freezing hands in your pockets. The rest of the time was spent in mostly silence, save for you asking him what he thought of a few colors here and there. Eventually, you’d gathered what you needed and went up to pay, smiling at the cashier when they’d complimented the two of you, saying you were a cute couple.
Levi gave them a death glare the entire time, daring them to say anything about his hands in your pockets.
You snorted and took the bag from the cashier, shooting them a quick “Happy Holidays!” and left the store, holding Levi’s hand in your own while he shoved his in his pocket once more.
It’d been late into the night when two gentle knocks on the door of your art room snapped you out of your focus. You set your paintbrush down and looked over at the door, smiling softly when your eyes met Levi’s.
“Are you coming to bed?” He questioned, leaning against the frame with his arms crossed. “You’ve been at that all day.”
He missed you.
“Yeah,” you let your hands fall to your thighs which had splatters of black and blue paint all over them, mirroring your hands and even your face. “I’m almost done.”
“What’re you painting?” Levi walked into the room, settling behind you and peeking at your canvas. His arms wrapped around your middle, pulling you back against his chest. He glanced at the splatters of paint that littered the plastic covering of the hardwood floor, choosing to save it for later.
“You.” You sighed, rubbing the back of his clean hand with your dried paint-covered thumb.
Levi’s eyes scanned the painting in front of him, amazed at how much it’d resembled him. You’d gotten everything right—his eyes, his nose, his exact hair color. Hell, even down to the dark bags underneath his eyes.
“This is what you’ve been working on for the past week?” He mumbled into your hair.
“Yeah, it was supposed to be done by your birthday but I coudn’t finish it. D’ya like it?”
“It’s not bad.” Levi commented. “I like it.”
You gave a small sigh of relief. “I’m glad.”
Levi hummed and closed his eyes, thumb flipping the side of your oversized hoodie. It’d been his before the two of you started dating, but you managed to keep sneaking it out of his closet. Levi had only worn it a handful of times since you had been together and that’d only been because you wanted it to smell like him. So technically, it was yours.
He’d slipped his hands in your pockets and you grinned, knowing the reason.
His hands were cold.
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On AO3 || part two
Okay.
Okay. You’re okay. You’ll be fine. You take a deep breath.
Today was like any other day. You’d just gotten out of your last class of the day and you were heading to work. You were a simple college student (as were most of your coworkers) and the barista job you had at the little cafe right off campus was your only source of income. It paid surprisingly well so you never complained.
The last thing you were expecting when you open the glass doors of the coffee shop is to see a camera crew setting up lights and cameras and-
Is that fucking BTS?
Your eyes grow wide and you have to blink a few times to make sure it’s real.
“Hey, y/n, what are you staring… at…” The familiar chime of someone else entering the shop snaps you out of your daze. When you turn around, you meet another pair of shocked eyes. They belong to your close friend, who also worked as a barista.
“Are you fucking seeing what I’m seeing right now..?” Your friend points a shaky finger to the seven handsome Korean men talking to the director. You quickly grab her arm and pull it down to her side when you notice one of the men, with curly hair and particularly dark eyes look over to the two of you. You offer an awkward smile and he simply turns back to focus his attention back on the director.
“Fuck, fuck. He looked at us. He saw you pointing.” You whisper yell at your friend before grabbing her hand and dragging her behind the counter and into the back room. It was the only safe place left in the entire cafe that wasn’t crowded with security and staff.
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more than us (m) | kth
↣ 𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 | taehyung x reader
↣ 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭 | 11.3k
↣ 𝐠𝐞𝐧𝐫𝐞 | college au. roommate au. fluff. smut.
↣ 𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐱 | explicit language and sexual content. unprotected sex (pls use condoms), oral sex (f receiving), light choking, mild dirty talk, some hair pulling, spanking, taehyung’s magnum badonk.
↣ 𝐬𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲 | Taehyung had always been the common thread in the capsule of your memories, your best friend until the very end. But the thoughts had always lingered; could the two of you ever be more than this?
↣ 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭
This was a request and if you’d like to see your own come to life, please shoot me an ask, here. They’re always welcome and greatly appreciated! :)
You’re painfully aware of Irene’s gawking, uncomfortable stare as Taehyung nonchalantly plants his plump lips against your temple. If it wasn’t eight in the morning, you might have even protested, but the warmth of Taehyung’s arms around your body has you in a lull, a sort of zombified state of mind. He tucks a stray piece of your loose bun behind your ear, taking you into his fullest capabilities as he pulls you in again. You can almost trace the very prominent vein that runs along his full right arm. You wonder how you’ve not noticed he’s been working out lately. The sun barely peeks through the drawn curtains leaving the living room space warm, in a shade of amber that turns his brown locks, gold. It doesn’t help move you away from that early morning haze, your thoughts almost abandoning the very prominent acknowledgement of Irene’s appalled presence. If Taehyung notices your classmate merely inches away with her mouth hanging open and arms crossed, he doesn’t say anything about it. He simply retracts from your hug, your arms automatically wrapping around yourself in hopes of preserving any shred of loss from his warmth. Your head follows Taehyung as he stops towards the kitchen counter to pick up the bagged lunch you’ve prepared for him, and you can’t help stifle a laugh when you catch Irene doing the same. Even though classes for him start much later in the day, his leaving this early is a fairly common occurrence for the young photographer; he had always seemed to have found something new to gaze at in his viewfinder with morning hikes. As he pivots towards the door, the chiselled expanse that is Taehyung’s right shoulder unintentionally brushes against the pointed corner of Irene’s baby blue blazer and the scoff she lets out signals that she is more than vexed. He places his hand on the doorknob before turning around, his gaze settling on the far distance between the door to you.
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Kyoukaaa - Jirou Kyouka Character Playlist
Did I mention I love angst??? Bc, I do and damn is this girl angsty. Lowkey momojirou af. A combo of songs about her, but also some songs/bands I just think she would listen to or like (hence why some of the songs may not fit my headcanon of her as a lesbian). Please enjoy! Follow me on Spotify here.
Tracklist - 33 songs - 2 hrs & 3 mins
Falling - HAIM
Tomoni - WANIMA
ピンホール - OGRE YOU ASSHOLE
Nakaniwa No Shoujiotachi - SHISHAMO
Gun - CHVRCHES
Idle Worship - Paramore
Revolution Radio - Green Day
Muscle Memory - Lights
West Coast - FIDLAR
Born for This - Paramore
Recover - CHVRCHES
Sacrilege - Yeah Yeah Yeahs
ないものねだり - KANA-BOON
Kyouran Hey Kids!! - THE ORAL CIGARETTES
Stop Desire - Tegan and Sara
ストラテジー - KANA-BOON
Ease My Mind - Hayley Kiyoko
My Boots - Lights
Bokuni Kanojoga Dekitanda - SHISHAMO
Wake Up - Bleachers
Trace - WANIMA
No Way to Back - ROOKIEZ is PUNK’D
Radio (demo taped remix) - Sylvan Esso
Vapour Trail - Ride
Meteorites - Lights
見たくないもの - KANA-BOON
Grow Up - Paramore
Kagerou - SCANDAL
Why Generation - FIDLAR
My Heart - Paramore
Bad Medicine - FIDLAR
Heavy Metal Heart - Sky Ferreira
Looking Up - Paramore
Other BNHA Character/Ship Playlists
Deck you | baku-bitch | Sturdy Hero! Red Riot | It’s your power, isn’t it? | you can’t help the things you long for | Dreamer - soft!kiribaku | Last Of The Real Ones - angsty!kiribaku | Easy Love -Tsuchako
It’s your power, isn’t it? - Todoroki Shouto Playlist
This shit is long and sad so buckle up and get ready to feel all the fuckin Shouto feels kiddos.
