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i am so tired. i am so tired. i want to be happy. but i don't have any power to try anymore. i'm so dumb. i'm so fucking dumb. i wish i were never born. it doesn't matter. nothing fucking matters.

i'm going to die because of the shit i do to myself, either accidentally or willingly. i hope people won't regret any decision they made about me.

i slept for the first time in two days and it wasn't even sleeping. my stomach is burning up really badly. i just want to rest. i'm tired. i'm tired.

all i do during the day is do anything that will destroy me.

how can i ever stop feeling like this? how can i get rid of myself? how can i runaway from this body, mind and heart?

T.S. Eliot, The Waste Land

i know that cutting my arm won't be enough for the next time.

why can't i just take a break from living?

i'm too tired even to be loved.

no matter how many people i meet and be around, i'm always so lonely. why can't i feel any loved?

i feel so tired. my whole body is burning up with these wounds. i look disgusting. my body is disgusting. i will never look like the way i want to look like. why is it so hard for me to not to eat? i don't even feel hunger, what the fuck i am eating for?

i'm so so so dumb i hate it i fucking hate

no one cares anyways, so what's the point?

i can't take it anymore. i hate myself. i just can't live wlth everything i have done in the past. i should have never been born.

i feel like my heart is going to fall from my chest.

everything annoys me. i can't take it anymore.

i don't deserve to live. i'm worthless.

i'm so sick of everything. i just want to get rid of myself.

how am i supposed to love my body when i don't feel like i have one?

i wish i couldn't made this far. i died a long time ago, why am i still here?

i'm so sick of everything. i just want to get rid of myself.

just tell me that you don't like me instead of pretending all the time. it's not even that hard.

i don't want to think anymore. i don't want to deal with anything. i just want to sleep and never wake up again. it would be the best for everyone.