A Lot Of What I Write Anymore Is Directly Related To My Dnd Character Ithmaris So I Can't Exactly Post

A lot of what I write anymore is directly related to my dnd character Ithmaris so I can't exactly post them because MAJOR context will be missing, but I am really proud of some lines, so here they are:

(Note: these are from multiple pieces)

"Eyes lock on eyes, and an arrow between them."

"Fear was the sound of screams and storms."

"Ithmaris has grown up, and neither of her parents have been there to see it. She wonders if either of them would still love her."

"Time takes more memories, and she claws to hold on to the remaining scraps like a trapped animal in the death throes of starvation."

"All the same, she’d spent hours daydreaming what her father’s face would look like when he finally came home, how he would wrap the siblings in a hug warm enough to melt away the ice of Ithmaris’s skin. What a beautiful dream. What a beautiful lie."

"Solitude means tears without witnesses. Anxiety attacks without supervisors. Solitude is the verdant shoots of spring, the shining growth of summer, and the fading of autumn that allows winter to persist. Her oldest friend and most faithful tool."

"She wields a bow of starlight and can summon the might of the heavens, and yet, she is not strong enough."

"Will [love interest] always want to waste the years of her life, growing older and older, on someone who stubbornly refuses to age? "

"With one hand on the door, they look up to the silent watchers. Will the stars remember this? Will they judge her, throw down their celestial sentencing of cowardice the next time she wields their light? Her mind pleads their case to the firmament: they are not weak for this. Maybe selfish, but they are not weak for this."

"The sentencing is clear. So long she focused on staying strong, on getting stronger and yet– They are weak for this. They are weak for this."

NO-ONE AND I MEAN NO-ONE UNDERSTANDS EURYLOCHUS LIKE I DO

HIS FATAL FLAW IS HUNGER. HE WAS THE FIRST ONE TO BRING UP HOW LITTLE FOOD THEY HAD IN THE TROY SAGA. HE OPENED THE BAG BECAUSE OF HIS HUNGER FOR A MYSTERIOUS TREASURE. HE KILLS THE COW BECAUSE OF HIS UNYIELDING HUNGER.

HE TRIED TO TALK ABOUT THE WIND BAG AT THE START OF THE CIRCE SAGA BUT ODYSSEUS WOULDN’T HEAR HIM. HE HAS LIVED WITH THAT GUILT FOR THE ENTIRE TIME.

HE WAS NOT HYPOCRITICAL FOR BEING MAD AT ODYSSEUS FOR SACRIFICING 6 MEN BECAUSE EVEN THO HE WANTED TO SACRIFICE THE MEN TO CIRCE, ODYSSEUS TEACHES HIM THAT THEY MUST FIGHT. SURE NOT ALL OF THEM WILL SURVIVE BUT THEY MUST TRY NONETHELESS. SO ODYSSEUS CHOOSING NOT TO SAVE THEM WAS THE PROBLEM. THEY PROBABLY WOULD HAVE DIED REGARDLESS BUT IT WAS THE FACT THAT THEIR DEATHS WERE PLANNED AND THEY WERE PURPOSELY SACRIFICED THAT EURYLOCHUS WAS ANNOYED AT. HE WAS PISSED THAT ODY HAD TAUGHT HIM TO BE BETTER AND THEN ODY CHOSE TO BE WORSE.

There’s something terribly poetic in the inevitability of events in EPIC. The choices Odysseus is given lead to no win situations. They aren’t really choices at all.

Kill a foe’s child or witness the death of your own. Sacrifice six men or sacrifice them all. Allow your crew to starve or watch as they slaughter sacred cattle.

Sacrifice your friends, your brothers, or give up your last chance at reaching home.

In the end, the result is always the same. He destroys himself

Listen, I understand why people are upset with Eurylochus (Epic). I get it! He makes choices that damn the entire crew, questions Odysseus when he shouldn't, etc. He's easy to blame.

But can you blame him? For opening the bag a god had given them when all the last god did was drown hundreds of their men? For being afraid on Circe's island and wanting so desperately to just go home? For being angry when the man who is known for his intelligence, who REFUSED to leave behind a single man, who SAID THAT NO ONE ELSE WOULD DIE, then sacrificed 6 men? Six people you've fought beside for a decade in a ruthless war and survived every battle, problem, and smite the gods had sent?

Can you blame him for his hunger?

part of what makes tragedies tragic is the story being preventable from the outside but unpreventable from the inside

Together they shine ✨