Tracklist - 39 songs - 2hrs and 25 mins
Power - Bastille
Half the World Away - Aurora
No Below - Speedy Ortiz
Falling - Drama Duo
Hide and Seek - Imogen Heap
I Found - Amber Run
Devil Like Me - Rainbow Kitten Surprise
Anything for You - Chelsea Cutler
Latch (Acoustic) - Sam Smith
Grave Digger - Matt Maeson
Waking Up (Acoustic) - Pvris
No Rest for the Wicked - Lykke Li
Misguided Ghosts - Paramore
Fiction - The XX
I Will Follow You Into The Dark - Death Cab for Cutie
Two Evils - Bastille
Warm - SG Lewis
I Don’t Know - Jon D
If I’m Alone - Huntar
Intro - The XX
You and I - Pvris
Please Don’t Leave - Free n Losh
Breathe Me - Sia
Someone to Stay - Vancouver Sleep Clinic
Tonight - Lykke Li
Everything Has Changed - Ed Sheeran & Taylor Swift
Coastal - Blood Cultures
Cavalier (The 1975 Remix) - James Vincent Mcmorrow
Mind Over Matter (Acoustic) - Pvris
You Are in Love - Taylor Swift
Chill Morning - never young beach
Electric Feel - Henry Green
Bedford Falls - Ford.
Rising, Rising (Bassnectar Remix) - Crywolf & Bassnectar
Dreamer (Stripped Down) - Kaptan & Mokita
Fall to Rise (Acoustic) - Shalom Dubas
Talk Me Down - Troye Sivan
Gasoline - Troye Sivan
Drops of Jupiter (Live Cover) - Taylor Swift
Midoriya | Kirishima | Bakugou
You Can’t Help The Things You Long For - A Shinsou Hitoshi Playlist
Hi!!! This playlist is very very chill, good background music to fall asleep too or do homework too. Some chill bangers but nothing I would consider hype. Music I think Shinsou would enjoy, also some highkey lowkey Shiniida vibes because I love them so much. Saw you in a dream 100% inspired this whole playlist, highly highly recommend checking out all of the japanese house’s music because damb. Art used in this edit is by Maple & I was given permission to use it! Please go follow them!
Here are some of my other bnha character/ship playlists!
Tsuchako | Kyoukaaa | Deck you | baku-bitch | Sturdy Hero! Red Riot | It’s your power, isn’t it? | Dreamer - soft!kiribaku | Last of the Real Ones - angsty!kiribaku
Follow me on Spotify here.
Baku-Bitch - Bakugou Katsuki Playlist
Much like my son, this playlist has a lot of different things going on. Got some bops, but mostly angsty music you would expect an angry 15-year-old boy to listen to. Also, some sappy ones that a 15-year-old boy in love with Kirishima Eijirou another boy would listen to. Underlying messages of self-hatred, internal conflict, anger, frustration, emotional trauma, confusion, and blind determination.
Tracklist - 38 songs - 2hrs and 18mins
ストラテジー - KANA-BOON
DESTROYA - My Chemical Romance
Glory and Gore - Lorde
I Don’t Fuck With You - Big Sean
Hard Times - Paramore
Where is my mind? - The Pixies
R.I.P. 2 My Youth - The Neighborhood
Fall Away - Twenty One Pilots
The World Is Ugly - My Chemical Romance
Live Forever - Oasis
Desire - Years & Years
Therapy - All Time Low
Area - MagnusTheMagnus
Erode - TENDER
What Kind Of Man - Florence + The Machine
Alone Together - Fall Out Boy
Monsters - Hurricane Bells
The Anchor - Bastille
Devil Like Me - Rainbow Kitten Surprise
ピンホール - OGRE YOU ASSHOLE
Send Them Off! - Bastille
Message Man - Twenty One Pilots
You and I - Pvris
Turn It Off - Paramore
Falling - Drama Duo
Lethargy - Bastille
Musennki - never young beach
Fake Happy - Paramore
Leave a Trace - CHVRCHES
Trace - WANIMA
Ignorance - Paramore
Tomoni - WANIMA
ZenZenZense (movie version) - RADWIMPS
Told You So - Paramore
Fun - Troye Sivan
Interlude: I’m Not Angry Anymore - Paramore
Heavydirtysoul - Twenty One Pilots
Rose-Colored Boy - Paramore
https://open.spotify.com/user/12148762376/playlist/0y4vJfGAQMDymeodjTn15j
Kirishima | Midoriya | Todoroki
bakugou art by @vangwen
you wanna kiss me so bad, huh?
series: my hero academia / boku no hero academia
pairings: katsuki bakugo x reader
length: 5k words
warnings: swearing, mentions of making out (w/ a minor), breach of privacy??
tags: secret relationship, enemies to lovers, high school AU, reader-insert
summary: the mutual agreement between you and your bf to keep your relationship on the DL is about to be ruined when he makes the stupid mistake to leave his phone on the table for the whole class to see
author’s note: i’m still pretty new to writing dis homie so please be lenient when it comes to character accuracy lol. i also apologize for the messy, unstructured writing. also thank u to bae @izvkos for proofreading!
Just as you were getting ready to doze off, the school bell rang, startling you and making you jerk up from your comfortable position on the desk with your head in your arms. Some of your classmates got up to stretch, since it was the break time between classes. Unfortunately, it had only been the end of third period and you had a long school day to go through. You let out a low groan of disappointment. I guess I’ll have to keep myself awake just a little bit longer.
To be honest, you didn’t mean to stay up all night… it was just that you couldn’t help binge-watching your favorite show last night. You convinced yourself that you were only going to watch one episode before you went to sleep… then one lead to two… then three… and then before you knew it, the birds started chirping. But, hey! It wasn’t your fault that it was so addicting!
“Oi.”
You look up to see Bakugo peering over you with his hands in his pockets and a smirk on his face, “Tch, you don’t look so good today. Didn’t get enough sleep? How are you gonna be a pro hero with those bad habits of yours?”
You scoffed, “Oh, fuck off. Sorry I don’t go to sleep at 8 every night… grandpa.”
“Yeah, yeah. Make fun of me all you want, but who’s gonna be laughing when you fail your exams next week. I see you dozing off in class, you act like Aizawa-sensei doesn’t even notice,” Bakugo grunts.
You coo, “Awe, is blasty-boy watching me during class? I didn’t know you were this deeply in love with me! So cute.”
His face went red for a moment before his usual angry expression returned, “I DON’T HAVE A CRUSH ON YOU DAMMIT! I DON’T HAVE TIME FOR STUPID CRAP LIKE THAT!”
“Y/n! Stop teasing Bakugo like that! You know he can’t handle it…” Mina chimed in, joining the fun.
“WHAT DO YOU MEAN I CAN’T HANDLE IT?! ” screamed Bakugo.
“Quiet down back there.,” threatened Cementoss as he entered the class to prepare his next lesson.
You and Mina were just laughing at your classmate screaming his head off, it was always an amusing sight if anything. Even though Bakugo denies having a crush on you, it wasn’t true. And you knew that. He had a fat crush on you, but it was more than that! He was your boyfriend.
You guys had kept your relationship on the down-low for about a month now, your relationship only became official about a week ago, but you guys had been going on dates prior. Bakugo wanted to keep your relationship a secret, you know, to protect his ego or whatever since there has always been a rivalry between the two of you and everyone in Class 1-A was painfully aware of it. He was too proud to let anyone know that he fell for someone he once vouched as his enemy.
-
There was always constant bickering between the two of you. Whether it be something minute or something that you would argue over for a couple of days. It’s not like the arguments were unintentional because they were started just to spite the other. Bickering would start about each other’s fighting technique in battle or even accusing the other of stealing their food from the shared fridge in the dorms.
The rest of your class was so sick and tired of the ongoing feud so one day, they set out a plan (led by Kaminari and Kirishima) to lock you two in a room just to sort out your differences. They set a date where they would trick you two into thinking that there was a class activity that everyone had to attend, but it would just be you two to show up and you would smash the beef between you two, and BOOM! Problem solved.
