The Makoto Scene That Hit Close Home To Me

The Makoto scene that hit close home to me

Disclaimer: This post contains spoilers for “Danganronpa: Trigger Happy Havoc” and “Danganronpa 3: End of Hope’s Peak High School”. This post also speaks about suicide and death in general, so be careful if you’re sensitive.

A couple of days ago, while watching Danganronpa content to feed my new hyperfixation, I came across a specific video which was titled “Despair Naegi”

Having watched Danganronpa the animation fully, this clip caught my interest as in both the game and the anime, Makoto never falls into despair. So I wanted to check if this was a real thing (I am one who watches a lot of spoilers lmao) and indeed: it was real.

For context, this was the video.

https://youtu.be/dFL3CO0BV6Q

(If you don’t want to watch “Danganronpa 3: End of Hope’s Peak High School spoilers” then just keep scrolling and ignore it.)

And I watched it. And I’m not sure if I regret it or not, but I am sure of one fact: it broke me.

Not only seeing Makoto being faced by the ghosts of his dead classmates on his despair brainwashing video, but also seeing him falling to despair and grabbing a knife, seeing suicide as his only way out (by following the voices in his brainwashed state, which tell him to join his dead friends; they tell him that’s the way), that’s something a lot of us can relate there, those who struggle with suicidal thoughts and just like Naegi, fall into despair and see to take away their lives as their only way out of their current situation.

Sure, on my way.

He’s determined, he’s about to do it, and he doesn’t think it twice until the knife he’s grabbing is thrown away by Juzo Sakakura grabs him and by force he gets Makoto out of his despairful state, with the latter finally reconsidering it when he’s stopped.

Juzo then tells something to Makoto which has a strong message behind those words, in my opinion.

You’re the man who defeated Junko Enoshima… If you think I’m gonna let you kill yourself, you’re dumber than you look! Hear me ya little punk?! Not now… not ever!

Those lines can be interpreted as he’s saying “you have done some truly amazing things in your life, you really can do great things, and you’re just gonna throw it all overboard? No. I’m not gonna let you do that. I know it’s hard right now, but you can overcome this, come on. This is not the way out. It will never be the way out"

Sakakura is telling the boy to not give up, to continue… to not lose hope. Let’s not forget, Makoto Naegi has the title of Ultimate Hope, but this just shows how like everyone else, Naegi is one person who can break down when put on a situation where things are so stressful and horrible, that you can only see to take out your life as your only way out, losing all hope in the process.

Is at these moments where it’s crucial to have someone to stop us from doing that, to remind you that there can be a way out and you must keep hope that you will be able to get out of that hazy abyss of despair you’re in.

Believe me, having someone to stop you and make you rethink your choices and reorganize your thoughts, show you some care and support when you most need it, it can be such a helpful thing for someone who battles with suicidal thoughts.

In my personal experience… I wish I had someone to tell me to keep hope when I was struggling a couple of years ago.

TRIGGER WARNING: SPECIFIC MENTIONS OF SUICIDE ATTEMPTS ARE GONNA BE MENTIONED.

I’ve… tried to kill myself twice. Life was being really bad for me during the pandemic, and I lost all hope of things getting better. I was tired of everything and I tried to put an end to it, August of 2020. It didn’t work, somehow the pills didn’t have an effect on me and I only got to get stomach-sick. And nothing else.

When my parents got to know, instead of asking why, of supporting me, they were mad at me. They said “don’t do something so stupid ever again” and it made me feel ashamed. I also got assigned a therapist (but it didn’t help much in the end) and again during 2021 (can’t remember specific date) I drank (a shot? idk, it wasn’t even a glass or half a glass but it wasn’t just a sip either) bleach. Somehow… nothing happened? Yeah. Nothing happened. Absolutely nothing.

Remember when on my “Public apology to Nagito Komaeda” I mentioned I was somewhat of a “lucky” person myself too…? Well, here’s pretty much the reason of why I said that… haha… hah… okay it’s probably not funny, sorry. But you can’t deny it, I lived out of pure luck.

I haven’t tried anything like that ever since. And most of the time, I’ve felt better. I’ve been better. My life has been pretty better ever since, and I also have a better therapist now who has helped me a lot during these times… but sometimes I fall into the abyss again, and the thoughts once more plague my mind. 

Not so long ago, actually. During the end of the semester, I was so stressed and emotionally drained after also dealing with a couple of fucked up situations with people I used to call my friends, my mind felt hazy and when I tried looking at the future, trying to give myself some hope that everything would be okay… I didn’t see anything. I saw no future for me. Only the dark hazy consuming my mind.

I was losing all of my hope again.

But this time fortunately I had people to tell me to not give up. That I’d find a way out of everything, and that I would be fine. So I just had to keep my hope and keep pushing through until I could see the light.

I could say I had my own Juzo to snap me out of my own despair. 

And, curiously, while I was struggling with my thoughts again, is when I came across with this video. And it really broke me, I felt like the message was directed to me. And it motivated me to keep pushing through, and here I am today! I found my way out and things are okay again. I’m glad I didn’t give up this time.

What I’m saying is, all of us can be there at least once, in Makoto’s place. And if you are there, please seek for someone to pull you out of your own despair, or if you know someone who is struggling, please help them, give them a little of hope that things will be okay. 

Because things are okay in the end.

I promise they are. And they will be okay, as long as you always have hope.

Beatriz Aqueveque Henríquez.

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