Crookedcomputerchaos

origin story by desireé dallagiacomo / jasmine R, untitled / father - the front bottoms

batman and robin (2011) - issue 20

and then harley called his dad immediately so he wouldn’t kill the joker and become a criminal ahahahHAHAHAHAHAHAHnjkr4funi4rfifr4uniu

Jason & Bruce;

I begged for you until my voice was raw, then until it hurt, then until it was silent. This emptiness you left me with. I had nothing left to give, so I had to give up.

Ok but Jason being unloved by the narrative/writers hits me so hard. It’s both being unloved by your parents or being unloved by God himself. Feeling utterly uncared for. All odds stacked against you. Little Jay trying hard to be good and being so, so good, dying to save a mother who doesn’t love him to satisfy a writer who hates him and entertain a crowd of consumers who get a small kick out of it, but mostly don’t even care, don’t even care at all.

Dying for a God who doesn’t just let the sparrow fall, he didn’t even care to notice it was ever there in the first place. Cutting ourselves open to be good enough, good enough. and it is never enough. How unholy to bleed out and not even have someone to drink your blood. 

Anyway, how uncaring is it, to be alive and be hurting, how little love do we get for our wounds, how little tenderness for our bruised souls. And still, Jason is not loved, he is something writers are unwilling to entertain to understand. A big joke to the cosmos, dying and living and barely breathing, to the cacophony of sickening laughter or scoffs of disdain around him.

Franny Choi, Soft Science; "Chatroulette"/Batman: Black & White #5/Anne Boyer, What Resembles A Grave But Isn't/Under the Red Hood/Haruki Murakami/Red Hood and the Outlaws/Richard Siken, Portrait of Fryderyk in Shifting Light/Red Hood and the Outlaws Vol.2 #9