Just as the day came for the plan, something was weirdly off about you two. The morning of, you two both came into class at the same time and it was dead silent between you two. No bickering, no petty comments, and no evil stares. As more and more people were arriving, they would immediately notice the weird tension in the air. It was strangely quiet, not just because you and Bakugo were silent, but because everyone else was too. The thought of you guys not constantly at each other’s necks that morning sort of put off the rest of the class. It felt weird to talk over the dead silence when they were so used to your guys’ voices as ambiance while they were in conversation.
As the day went on, nothing changed and you guys were still silent and ignoring each other. Obviously, everyone was suspicious about what exactly happened between you two to make you ignore one another. There was no way that you guys were angry at each other because when you were, both of you made it clear by arguing and yelling loudly.
However, before anyone had the chance to ask why you guys were so quiet, Bakugo decided to approach you for the first time between class periods. At this point, the class was back to normal and having regular conversations with one another during break time, but all of their eyes were on you two, and their voices hushed to pay attention to the tense interaction shared between you two.
“Oi. Let’s talk,” said Bakugo bluntly.
You looked up at his crimson red eyes for a second before looking away as if his presence wasn’t even there. At this point, you didn’t know what to say to him, yet. This fired up Bakugo because within a second he started yelling again.
“HEY DUMBASS! YOU DON’T GET TO IGNORE ME LIKE THAT!” he screamed.
You turned to meet his glare annoyed, “Oh, shut the fuck up. I don’t owe you shit. Leave me alone.”
He tested, “The fuck did you say to me, idiot?!”
“Fuck off, dipshit, all you ever wanna do is yell! And might I add- you do it loudly. Are you such a fucking grandpa that you can’t even hear yourself speak? Can you ever jjust shut. the. fuck. UP!” you yelled back.
The arguing continued and the rest of Class 1-A continued with their previous conversations after seeing you guys back to normal. The tension between you guys soon left their minds as they continued with the rest of their day. Unbeknownst to them, the night before you two were arguing like usual in the kitchen area of the dorms before Bakugo made his first move on you.
-
The argument started with you getting angry at Bakugo for making a mess on the counter after spilling some of his water. It was late at night and no one else was around and you two happened to wake up around the same time to get a drink of water.
“You idiot, clean up your fucking mess. You spilled it all over the counter,” you said as you gestured to the spilled water.
“Tch. I didn’t spill shit. If it bothers you so much, why don’t you go clean it up yourself?” he groaned as he leaned against the counter.
Appalled, you grabbed the roll of paper towels and threw it at his head. He was caught off guard as the roll of paper hit his forehead. It fell and rolled out onto the floor. Now, he was truly annoyed.
“Fuck was that for, huh?!” he said staring at you, smoke practically coming out of his ears.
You laughed, “Just giving you a hand since it seemed like you were too fucking lazy to grab the paper towels yourself. Seems like the grandpa’s getting too old to do stuff for himself, boohoo.”
He growled, rage evident in his face. You laughed to yourself looking away from his face. The next thing you knew, he grabbed you by the shoulders and pushed you against the fridge behind you. You were pinned by his big, rough hands and he was closer to your face than usual, yet still enraged.
You tried to wiggle out of his grip, but it was useless, “Let go of me, idiot! You need to learn how to take a fucking joke.”
He didn’t respond, but he kept his eyes on your face. You tried moving away, but now his grip on your shoulders tightened, making your breath hitch.
“What the fuck is your problem? You want me to say sorry or something? Did the paper towel knock the fucking sense out of you? Let me go!” you argued.
“What happened to all your fucking hero training? Can’t get out of my grip, huh? How pathetic,” he growled in a low tone.
You felt his eyes piercing into your own and it was making you a little bit uncomfortable. He’s never been physical with you, even with the constant bickering between you guys. This was a side of him you’ve never seen.
You started, “Look, did I hurt your feelings or something? Did I hit you really hard on the head? There’s no point in holding me against the fridge. Plus, the handle is kind of hurting my back-”
“Shut up,” he stated plainly.
He looked away, avoiding eye contact with you. Okay…. suspicious much…
You tried moving once again, then he pulled you up from the fridge only to slam you back against it, but this time harder.
“Why can’t you just fucking stay still?!” he started yelling.
“Ow! Because you’re being a fucking weirdo! There’s something fucking wrong with you, it’s starting to creep me out! What the fuck are your intentions anyway, huh?!” you argued back.
His calmness fading, he yelled back, “SHUT THE FUCK UP! ALL YOU EVER DO IS GET ON MY FUCKING NERVES LIKE YOU KNOW EVERY FUCKING THING IN THE WORLD!”
His face was inching closer and closer to your face with each word pouring from his mouth. You smirked at this.
You laughed, teasing, “Oh, you wanna kiss me so bad, huh?”
He immediately froze after hearing that sentence spill from your mouth and avoided eye contact yet again. Oddly enough, he returned to his calmer self… If you didn’t know any better, it was obvious that that sentence held some truth with him.
“Look just-”
Before you could finish your sentence, his lips crashed onto yours. Your eyes shot wide open at the shock of the situation. Bakugo Katsuki fucking kissed you… Bakugo Katsuki. The Bakugo Katsuki who always argued with you. The Bakugo Katsuki who always got on your nerves. THAT Bakugo Katsuki.
Taking you away from your thoughts, he pulled away from the kiss. He examined your face for your reaction, but you were frozen in place with your eyes shot wide open. You didn’t know what to do, as if you were a computer and you were going through some code that you weren’t programmed to handle. He looked away and scoffed at himself, mumbling.
“Of course, she didn’t fucking like that, idiot…” he mumbled.
His grip on you loosened and his hands were brought to his side and he couldn’t bear to look at you in the face again. Breaking from your frozen state, you focused your eyes on him. He pulled his face away from your point of view and was scratching his neck in embarrassment and you could notice the light blush spread on his cheeks. You felt a little tug on your heart that you’ve never felt before when looking at him. At that moment, he was just so freaking cute.
Mentally telling yourself that you’re gonna regret this later, you grabbed his face in your hands and pulled him closer to you again. Your lips locked with his and you closed your eyes to bask in the moment. Only this time, Bakugo’s eyes were shot wide open, but only for a second. Relief soon spread across his face and his eyes rested on your waist, pulling you closer.
Both of you guys wanted nothing more than to stay in that moment forever, the rivalry between you two completely non-existent. As all good things must come to an end, you pulled away from him and your eyes made contact for a second before you both looked away, blushing. Realization soon hit you and you didn’t know what to do next.
“I-”
“Uh-”
You guys stuttered at the same time, making eye contact for a second before looking away. The atmosphere between the two of you was confusing. Before you could think of another thing to say, he spoke up first.
“Good night,” he said.
He walked away swiftly and turned the corner to the hallway towards his dorm. You stood for a few seconds not knowing what to think. You released the breath that you didn’t realize you were holding in and proceeded to walk towards your dorm room. Leaving the kitchen a bit of a mess for the night.
The next day it was Kaminari who was blamed for leaving the paper towel on the floor and some spilled water on the counter. Poor boy.
-
Now, the relationship that you had with ‘blasty-boy’ would probably seem complicated and confusing in the eyes of others, but you two were pretty content with where you guys were at. There was an unspoken agreement that you would keep your relationship under wraps. You knew how Bakugo always tried to upkeep his ego of being the best. You’ve always assumed that he didn’t want anyone to know he had a soft spot for you. And you didn’t necessarily mind not sharing your relationship out in the open, anyway. I mean, you guys only just made your relationship official, but it was a little hard to keep your mouth shut when you desperately wanted to gush about him with the other girls of Class 1-A.
Although, you guys have managed to maintain the rivalry between you guys in front of the others. It’s not like you guys were faking it, though. Only now, you guys saw it as fun, meaningless banter and meant nothing by it. The few times that you’ve got to spend with Bakugo alone were completely different from when you would be with him as a group.
