Help This Is So Sad But Also Like Warm??

help this is so sad but also like warm??

✈︎ season of lilies

the lilies have never stood as beautiful as they did after you left.

pairing : idol!sunoo x sick!gn!reader

warnings : mcd, angst, hints of fluff, not gender specific but it does mention having a female roommate, sunoo calls reader lily as a nickname once.

wc : 0.6k

a/n : for u @onlyghxst ♡

“I don’t have very much time left.” You spoke softly, voice as delicate as your weakened body. head gently rested against the side of your wheelchair as Sunoo pushed it through the indoor garden. Sunoo chose to just hum at your words knowing that if he opened his mouth to reply then his cries would spill out with the faucet in his eyes.

“I can feel it,” your tired eyes looked out towards your favourite spot in the garden, the place where you’d first met Sunoo’s group after they’d been invited to preform “I’m not going to get better.”.

The lilies were in bloom, their pink and white petals open as the sun came in through the roof. “I know” Sunoo whispered as he crouched down beside you, his hand coming down to wrap around your own.

“But you’ll be okay, I know you will.” A small smile rose to your lips, certainty replacing the longing in your vows. Sunoo shook his head, his hair falling down over his eyes as they filled with tears.

“Eventually I will” He promised with his fingers crossed. He knew he wasn't going to heal from your death but he wasn't going to tell you that, he wasn't going to let you carry the burdens of his onset mourning

The doctors had told you that your symptoms were getting worse, that you won't make it to the next season. As much as it hurt, you truly believed that if you spent the rest of your short life with Sunoo and the lilies, you won’t mind missing out in the future.

You’ve living to die, preparing your own funeral with the boy sitting beside you with his warm hands entwined with your cold ones. “I want to come back as a lily, I hope that even after death you can find me in things that I loved, that we loved.” You looked away from the lilies after feeling Sunoo’s hand tighten around your own, heart melting at the sight of him silently crying.

“You will make the prettiest garden” And you did.

Sunoo stood on the stadium in some random park in Seoul, a microphone in his hands as Heeseung spoke from beside him.

It was that time of year again, the season of lilies. It's been two years since you left him, since the last petals fell from the hospital's flower garden. But even with you gone, he could still feel you.

His eyes connected with the wide garden to his left, genuinely smiling as he saw a singular lily standing tall in the center. The pink and white petals standing proudly, strong green leaves surrounding the stem.

‘I see you, my lily.’ his head tilted back as the sudden wind kissed his cheeks, his hair blowing back to reveal his forehead. He could almost feel your lips against his cheeks, your whispers in the wind.

Maybe in another life you wouldn't have left him so early, maybe you wouldn't have been sick, maybe you would've been able to see him achieving all your shared goals, a void full of maybes and heartbreaking nothings. But as his eyes opened and connected with a small girl in the crowd his heart mended.

The younger girl who you shared a hospital room with was sitting in the front row, both hands in front of her holding a bouquet of lilies and a bright smile that lit up even more after making contact with Sunoo’s. “They found a cure!” Her now healthy voice shouted out in excitement.

It was then when your love for lilies finally made sense to Sunoo, because they bloomed as miracles were made.

@ LVLYHANNI do not plagiarize, translate, copy or repost