God, Why Not Me? I Did What I Was Supposed To. I Was Good, At Least I Think I Was. And I Tried A Lot.

God, why not me? I did what I was supposed to. I was good, at least I think I was. And I tried a lot. But why does it hurt still. Why am I not all better now? I thought you were supposed to protect me. But you’re just letting this happen

No

I know you

I know it’s all in my head again

I can never really change can I

My sins can only be committed by my own will

By my own red stained palms

Por mi culpa

Por mi gran culpa

I do it to myself

When if ever will I stop

I know your not there but if you can see me, I would pray you give me mercy. Will you think of me, care for me, change for me. Am I not worth saving anymore, have I doomed myself to damnation.

I don’t even know why I continue to pray anymore, I keep showing up for services in hopes of something else but if god is real I know he forgot about me and it’s all my fault.

Please god, come back to me. Take care of me. Remember me.

Amen

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