On one of your more recent dates, he invited you to watch a movie in his dorm room and he was so adamant about keeping you close to him throughout the movie. At one point in the night, you tried to get up to use the restroom real quick and his arm around your waist pulled you back down, making you fall onto his lap and you stared up at him. He ignored you and stared at the laptop screen.
“Uh… I need to go pee. Let me go, please?” you smiled up at him.
He gave you a glance and reverted his stare to the screen again, “No.”
“What do you mean no? I drank so much water because the popcorn was too salty… come on. You want me to pee on you or something?” you joked.
He laughed, “So, what if I do?”
You sat up and his gaze finally met yours and his signature smirk was plastered on his face.
You grabbed one of his pillows and hit him with it, “Ew, you’re so fucking gross! I’m going.”
He laughed and finally allowed you to leave, but rest assured, he snuggled up with you when you came back.
-
Right now, you were hanging with the rest of your class in the common room. On Fridays, you guys all agreed to a movie night after a long week of classes. You were sitting with the rest of the girls, settled between Momo and Mina. The movie hasn’t started yet since everyone was starting to get comfortable and settled in. A few of your classmates were grabbing popcorn and other snacks in the kitchen while the rest of you guys were just chatting. Somehow, the conversation between the girls evolved into talking about relationships.
“Oh my god! There was this really cute guy that I accidentally bumped into at lunch and apparently he’s a third-year! I hope I bump into him again, he was seriously cute,” gushed Mina.
“That’s so cute, Mina! I wish I had, like, ANY romantic interactions. My life’s so boring…” groaned Ochaco.
“Same,” said Hagakure.
The rest of the girls sort of nodded in agreement, but you just sat there sipping your juice pouch loudly.
“Y/n? You’re awfully quiet,” teased Tsu as she nudged you with her elbow.
“Well, I mean-”
“What are you ladies talking about over here, huh?” said Denki as he and the other boys inched closer to the girls to join their conversation.
Momo spoke up, “Seems like Y/n over here has a crush!”
You covered your face in embarrassment, “No I do not! It’s… uh… look we’re just… talking?”
Kirishima teased, “Awe so who’s the lucky individual?”
“Yeah, I wanna know who captured our Y/n’s heart,” laughed Sero.
“It’s no one…” you said after trying to recover after digging yourself in a deeper hole.
“Hey, Bakugo. How do you feel about Y/n’s new crush, huh? Maybe your love for her isn’t reciprocated after all…” started Kaminari before Bakugo stood from his seat on the couch and grabbed his shirt to intimidate him.
He growled, “I don’t have a crush on Y/n. How many times do I have to tell you idiots that?!”
“You’re just jealous that Y/n’s significant other is probably hotter than you!” laughed Mina.
Visibly annoyed at the situation, Bakugo walks away rolling his eyes and mumbling, “Tch. Can’t believe I go to school with a bunch of idiots…”
“Awe, can’t take it anymore? Your love for me is so strong that it pains you to listen to this conversation, huh, Bakugo?” you teased.
“Shut up. I’m going to the bathroom,” he said plainly.
The rest of your classmates on the couch got a laugh in before the topic of your potential significant other died down into smaller topics within different people. Those who were in the kitchen preparing the snacks for everyone finally came back and everyone was finding their seats around the TV and your boyfriend had yet to come back.
You pulled out your phone to text him and right as you did, Iida turned off the lights.
“Yo, Y/n. Turn off your phone it’s too bright and the movie’s about to start,” nudged Mina.
You apologized, “Sorry. I’ll turn it off in a minute I just need to text someone.”
You pulled up your boyfriend’s text log and typed in a message for him:
yo blasty boy why arent u back from the bathroom the movies starting
…also i saved u a seat next to me so we can cuddle (lowkey of course hehe)
After sending those two messages, you put away your phone in your pocket. Everyone was concentrated on the movie and you set your attention on the TV screen until…
PING PING
A phone on the coffee table lit up brightly while making two loud notification pings. Everyone lost focus on the movie and looked over at the phone on the table. No doubt that it was your grandpa of a boyfriend’s phone pinging. Before you could do something, Kirishima grabbed it.
“Who the hell didn’t turn off their ringer? And why is it so damn loud..” laughed Sero.
Kirishima’s eyes scanned his phone for a quick second before his eyes widened and he covered his mouth in surprise.
“Holy shit! Bakugo has a girlfriend!” yelled Kirishima.
You couldn’t help but cover your face in your blanket… Bakugo was about to be so mad at you. Your secret would be out and honestly, you were glad, but you know that your boyfriend didn’t want anyone to find out anytime soon. At least, not like this.
Everyone turned to Kirishima, suddenly losing interest in the movie playing in front of them.
“Oh my god, you’re joking!” squealed Yaoyorozu.
Ojiro claimed, “There’s no way that Bakugo has a girlfriend. Not that hothead.”
“Bro, I’m not joking! And guess what… it’s someone in this room!” exclaimed Kirishima.
Everyone starts looking around the class, silently accusing their classmates of being the culprit.
“Look what they said: ‘also i saved u a seat next to me so we can cuddle‘! Someone better start speaking upppppp!” said Kaminari teasingly as he got the phone from the red-haired boy.
“So, who is it?” grinned Ochako.
Sero peeked at the phone in Kirishima’s hands, “There’s no name, it just says ‘dumbass’. That’s so like Bakugo.”
You sighed in relief. You didn’t know that Bakugo didn’t have your contact as your actual name.
“G-guys! I don’t think Kacchan would want us to go through his phone…” protested Midoriya.
“Midoriya is right! This is not respectful behavior, we should respect our classmate’s privacy,” Iida said matter-of-factly.
Kaminari replied, “Aw, come on you guys are no fun! It’s harmless, anyway! If it really is someone in our class, we were bound to find out! It’s inevitable!”
You grab the phone from him and said, “Wow, Kaminari, I didn’t know you had the vocabulary capacity for the word inevitable! Now, let me see this…”
Lo and behold, your messages were shown on the screen under the name ‘dumbass’. You tried to analyze the situation and how you could use this small sliver of anonymity to your advantage. You concluded that just trying to play off the situation would be the best thing to do-
“Woah, woah, woah. What’s that as Bakugo’s wallpaper?” said Mina as she slowly grabbed the phone from your hands.
Right then, a horror scene played out right in front of your eyes. As everyone was standing crowded around the phone (whether they agreed with peering through your boyfriend’s phone or not), they were looking at the brightly-lit device in the pink girl’s hands and she deleted the notifications to show his very-telling wallpaper… you could say there was a slight miscalculation in your plan as you failed to notice earlier that his wallpaper was the two of you… making out.
You couldn’t bear to look at what was on his phone as everyone let out their gasps. It was too embarrassing, everyone seeing such an intimate moment on your boyfriend’s phone. Bakugo had taken that picture on a whim one night when you two were having one of your movie nights. When he did that, you were shocked because there was no way that Bakugo took pictures of himself ever. Honestly, you were shocked to see that he knew how to take a selfie. Nonetheless, you peeked through your fingers at the phone in Mina’s hand just for a bit.
To your surprise, he set the wallpaper to LIVE MODE. Live mode…… Everyone was watching you guys make out in action like it was a fucking movie.
That motherfucker…
The silence of realization was then disrupted as the girls let out their squeals and the whole class was causing a commotion while the boys high-fived each other as if they won a competition or something. Everyone was up and moving, a strong contrast from them mere minutes ago when they were lounging around on the couch and floor. Sero was shaking your shoulders as you covered your face in your hands. Your face was heating up from all the embarrassment and you couldn’t bear to look at any of your classmates after what they just witnessed.
