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After What I Just Read At R&r I NEED To Add Genya Safin, Ok?? I NEED IT.
after what i just read at r&r i NEED to add genya safin, ok?? i NEED IT.
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( cam ):
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She was making jokes, something they often batted back and forth at eachother. Something which had started out as the idle banter of two people on opposing sides, poking fun at eachother- though Cam’s jokes were usually less direct than hers. He laughed. She always made him laugh, which was where he’d first realised the trouble was growing, where he first realised what feelings were lying just beneath the surface in his own heart.
But he let the laughter take him, this time, the sound stronger than before. His voice was still quiet when he spoke, his brief moment of amusement gone in a flash as he came back to the matter at hand.
“I don’t want you to go. I don’t want to let you go.” He murmured, his grip on her sleeve still tight. “I…was supposed to let you go, Reevah.”
Finally he glanced up, peeling himself away just enough to dare looking into her eyes. They were golden, always so bright and full of mischief. Not so much now- God, they almost looked….sad. Worried. For him?
How could he do this. How could he do this when she was looking at him like that, when every fibre of his soul was screaming no. Not her too. Not her. Please. Instinctively his grip fell away from her arm, his fingers aching from the tension. Instead he brought both hands up to cradle her face gently, too weak to do anything but drink in the sight of her, to feel the warmth of her against his skin. His own brown eyes wavered as he looked at her, wearily shaking his head.
“But I can’t. I can’t.”
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and suddenly—everything in her stops for more than just a moment. from the top of her head to the legs vent underneath her body, from within her chest to the one point where their bodies touched: where she felt the reach of his fear pressing on her skin; undoubted. ‘ i was supposed to let you go ’, how no more than those seven words could wake something older than anything within her, buried deep, forgotten even for herself.
something—fragile. fine crystal thrown against the ground, shattered. messed up.
what reevah found at the edge of his thoughts was paralyzing fear and a pain she couldn’t comprehend. a silence in her head, a tremor in her throat and the fire of tears rushing to her face. an echo—unreadable, distant. a need to gaze down trying to remember, to make sense of what screamed inside, fought to find its way out. ‘ i was supposed to let you go ‘ i was supposed to say goodbye. and suddenly—she was thrown back to the beginning, to how it was to the very start.
and perhaps you wouldn’t know, perhaps you wouldn’t have thought about this ( as neither did she ) but—abandonment and denial was the very thing she had been born of. judged, rejected. loved in one moment only to be dismissed at the next. perhaps you wouldn’t have made the connection but there was a time where she had felt like this, before cam, before his touch and the very salvation in his eyes. she had been loved, by Her, and before she knew it she had been pushed away for the flaws in her nature. showed what loneliness could really be, how terrifying solitude was, and now, now—expected to feel abandonment once again.
no, not again. not now.
her eyes went up and her lips parted with words that never made it to the scene. with subtle gasps and eyes that searched in his for a little help. for any way to tell him that she wouldn’t survive this, that she’d do anything, how unfair and maddening this all was. she backed down and pushed herself, questioning every last second of this damned afternoon, and it was when he held her—when he carefully put his hand on her cheek and looked at her with so much pain that she couldn’t contain herself any longer, and so—she leant in. with no hesitation, finding the way to his lips and planting on them a kiss dimly touched by her fears. trembling, unsure. long awaited for, starved and pressed for a few seconds before she drew back. slightly, barely anything, and only to breathe again, collect her thoughts and look for him for a second time—brushing the curve of his mouth before kissing him with hope and a plea; lovingly, learning the warmth of his skin and how silently safe it was to be this close to him. close—wonderfully near, as it should have been for the very start.
“ then don’t. ” she begged, with close eyes and her heart exposed to him. “ cam, please… ” she insisted, moving back and aiming her eyes at his, biting her lips and trying to find the strength to add more, to say more, to tell him how deeply important this was to her “ we’ll find a way—we’ll manage! i know we can, but—please… ” don’t leave me. “ please ” don’t go.
Symbols for the mun
💝 I ship our muses, but we’ve never interacted
✨ I think your portrayal is on point, but it also intimidates me
💍 I want to be exclusives with you
⭐️ We don’t rp, but I desperately wish we did
☀️ I want to rp with you, but I’m not sure how
💔 We’ve rp’ed in the past, but now we don’t
🎂 I’m new to your blog, and I want to be friends
🎉 We’ve been mutuals for ages, and this makes me so happy!
💡 I have a thread idea for us!
💌 I just think you’re amazing
💥 We’re not mutuals, but I wish you’d notice me
♡ SICKLY SWEET SENTIMENT / PINTEREST SENTENCE STARTERS .
“ i think you have the most beautiful mind . ” “ you have to pick your battles . ” “ i’m here . you can talk to me , or not talk to me , but i’m here . ” “ i love you , idiot . ” “ you suck less than most people . ” “ i look over at you and see sunshine . you’re so warm , and bright . ” “ i love you a little bit more every day . ” “ maybe when the time is right , we’ll find each other again . ” “ please stay . i need you more than you think . ” “ you’re a badass with a big heart . ” “ academia is fake . you can only trust your fists ” “ just be with me . we’ll figure out the details later . ” “ can i … really hold your hand ? ” “ i like you more than i planned . ” “ don’t use the words ‘i promise’ lightly . ” “ i’m not totally useless . i can be used as a bad example ! ” “ i’m trying my best . ” “ cool kids never sleep ! ” “ pinkie promise ? ” “ i’ll take care of you . ” “ i like it when you smile . ” “ you make my heart kinda flutter … ” “ aren’t you just the cutest ? ” “ i tried to hate you . ” “ you are the cause of so many of my smiles . ” “ a sky full of stars , but i only have eyes for you . ” “ you are sweeter than any flower . ” “ we’ve got this ! ” “ i will always care for you , darling . ” “ i could never get tired of the sound of your voice . ”