I've Hit My Guilt And Shame Limits, So There's No More. I'm Pathetic And Happy With It. A Day Ago I Violated

I've hit my guilt and shame limits, so there's no more. I'm pathetic and happy with it. A day ago I violated another person's ask box with my unholy wall of text, but then thought it could make a fine post in my own kinky basement. Behold: TF Cyberverse dubcon wasteplay.

It starts with Cyberverse Astrotrain getting creative with annoying the shit out of Dead End. He's bored with throwing him out, and unexpectedly grabbing him, and denying him with the access inside. He wants Dead End to FEEL it and to get bored too, so he just captures him and holds.

Oh, how hard poor Dead End struggles. He runs out of curses, and if the curses alone could harm, Astrotrain would be smashed to pieces. Too bad they can't. And even worse, that Dead End's waste tank is full, and it's getting to the brim. And Astrotrain seems having too much fun to let him go. He's mocking, asking where has Dead End failed so terribly that now he's in a hurry to fix it? What is it so important for him to leave now?

The more Dead End squirms, the more uncomfortable it gets. He's shaking, his voice betraying him, that only adds to Astrotrain's cruel excitement. Well, maybe not fully cruel? He's went ages without a good fuck, maybe just really not very experienced due to the lack of partners to match his size. And now there's a hot little bot all heated up and twitching in his grip. He's struggling so sweetly, it awakens something in Astrotrain. Big bully is just getting off. Bonus: he doesn't get what's really going on and how it's gonna end.

Dead End knows it's over for him when Astrotrain starts poking him. He's overheating, needs to relieve himself so bad it hurts, burning alive with embarrassment. "Gonna beg me to stop, pipsqueak?", comes Astrotrain's mocking tone, but Dead End can't tell him to shut the fuck up. He can't even beg. His valve panel snaps back and he's spraying in the air.

Astrotrain is just shocked. The effect is unexpected. He wanted a small revenge and now Dead End in his hand is pissing and whimpering raggedly. " You, you PISS-SQUEAK!", he's trying to sound disgusted, but he's just confused and so, so hot behind his panels. It's coming to him that all this is too much even of him. He's holding his victim gently now, watching him void in a strong arc until he's empty.

Speaking about how the line between friendship and intimate relationship is blurred to me... Here come spicy Amica activities.

We don't know much about Amica Endura, sadly. Even the concept of Conjunx Endura remains not very detailed. The franchise is rather reluctant when it comes to romance. That's understandable and better than pushing another family-friendly heteronormative narrative. But I love space opera for Weird Alien social structures and types of relationship. And I'm here for robot fucking. So, what about Cybertronians having some traditions and beliefs surrounding the Amica bonding? What if close physical contact is expected naturally, hugging, kissing and going all sensual (buffing, massage, minor repairs) are socially and morally acceptable? And interfacing (including valve penetration, oral, hardwire connection and sparkplay) is hugely frowned upon. Like, why do you wanna stick it in your Amica? Go get a junxie. Or pick up someone who's not your sacred bondmate. Maybe the Amica bond is viewed in a slightly spiritual way? I was thinking about the tradition of Adelphopoiesis in Orthodox Christianity. Literally same-sex marriage for the love of God. Proclaimed chaste, but the hell we know all those brothers in Christ were banging each other in monasteries. So, what if Amicas being sacredly non-sexual is so deep in the Cybertronian culture that it's not even analysed nowadays? It's just WRONG to fuck your bondmate. Well, it was supposed to be a post about Drift and Rodimus being horny Amicas, but I kinda got lost in explaining the shit. More explicit stuff coming soon.

Anon's ask about Megatron's sluttification passed through the prism of my brain and turned into something much sweeter. Let's look back into Megs' miner days, when his views and values were still in the process of being forged (so unlike himself, sorry, I just can't). Pre-war miners' lovemaking.

It's Terminus with whom Megatron shares his first attempts at writing. Miners are deprived of the luxury of having time to sit together to look through what Megatron has to share, so Terminus usually reads it whenever possible and then provides his review. It's simple and straightforward, no sophisticated shit for pampered intellectuals.

That's how Terminus finds a note, saying, "By radically renouncing and refusing to understand the mechanisms of our oppression, we put ourselves at risk of being detached from the reality of our custody. Instead of indulging ourselves in blind radicalism, we should analyze: what makes the system work? Functionism defines us through our bodies, because it's our bodies that make profit in this system. So, instead of rejecting our bodies, like some reject their alt-modes, we should make our bodies work for us. Our frames are not holy temples of Primus, they are our workshops in which we forge and shape our freedom."

The next page is much more rough, just a quick note about prostitution being stigmatized to deny the lower class any additional ways to gain wealth. The text itself is fine, but the subtext feels suspicious to Terminus. Is his Megatron really…

So he asks Megatron himself when they meet in their shared hab later. Megatron calmly tells about his decision to raise funds by making use of his body, which is a far cry from what is commonly viewed as appealing. But there are bots who're looking for manual workers. Even some freaks from high-ranking castes get wet from the perspective of a strong lower-classed scum fucking them. That's what they want. Perverts.

"Load of scrap," Terminus frowns. "You're wasting your words."

He hates telling Megatron this, but the kid is really confused now. He just has to help him reexamine this shit, so he starts with a kiss. Maybe Terminus is not as good with his words as Megatron (honestly, very few are), but he's good with his hands. Miners' bodies are not very sensitive, but he knows where to touch: wrists, hips near the codpiece. And Megatron's head equipment makes a perfect erogenous zone when free from his helmet.