You didn’t know what to think. Half of you were completely embarrassed that your friends just saw you in an embarrassing scenario and half of you were angry at Bakugo because this was all his fault! Who the fuck puts such an intimate moment as their wallpaper?! Why not something cute? And of course, it had to be a live photo…
You finally peered through your hands again to see the scene in front of you. Mina was laughing so hard on the couch that she was on the verge of tears.
“I CAN’T BREATHE! NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS WOULD I EVER EXPECT THIS SHIT!” she cried.
Most of the boys were still jumping up and down like some monkeys due to the sheer excitement and energy in the room. Uraraka walked up to you and smiled widely while placing her hands firmly on your shoulders.
“Wow! Who would’ve thought that you and Bakugo were a thing! I honestly didn’t see that coming… sorry that we all had to find out that way. I was a little too absorbed in the excitement to consider how you felt,” said the round-faced girl.
With your face still red, you said, “Don’t worry about it… it was bound to happen soon enough, right? Although, now I’m a little embarrassed, but I guess I’m kind of relieved that I don’t have to put much effort into hiding our relationship anymore.”
Yaoyorozu chimed in, “Honestly, this is more entertaining than the movie we were just watching!”
You laughed along with the other girls who were nearby. On the other side of the room, the boys were making a train throughout the room and singing.
“Uh, y/n,” interrupted Asui, “Look.”
The man-of-the-hour walked in the room with his hands in his pockets with his usual grumpy expression. He stopped to examine the room and stared quietly at the energetic group of boys.
He scoffed, “What are you nerds doing? Why aren’t you guys watching the fucking movie, huh?”
He looked around the room until his eyes met yours and you quickly looked away, which caught his attention. Your mind was racing a mile a minute trying to think of an excuse. Your gaze averted to the ground, but you could hear his footsteps heading your way.
“Since when did your socks suddenly get so interesting that you can’t look me in the eyes?” teased Bakugo.
He brought his hand up to your chin and lifted your face to meet his gaze. His playful smirk instantly dropped once he saw your expression. Your eyes were borderline teary and seemed lost, like a sad puppy.
He whispered so that only you could hear, “Baby… what’s up?”
You wanted to give in to his touch at that very moment and run into his arms, but you resisted because you knew that it would be too selfish given how you just broke your guys’ agreement. You didn’t deserve to be in his embrace right now, he was seconds away from finding out that your guys’ secret came out accidentally all because you sent a random text. You pulled your face away from his grip and moved away from him.
“W-wait, what-” he started.
“HEYYYYYYYYYYY, BAKUBRO!” said Kaminari and he wrapped an arm around him (much to Bakugo’s dismay), “How come you didn’t tell your buddies that you had a soft side to you, huh?”
Bakugo grunted, “What the fuck are you going on about?”
Kirishima chimed, “You know, you shouldn’t leave your phone out in the open like that… it makes you vulnerable!”
Still confused he said, ”Did worms get in your brains? We’ve been only one day off from school and you start lacking common sense?”
To his surprise, you walk up with his phone in your hand while keeping eye contact, unlike earlier.
“Sherlock, I thought you would’ve connected the dots by now,” you sighed, with a tinge of sadness behind it, “Your wallpaper… really?”
You hold up the phone up to his face and his reaction was almost humorous to you. His eyes widened and his face was painted with a light tint of pink.
For the first time in your life, you witnessed your boyfriend at a loss for words. The rest of your class watched the whole interaction and some restrained laughs were let out and they were all back to square one, laughing like maniacs. You were about to join in and laugh with them when you realized again what the situation at hand was. You were scared of how Bakugo would react since this would be the first rift in your relationship and you didn’t want to have a genuine argument with him, especially with how angry he could get. Suddenly, you felt a pair of hands grasp yours and you look up to see your boyfriend smiling at you.
“I-”
Before you could say a single word, he hauls you on his shoulder, and you yelp in surprise. You don’t know how you ended up in this position, but now you’re dangling off of him and now you’re staring at the ground. (Also, his face was dangerously close to your ass, but you didn’t mention it.) He starts walking away and away from the commotion towards his dorm room. Before you can protest, he leans his head on your body causing you to freeze up. You could feel his warmth from his body heat against your shirt.
“You know… I’m not mad at you. I could never be mad at you,” he says quietly.
Your brain took time to process that sentence… was Bakugo actually not mad? Most importantly, who knew such sweet words could come out of his mouth? You couldn’t help but breathe out a sigh of relief and you relaxed a bit.
Wanting to tease him, you said, “Sorry, you were too quiet. Could you repeat that again?”
He groaned, “I said… I’m not mad at you, I could never be.”
You giggled, “I know. I heard you the first time, but I thought my ears were deceiving me… Katsuki Bakugo is saying something nice for once? Whatttt…”
He shook you a little, “Forget it. You didn’t hear anything.”
Raising yourself a little, you patted your boyfriend on the head, “Nope. Remembering that phrase forever and ever.”
“Whatever.”
You teased back, “Whatever!”
you wanna kiss me so bad, huh?
series: my hero academia / boku no hero academia
pairings: katsuki bakugo x reader
length: 5k words
warnings: swearing, mentions of making out (w/ a minor), breach of privacy??
tags: secret relationship, enemies to lovers, high school AU, reader-insert
summary: the mutual agreement between you and your bf to keep your relationship on the DL is about to be ruined when he makes the stupid mistake to leave his phone on the table for the whole class to see
author’s note: i’m still pretty new to writing dis homie so please be lenient when it comes to character accuracy lol. i also apologize for the messy, unstructured writing. also thank u to bae @izvkos for proofreading!
Just as you were getting ready to doze off, the school bell rang, startling you and making you jerk up from your comfortable position on the desk with your head in your arms. Some of your classmates got up to stretch, since it was the break time between classes. Unfortunately, it had only been the end of third period and you had a long school day to go through. You let out a low groan of disappointment. I guess I’ll have to keep myself awake just a little bit longer.
To be honest, you didn’t mean to stay up all night… it was just that you couldn’t help binge-watching your favorite show last night. You convinced yourself that you were only going to watch one episode before you went to sleep… then one lead to two… then three… and then before you knew it, the birds started chirping. But, hey! It wasn’t your fault that it was so addicting!
“Oi.”
You look up to see Bakugo peering over you with his hands in his pockets and a smirk on his face, “Tch, you don’t look so good today. Didn’t get enough sleep? How are you gonna be a pro hero with those bad habits of yours?”
You scoffed, “Oh, fuck off. Sorry I don’t go to sleep at 8 every night… grandpa.”
“Yeah, yeah. Make fun of me all you want, but who’s gonna be laughing when you fail your exams next week. I see you dozing off in class, you act like Aizawa-sensei doesn’t even notice,” Bakugo grunts.
You coo, “Awe, is blasty-boy watching me during class? I didn’t know you were this deeply in love with me! So cute.”
His face went red for a moment before his usual angry expression returned, “I DON’T HAVE A CRUSH ON YOU DAMMIT! I DON’T HAVE TIME FOR STUPID CRAP LIKE THAT!”
“Y/n! Stop teasing Bakugo like that! You know he can’t handle it…” Mina chimed in, joining the fun.
“WHAT DO YOU MEAN I CAN’T HANDLE IT?! ” screamed Bakugo.
“Quiet down back there.,” threatened Cementoss as he entered the class to prepare his next lesson.
You and Mina were just laughing at your classmate screaming his head off, it was always an amusing sight if anything. Even though Bakugo denies having a crush on you, it wasn’t true. And you knew that. He had a fat crush on you, but it was more than that! He was your boyfriend.
You guys had kept your relationship on the down-low for about a month now, your relationship only became official about a week ago, but you guys had been going on dates prior. Bakugo wanted to keep your relationship a secret, you know, to protect his ego or whatever since there has always been a rivalry between the two of you and everyone in Class 1-A was painfully aware of it. He was too proud to let anyone know that he fell for someone he once vouched as his enemy.
