If I Cannot Get Out Of Here Soon, If I Cannot Leave My Town... I'll Just End Up Crazier. The Old Wounds

if i cannot get out of here soon, if i cannot leave my town... i'll just end up crazier. the old wounds never heal, and new ones may appear.

i'd wish i could have femme referents older than me; i'd wish i could turn to them, learn from them. i'd wish i could have something to contribute to this community too. i just feel alienated, isolated... empty.

feels a bit lonely

i'm sick of so many bioessentialist stuff that surrounds what topping and bottoming is or should be. especially when i see posts about stones.

like i'm honestly enraged because it's exhausting how invalidated i feel sometimes by some people from this community online and i wish i could be with femmes & stone top femmes irl but it's impossible to find any community on this fucking town.

don't you get it? i love you. i always have. so please, just this once. stay!

everything should cost one dollar, ten dollars, or one hundred dollars. a drinky drink is one dollar. a t shirt is ten dollars. rent is one hundred. i might be convinced to allow one thousand dollars for some very big purchases like a house. i get it, you're running a business. i'm not unreasonable.