Ohhh October Be Kind. On God Be Kind

ohhh october be kind. on god be kind

A lot of people ask me what my biggest fear is, or what scares me most. And I know they expect an answer like heights, or closed spaces, or people dressed like animals, but how do I tell them that when I was 17 I took a class called Relationships For Life and I learned that most people fall out of love for the same reasons they fell in it. That their lover’s once endearing stubbornness has now become refusal to compromise and their one track mind is now immaturity and their bad habits that you once adored is now money down the drain. Their spontaneity becomes reckless and irresponsible and their feet up on your dash is no longer sexy, just another distraction in your busy life. Nothing saddens and scares me like the thought that I can become ugly to someone who once thought all the stars were in my eyes.

if you were a teacher 🥲 i would fail your class 🥲 take it over and over 🥲 'till you noticed me 🥲 if you were a waiting room 🥺 i would never see a doctor 🥺 i would sit there with my first aid kit and bleed 🥺 i wanna be the power ballad that lifts you up and holds you down 🥲 i wanna be the broken love song that feeds your misery 🥲 and i can wish all that i want, but it won't bring us together 😓 plus, i know whatever happens to me 🥲 i know it's for the better 😭 and when broken bodies are washed ashore 😭 who am i to ask for more, more 🥲 but you're breathing in my open mouth, you're the gun in my lips that will blow my brains out 🥲🥲🥲 i wanna make you drive all night just because i said "maybe you should come over" 😭😭😭 wanna make you fall in love 😭 as hard as my poor parents' teenage daughter 😭😭😭😭 she'll be the best you ever had if you let her 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

NOBODY FUCKING MOVE.

one of my favorite things to do in limited perspective is write sentences about the things someone doesn't do. he doesn't open his eyes. he doesn't reach out. i LOVE sentences like that. if it's describing the narrator, it's a reflection of their desires, something they're holding themselves back from. there's a tension between urge and action. it makes you ask why they wanted or felt compelled to do that, and also why they ultimately didn't. and if it's describing someone else, it tells you about the narrator's expectations. how they perceive that other person or their relationship. what they thought the other person was going to do, or thought the other person should have done, but failed to. negative action sentences are everything.

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