-
There was always constant bickering between the two of you. Whether it be something minute or something that you would argue over for a couple of days. It’s not like the arguments were unintentional because they were started just to spite the other. Bickering would start about each other’s fighting technique in battle or even accusing the other of stealing their food from the shared fridge in the dorms.
The rest of your class was so sick and tired of the ongoing feud so one day, they set out a plan (led by Kaminari and Kirishima) to lock you two in a room just to sort out your differences. They set a date where they would trick you two into thinking that there was a class activity that everyone had to attend, but it would just be you two to show up and you would smash the beef between you two, and BOOM! Problem solved.
Just as the day came for the plan, something was weirdly off about you two. The morning of, you two both came into class at the same time and it was dead silent between you two. No bickering, no petty comments, and no evil stares. As more and more people were arriving, they would immediately notice the weird tension in the air. It was strangely quiet, not just because you and Bakugo were silent, but because everyone else was too. The thought of you guys not constantly at each other’s necks that morning sort of put off the rest of the class. It felt weird to talk over the dead silence when they were so used to your guys’ voices as ambiance while they were in conversation.
As the day went on, nothing changed and you guys were still silent and ignoring each other. Obviously, everyone was suspicious about what exactly happened between you two to make you ignore one another. There was no way that you guys were angry at each other because when you were, both of you made it clear by arguing and yelling loudly.
However, before anyone had the chance to ask why you guys were so quiet, Bakugo decided to approach you for the first time between class periods. At this point, the class was back to normal and having regular conversations with one another during break time, but all of their eyes were on you two, and their voices hushed to pay attention to the tense interaction shared between you two.
“Oi. Let’s talk,” said Bakugo bluntly.
You looked up at his crimson red eyes for a second before looking away as if his presence wasn’t even there. At this point, you didn’t know what to say to him, yet. This fired up Bakugo because within a second he started yelling again.
“HEY DUMBASS! YOU DON’T GET TO IGNORE ME LIKE THAT!” he screamed.
You turned to meet his glare annoyed, “Oh, shut the fuck up. I don’t owe you shit. Leave me alone.”
He tested, “The fuck did you say to me, idiot?!”
“Fuck off, dipshit, all you ever wanna do is yell! And might I add- you do it loudly. Are you such a fucking grandpa that you can’t even hear yourself speak? Can you ever jjust shut. the. fuck. UP!” you yelled back.
The arguing continued and the rest of Class 1-A continued with their previous conversations after seeing you guys back to normal. The tension between you guys soon left their minds as they continued with the rest of their day. Unbeknownst to them, the night before you two were arguing like usual in the kitchen area of the dorms before Bakugo made his first move on you.
-
The argument started with you getting angry at Bakugo for making a mess on the counter after spilling some of his water. It was late at night and no one else was around and you two happened to wake up around the same time to get a drink of water.
“You idiot, clean up your fucking mess. You spilled it all over the counter,” you said as you gestured to the spilled water.
“Tch. I didn’t spill shit. If it bothers you so much, why don’t you go clean it up yourself?” he groaned as he leaned against the counter.
Appalled, you grabbed the roll of paper towels and threw it at his head. He was caught off guard as the roll of paper hit his forehead. It fell and rolled out onto the floor. Now, he was truly annoyed.
“Fuck was that for, huh?!” he said staring at you, smoke practically coming out of his ears.
You laughed, “Just giving you a hand since it seemed like you were too fucking lazy to grab the paper towels yourself. Seems like the grandpa’s getting too old to do stuff for himself, boohoo.”
He growled, rage evident in his face. You laughed to yourself looking away from his face. The next thing you knew, he grabbed you by the shoulders and pushed you against the fridge behind you. You were pinned by his big, rough hands and he was closer to your face than usual, yet still enraged.
You tried to wiggle out of his grip, but it was useless, “Let go of me, idiot! You need to learn how to take a fucking joke.”
He didn’t respond, but he kept his eyes on your face. You tried moving away, but now his grip on your shoulders tightened, making your breath hitch.
“What the fuck is your problem? You want me to say sorry or something? Did the paper towel knock the fucking sense out of you? Let me go!” you argued.
“What happened to all your fucking hero training? Can’t get out of my grip, huh? How pathetic,” he growled in a low tone.
You felt his eyes piercing into your own and it was making you a little bit uncomfortable. He’s never been physical with you, even with the constant bickering between you guys. This was a side of him you’ve never seen.
You started, “Look, did I hurt your feelings or something? Did I hit you really hard on the head? There’s no point in holding me against the fridge. Plus, the handle is kind of hurting my back-”
“Shut up,” he stated plainly.
He looked away, avoiding eye contact with you. Okay…. suspicious much…
You tried moving once again, then he pulled you up from the fridge only to slam you back against it, but this time harder.
“Why can’t you just fucking stay still?!” he started yelling.
“Ow! Because you’re being a fucking weirdo! There’s something fucking wrong with you, it’s starting to creep me out! What the fuck are your intentions anyway, huh?!” you argued back.
His calmness fading, he yelled back, “SHUT THE FUCK UP! ALL YOU EVER DO IS GET ON MY FUCKING NERVES LIKE YOU KNOW EVERY FUCKING THING IN THE WORLD!”
His face was inching closer and closer to your face with each word pouring from his mouth. You smirked at this.
You laughed, teasing, “Oh, you wanna kiss me so bad, huh?”
He immediately froze after hearing that sentence spill from your mouth and avoided eye contact yet again. Oddly enough, he returned to his calmer self… If you didn’t know any better, it was obvious that that sentence held some truth with him.
“Look just-”
Before you could finish your sentence, his lips crashed onto yours. Your eyes shot wide open at the shock of the situation. Bakugo Katsuki fucking kissed you… Bakugo Katsuki. The Bakugo Katsuki who always argued with you. The Bakugo Katsuki who always got on your nerves. THAT Bakugo Katsuki.
Taking you away from your thoughts, he pulled away from the kiss. He examined your face for your reaction, but you were frozen in place with your eyes shot wide open. You didn’t know what to do, as if you were a computer and you were going through some code that you weren’t programmed to handle. He looked away and scoffed at himself, mumbling.
“Of course, she didn’t fucking like that, idiot…” he mumbled.
His grip on you loosened and his hands were brought to his side and he couldn’t bear to look at you in the face again. Breaking from your frozen state, you focused your eyes on him. He pulled his face away from your point of view and was scratching his neck in embarrassment and you could notice the light blush spread on his cheeks. You felt a little tug on your heart that you’ve never felt before when looking at him. At that moment, he was just so freaking cute.
Mentally telling yourself that you’re gonna regret this later, you grabbed his face in your hands and pulled him closer to you again. Your lips locked with his and you closed your eyes to bask in the moment. Only this time, Bakugo’s eyes were shot wide open, but only for a second. Relief soon spread across his face and his eyes rested on your waist, pulling you closer.
Both of you guys wanted nothing more than to stay in that moment forever, the rivalry between you two completely non-existent. As all good things must come to an end, you pulled away from him and your eyes made contact for a second before you both looked away, blushing. Realization soon hit you and you didn’t know what to do next.
“I-”
“Uh-”
You guys stuttered at the same time, making eye contact for a second before looking away. The atmosphere between the two of you was confusing. Before you could think of another thing to say, he spoke up first.
“Good night,” he said.
He walked away swiftly and turned the corner to the hallway towards his dorm. You stood for a few seconds not knowing what to think. You released the breath that you didn’t realize you were holding in and proceeded to walk towards your dorm room. Leaving the kitchen a bit of a mess for the night.
The next day it was Kaminari who was blamed for leaving the paper towel on the floor and some spilled water on the counter. Poor boy.