Terminus is licking these trembling petals, careful not to bite. The effect it has on Megatron is impossible to ignore: mouth slightly open in soft gasps, both parts of his array ready and wet. Kneeling, Terminus pushes his legs apart, and Megatron moans in anticipation. Maybe Terminus is not as good with his word, but damn, how good he is with his tongue, licking Megatron's spike and valve. Like he's starving and Megatron is leaking pure energon, if hunger could also explain hot, tender kisses. 

Miners' equipment is most basic, plain, and unadorned, with a meager amount of nodes, but Terminus is eager and relentless when it comes to making Megatron shudder and ready to discharge, but now he's not letting him.

"Your body is a holy temple." Terminus is looking straight into Megatron's flickering eyes. "And you won't let anyone use it disrespectfully. Say it!" The command is added with a quick lick on the valve rim, making the rings inside clench. 

"Say it! And I will overload you."

And, head thrown back and voice cracking with beeps and static, Megatron utters the words. The next second this wonderful tongue is on him again, pushing mercilessly inside, fulfilling the promise. Megatron is holding onto the wall behind him, a stream from his valve hitting Terminus in the face, an unbelievingly blissful moment before it's drunk down. His spike shooting upwards, only for it to land on Terminus' helm and a bit on his back. 

Terminus doesn't mind, as long as his message is understood. 

And if you're looking for the very beginning of Megatron's radicalization, that is it.

This is already a fic idea but I want to see more so, idw Megatron in the early days getting slutted out to raise funds for the deception cause, and then he becomes a spikeslut <3

Class inequality and poverty-influenced prostitution are huge turn-offs for me. But you've really made me think. What if young Megatron considered it? Maybe not for The Cause™ (I imagine it happening before The Cause™ was even fully formulated), but for his underground activism (not mining though, lol), for publishing his early works? I'm already writing and it's getting disgustingly long. I'll post it separately later, just know it's gonna be hella vanilla, but Megatron will be there.

Why I don't like MTMTE Tailgate

At first I liked his character arc due to its fridge horror. See, a young bot with a freshly ignited spark, ready to hop on a big adventure and see the world with wide-open eyes... and he just trips, and he falls, and he wakes up to find himself transformed in his bed into a monstrous vermin into a fossil who missed all of the world-shuttering events. History is made, the world is now full of heroes of all sorts: Optimus, Ultra Magnus, Rodimus, even Whirl's made a name for himself. And in this realm of heroes Tailgate is nobody. Senior Shit Manager.

James Roberts dangled the carrot with the "Tailgate learning about the factions" plot, I was so ready for him to learn about the complexity of war, its causes and effects. And what I got? Autobots good, Decepticons bad, my ass. And even this gets thrown outta the window when it's Megatron's time to be the good guy. Yeah, it's just a minor plot in the complex narrative, I wouldn't complain if Tailgate himself was likeable.

He's not. Tailgate lacks qualities that I personally find endearing or charismatic, both in real and fictional personalities. He's just annoying, his naivety ends up merged into narrow-mindedness.

And holy shit, how MANIPULATIVE he is. He shamelessly manipulates Cyclonus into a romantic relationship with him. Cyclonus, whose traumatic experience includes being mind-controlled and made to, by his own words, hurt Cybertron. Keep in mind, Cyclonus is the biggest patriot their civilization has ever know, I can't imagine how much pain it caused him, all because of being manipulated. 

Tailgate causes an enormous clusterfuck of problems by letting himself be drawn into Getaway's scheme. Because of what? Because Cyclonus refused to date him and share his innermost energon! And what happens after Getaways's mutiny when Tailgate somehow gets away (lol)? Cyclonus shares his innermost energon so the damned fool can get his fill and STOP screwing it up. And what does Tailgate do? He wears it like a fucking bibelot and BRAGS about Cyclonus now being his boyfriend like it's his thesis defense in pickupology and nothing more. That's gross, man.

Yeah, Cyclonus may have a neglected case of emotional constipation and a fear of intimacy. So what? Does it mean he must be forced to open up and be dragged into an exclusive relationship when he's not ready? He clearly has a thing for Tailgate, he's in love, but what Tailgate does is abuse it. 

James Roberts, too, loves Tailgate. He gives him new superpowers, some spotlights even though what I found interesting to explore about Tailgate is lost. Characters that I find more likeable got killed off, their arcs aborted, and this "fandom marshmallow" stays to annoy me. Thank you very much.

I can't deny how important Tailgate is for Cyclonus, both story and character wise. Cyclonus loves him more than anything, and he gets better through this love. It's Cyclonus' side that works a miracle, so I don't find Cygate a complete waste of comic book ink, even though it makes me cringe. So, outside of the comic, Cygate is my NOTP, I prefer to avoid it in my reading and, since I write, my writing. It's a little sad how much fan content is not for me because of it, but there's still plenty that amuses and pleases me.

About emotional anguish -

How about starbee?

I was seeing some good stories with the jettwins as his (Star) children, but since i don't know what you feel about them, I'll leave it as optional

A bit confused, which continuity are you referring to? I know about the IDW RiD Starbee ship, which I don't really ship myself, but don't mind a good story focused on Starscream's redemption and developing heathy equal relationship after millions of years of Megatron's abuse. Sometimes Windblade's thrown in. I'd like Screamer to learn some friendship-fu before getting into something more exclusive, but the line is kinda blurred for me.