Rose Is Always Wall Eyed, Sad Eyed Even When Smiling. Rebecca Sugar

“rose is always wall eyed, sad eyed even when smiling.” — rebecca sugar

this is such a simple note describing rose’s appearance in rebecca’s concept drawings for rose’s lion 3 debut, but it’s incredibly tragic when you consider rose’s character

she’s so deeply ashamed of herself and her past; the way she worships everyone around her is so sincere; she can’t stand herself

the image shows sketches of rose quartz by rebecca sugar with soft, subtly sad expressions. notes say she looks sad even when smiling. her eyes are often a bit unfocused. there’s a big drawing of her standing with a hand on her belly, wearing a flowing dress. greg universe is also sketched wearing a t-shirt and shorts

rose keeps her eyes closed in every picture she leaves behind. rose with her boyfriend, the portrait in steven’s house. she wouldn’t want him to be anywhere near that kind of pain. even rose’s fountain has a statue of her with her eyes closed. she hides parts of herself, literally & figuratively.

photograph of rose and greg, looking up at her as he eats a hot dog. rose has her eyes closed and the picture frame is broken

rose's portrait, the background is pink and she sits waist up with her eyes closed

she can’t open up about her past; she would much rather shut it out. she can’t bear the thought of even having to look at her own pain.

“oh, i’m so happy for everyone who’s going to know you.” — rose, lion 4

“rose quartz hoped with all her being that her child would grow up surrounded by love & kindness & care… and would never find a way back to her horrendous old home.” — the tale of steven

“sometimes i wonder if it's even you up there, smiling all day and night. i just want to know the real you. not the you that everyone tells me about.” — steven, storm in the room

the tale of steven: pearl with baby steven and amethyst on his right. garnet is showing steven red & blue butterflies, standing in front of him.

the tale of steven: pink diamond playing in the garden. yellow diamond is in the right corner and spinel is in the left corner.

just on a pearlrose note, i always loved how pearl was in the picture on the left. rose really did trust her & garnet & ame, despite the fact that it took time for them to understand how to show their love & raise a half human kid properly. but he was a gift to them & she believed in them too. she’d be proud of them, especially with everything going on.

rose hides her past, but one person was there for most of it. she was the type to notice small details—maybe it was painfully easy for her to notice rose’s eyes. i wonder if this complicated things even more, as she was already focused on what she could do to make rose happy. simply being herself made rose feel loved, but that was always something she struggled to feel worthy of