-
Now, the relationship that you had with ‘blasty-boy’ would probably seem complicated and confusing in the eyes of others, but you two were pretty content with where you guys were at. There was an unspoken agreement that you would keep your relationship under wraps. You knew how Bakugo always tried to upkeep his ego of being the best. You’ve always assumed that he didn’t want anyone to know he had a soft spot for you. And you didn’t necessarily mind not sharing your relationship out in the open, anyway. I mean, you guys only just made your relationship official, but it was a little hard to keep your mouth shut when you desperately wanted to gush about him with the other girls of Class 1-A.
Although, you guys have managed to maintain the rivalry between you guys in front of the others. It’s not like you guys were faking it, though. Only now, you guys saw it as fun, meaningless banter and meant nothing by it. The few times that you’ve got to spend with Bakugo alone were completely different from when you would be with him as a group.
On one of your more recent dates, he invited you to watch a movie in his dorm room and he was so adamant about keeping you close to him throughout the movie. At one point in the night, you tried to get up to use the restroom real quick and his arm around your waist pulled you back down, making you fall onto his lap and you stared up at him. He ignored you and stared at the laptop screen.
“Uh… I need to go pee. Let me go, please?” you smiled up at him.
He gave you a glance and reverted his stare to the screen again, “No.”
“What do you mean no? I drank so much water because the popcorn was too salty… come on. You want me to pee on you or something?” you joked.
He laughed, “So, what if I do?”
You sat up and his gaze finally met yours and his signature smirk was plastered on his face.
You grabbed one of his pillows and hit him with it, “Ew, you’re so fucking gross! I’m going.”
He laughed and finally allowed you to leave, but rest assured, he snuggled up with you when you came back.
-
Right now, you were hanging with the rest of your class in the common room. On Fridays, you guys all agreed to a movie night after a long week of classes. You were sitting with the rest of the girls, settled between Momo and Mina. The movie hasn’t started yet since everyone was starting to get comfortable and settled in. A few of your classmates were grabbing popcorn and other snacks in the kitchen while the rest of you guys were just chatting. Somehow, the conversation between the girls evolved into talking about relationships.
“Oh my god! There was this really cute guy that I accidentally bumped into at lunch and apparently he’s a third-year! I hope I bump into him again, he was seriously cute,” gushed Mina.
“That’s so cute, Mina! I wish I had, like, ANY romantic interactions. My life’s so boring…” groaned Ochaco.
“Same,” said Hagakure.
The rest of the girls sort of nodded in agreement, but you just sat there sipping your juice pouch loudly.
“Y/n? You’re awfully quiet,” teased Tsu as she nudged you with her elbow.
“Well, I mean-”
“What are you ladies talking about over here, huh?” said Denki as he and the other boys inched closer to the girls to join their conversation.
Momo spoke up, “Seems like Y/n over here has a crush!”
You covered your face in embarrassment, “No I do not! It’s… uh… look we’re just… talking?”
Kirishima teased, “Awe so who’s the lucky individual?”
“Yeah, I wanna know who captured our Y/n’s heart,” laughed Sero.
“It’s no one…” you said after trying to recover after digging yourself in a deeper hole.
“Hey, Bakugo. How do you feel about Y/n’s new crush, huh? Maybe your love for her isn’t reciprocated after all…” started Kaminari before Bakugo stood from his seat on the couch and grabbed his shirt to intimidate him.
He growled, “I don’t have a crush on Y/n. How many times do I have to tell you idiots that?!”
“You’re just jealous that Y/n’s significant other is probably hotter than you!” laughed Mina.
Visibly annoyed at the situation, Bakugo walks away rolling his eyes and mumbling, “Tch. Can’t believe I go to school with a bunch of idiots…”
“Awe, can’t take it anymore? Your love for me is so strong that it pains you to listen to this conversation, huh, Bakugo?” you teased.
“Shut up. I’m going to the bathroom,” he said plainly.
The rest of your classmates on the couch got a laugh in before the topic of your potential significant other died down into smaller topics within different people. Those who were in the kitchen preparing the snacks for everyone finally came back and everyone was finding their seats around the TV and your boyfriend had yet to come back.
You pulled out your phone to text him and right as you did, Iida turned off the lights.
“Yo, Y/n. Turn off your phone it’s too bright and the movie’s about to start,” nudged Mina.
You apologized, “Sorry. I’ll turn it off in a minute I just need to text someone.”
You pulled up your boyfriend’s text log and typed in a message for him:
yo blasty boy why arent u back from the bathroom the movies starting
…also i saved u a seat next to me so we can cuddle (lowkey of course hehe)
After sending those two messages, you put away your phone in your pocket. Everyone was concentrated on the movie and you set your attention on the TV screen until…
PING PING
A phone on the coffee table lit up brightly while making two loud notification pings. Everyone lost focus on the movie and looked over at the phone on the table. No doubt that it was your grandpa of a boyfriend’s phone pinging. Before you could do something, Kirishima grabbed it.
“Who the hell didn’t turn off their ringer? And why is it so damn loud..” laughed Sero.
Kirishima’s eyes scanned his phone for a quick second before his eyes widened and he covered his mouth in surprise.
“Holy shit! Bakugo has a girlfriend!” yelled Kirishima.
You couldn’t help but cover your face in your blanket… Bakugo was about to be so mad at you. Your secret would be out and honestly, you were glad, but you know that your boyfriend didn’t want anyone to find out anytime soon. At least, not like this.
Everyone turned to Kirishima, suddenly losing interest in the movie playing in front of them.
“Oh my god, you’re joking!” squealed Yaoyorozu.
Ojiro claimed, “There’s no way that Bakugo has a girlfriend. Not that hothead.”
“Bro, I’m not joking! And guess what… it’s someone in this room!” exclaimed Kirishima.
Everyone starts looking around the class, silently accusing their classmates of being the culprit.
“Look what they said: ‘also i saved u a seat next to me so we can cuddle‘! Someone better start speaking upppppp!” said Kaminari teasingly as he got the phone from the red-haired boy.
“So, who is it?” grinned Ochako.
Sero peeked at the phone in Kirishima’s hands, “There’s no name, it just says ‘dumbass’. That’s so like Bakugo.”
You sighed in relief. You didn’t know that Bakugo didn’t have your contact as your actual name.
“G-guys! I don’t think Kacchan would want us to go through his phone…” protested Midoriya.
“Midoriya is right! This is not respectful behavior, we should respect our classmate’s privacy,” Iida said matter-of-factly.
Kaminari replied, “Aw, come on you guys are no fun! It’s harmless, anyway! If it really is someone in our class, we were bound to find out! It’s inevitable!”
You grab the phone from him and said, “Wow, Kaminari, I didn’t know you had the vocabulary capacity for the word inevitable! Now, let me see this…”
Lo and behold, your messages were shown on the screen under the name ‘dumbass’. You tried to analyze the situation and how you could use this small sliver of anonymity to your advantage. You concluded that just trying to play off the situation would be the best thing to do-
“Woah, woah, woah. What’s that as Bakugo’s wallpaper?” said Mina as she slowly grabbed the phone from your hands.
Right then, a horror scene played out right in front of your eyes. As everyone was standing crowded around the phone (whether they agreed with peering through your boyfriend’s phone or not), they were looking at the brightly-lit device in the pink girl’s hands and she deleted the notifications to show his very-telling wallpaper… you could say there was a slight miscalculation in your plan as you failed to notice earlier that his wallpaper was the two of you… making out.
You couldn’t bear to look at what was on his phone as everyone let out their gasps. It was too embarrassing, everyone seeing such an intimate moment on your boyfriend’s phone. Bakugo had taken that picture on a whim one night when you two were having one of your movie nights. When he did that, you were shocked because there was no way that Bakugo took pictures of himself ever. Honestly, you were shocked to see that he knew how to take a selfie. Nonetheless, you peeked through your fingers at the phone in Mina’s hand just for a bit.
To your surprise, he set the wallpaper to LIVE MODE. Live mode…… Everyone was watching you guys make out in action like it was a fucking movie.
That motherfucker…
The silence of realization was then disrupted as the girls let out their squeals and the whole class was causing a commotion while the boys high-fived each other as if they won a competition or something. Everyone was up and moving, a strong contrast from them mere minutes ago when they were lounging around on the couch and floor. Sero was shaking your shoulders as you covered your face in your hands. Your face was heating up from all the embarrassment and you couldn’t bear to look at any of your classmates after what they just witnessed.
You didn’t know what to think. Half of you were completely embarrassed that your friends just saw you in an embarrassing scenario and half of you were angry at Bakugo because this was all his fault! Who the fuck puts such an intimate moment as their wallpaper?! Why not something cute? And of course, it had to be a live photo…
You finally peered through your hands again to see the scene in front of you. Mina was laughing so hard on the couch that she was on the verge of tears.
“I CAN’T BREATHE! NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS WOULD I EVER EXPECT THIS SHIT!” she cried.
Most of the boys were still jumping up and down like some monkeys due to the sheer excitement and energy in the room. Uraraka walked up to you and smiled widely while placing her hands firmly on your shoulders.
“Wow! Who would’ve thought that you and Bakugo were a thing! I honestly didn’t see that coming… sorry that we all had to find out that way. I was a little too absorbed in the excitement to consider how you felt,” said the round-faced girl.
With your face still red, you said, “Don’t worry about it… it was bound to happen soon enough, right? Although, now I’m a little embarrassed, but I guess I’m kind of relieved that I don’t have to put much effort into hiding our relationship anymore.”
Yaoyorozu chimed in, “Honestly, this is more entertaining than the movie we were just watching!”
You laughed along with the other girls who were nearby. On the other side of the room, the boys were making a train throughout the room and singing.
“Uh, y/n,” interrupted Asui, “Look.”
The man-of-the-hour walked in the room with his hands in his pockets with his usual grumpy expression. He stopped to examine the room and stared quietly at the energetic group of boys.
He scoffed, “What are you nerds doing? Why aren’t you guys watching the fucking movie, huh?”
He looked around the room until his eyes met yours and you quickly looked away, which caught his attention. Your mind was racing a mile a minute trying to think of an excuse. Your gaze averted to the ground, but you could hear his footsteps heading your way.
“Since when did your socks suddenly get so interesting that you can’t look me in the eyes?” teased Bakugo.
He brought his hand up to your chin and lifted your face to meet his gaze. His playful smirk instantly dropped once he saw your expression. Your eyes were borderline teary and seemed lost, like a sad puppy.
He whispered so that only you could hear, “Baby… what’s up?”
You wanted to give in to his touch at that very moment and run into his arms, but you resisted because you knew that it would be too selfish given how you just broke your guys’ agreement. You didn’t deserve to be in his embrace right now, he was seconds away from finding out that your guys’ secret came out accidentally all because you sent a random text. You pulled your face away from his grip and moved away from him.
“W-wait, what-” he started.
“HEYYYYYYYYYYY, BAKUBRO!” said Kaminari and he wrapped an arm around him (much to Bakugo’s dismay), “How come you didn’t tell your buddies that you had a soft side to you, huh?”
Bakugo grunted, “What the fuck are you going on about?”
Kirishima chimed, “You know, you shouldn’t leave your phone out in the open like that… it makes you vulnerable!”
Still confused he said, ”Did worms get in your brains? We’ve been only one day off from school and you start lacking common sense?”
To his surprise, you walk up with his phone in your hand while keeping eye contact, unlike earlier.
“Sherlock, I thought you would’ve connected the dots by now,” you sighed, with a tinge of sadness behind it, “Your wallpaper… really?”
You hold up the phone up to his face and his reaction was almost humorous to you. His eyes widened and his face was painted with a light tint of pink.
For the first time in your life, you witnessed your boyfriend at a loss for words. The rest of your class watched the whole interaction and some restrained laughs were let out and they were all back to square one, laughing like maniacs. You were about to join in and laugh with them when you realized again what the situation at hand was. You were scared of how Bakugo would react since this would be the first rift in your relationship and you didn’t want to have a genuine argument with him, especially with how angry he could get. Suddenly, you felt a pair of hands grasp yours and you look up to see your boyfriend smiling at you.
“I-”
Before you could say a single word, he hauls you on his shoulder, and you yelp in surprise. You don’t know how you ended up in this position, but now you’re dangling off of him and now you’re staring at the ground. (Also, his face was dangerously close to your ass, but you didn’t mention it.) He starts walking away and away from the commotion towards his dorm room. Before you can protest, he leans his head on your body causing you to freeze up. You could feel his warmth from his body heat against your shirt.
“You know… I’m not mad at you. I could never be mad at you,” he says quietly.
Your brain took time to process that sentence… was Bakugo actually not mad? Most importantly, who knew such sweet words could come out of his mouth? You couldn’t help but breathe out a sigh of relief and you relaxed a bit.
Wanting to tease him, you said, “Sorry, you were too quiet. Could you repeat that again?”
He groaned, “I said… I’m not mad at you, I could never be.”
You giggled, “I know. I heard you the first time, but I thought my ears were deceiving me… Katsuki Bakugo is saying something nice for once? Whatttt…”
He shook you a little, “Forget it. You didn’t hear anything.”
Raising yourself a little, you patted your boyfriend on the head, “Nope. Remembering that phrase forever and ever.”
“Whatever.”
You teased back, “Whatever!”
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maybe i do | kth. (m) I
summary : maybe you love each other, maybe you don’t. when a deal between your fathers leaves you forcefully wedding kim taehyung, arguably seoul’s most powerful CEO, you’re prepared for a loveless marriage of eternal regret and unhappiness. but maybe, it doesn’t turn out that way after all.
pairing : taehyung x reader
genre : arranged marriage!au, ceo!tae, eventual smut, fluff, angst
rating : 18+
word count : 11k
warnings : swearing, alcohol consumption, anxiety, lots of feels about marriage, a stupid ex (reader’s), mentions of bad sexual experiences with ex (there’s consent, just bad sex that makes the reader feel shitty), does ceo tae count as a warning?
a/n: hello my first fic of my favourite trope arranged marriage, AND with kim taehyung?? yes pls !! this will be a series and I’ll be actively working on it so you don’t have to wait too long for chapters, i hope you can follow this series with me <33
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“Another one, Father? I thought I told you my secretary would be handling marriage profiles from now on. Stop concerning yourself with who I marry.”
“But I do, son. Trust me, I know this girl, she’s the daughter of a trusted friend and I think she’s a good match.”
“Father, everyone you choose for me I dislike and it’s distracting me from my work. I don’t need this right now.”
“She’s different, Taehyung. I personally know her and I’m certain you won’t say no.”
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house of cards | katsuki bakugou
pairing: katsuki bakugou x reader
word count: 730
taglist: @hoekaashi @humanitys-hottestsoldier @suckersuki
a/n: this is ANOTHER part of my 400 followers special. two more fics coming soon, and then the masterlist will be posted! hope you enjoy :) sorry if im posting a lot lately, im just getting these done!
warnings: swearing
prompt: “the way i said ‘i love you’: muffled, from the other side of the door”
“Am I that much of a bother to you, Katsuki?” You narrow your eyes at him, your heart heavy. You sit in front of him, a worried look on your face. He wouldn’t break up with you, right?
“Did I say that?” He says sarcastically, his jaw tensing up. “I just said I’m not always gonna be able to give you attention like you want. I’m focusing on other shit too.”
You sigh, looking down at your lap, tears welling up in your eyes. “All I ask is for you to act like you care. But if that’s too much, it’s okay.”
His hand slams down on the coffee table, “You knew from the start that my priority is hero work, not this shit, Y/N.”
You look up at Katsuki, his red eyes closed shut as his hands run over his face. His words travel straight to your heart, each syllable hurting you more and more. “This shit? You mean, our relationship?” You bite back, “If you’re done, just say that, Bakugou.”
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