That Didnt Happen, Of Course. Things Never Happened The Way I Imagined Them.

“That didn’t happen, of course. Things never happened the way I imagined them.”

— John Green, Paper Towns

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for a sketch of your muse!

notes - an interesting person at the starlight path!

Kayneth's not sure if it's a good thing to see Reines here- He'd never been much of a family man- not that he didn't want to be, and not that he hadn't cared about his niece, but what time did he have to simply exist like that? The demands of lordship had stripped him of any semblance of normalcy, and as it seemed, the same was true of her. Maybe she was always this way- he'd never really stopped to notice. What he does notice is that she's older, now. He'd been away for a long time, or perhaps dead for a long time- or time had passed differently in this place.

Something told him that he had died. He was fated for something like that, fragile artist's heart that he was.

He should've been there, and instead he rushed off to war. So, what is he supposed to say to her? Sorry I never had time to spend with you? No, that would be too soft, and he had learned to lock that part of himself away long ago. Or, it was easy to lie to himself like that.

It made him more of a mage to be heartless. Someone had told her that, too- because they had both been children once upon a time. He should've stopped for a moment to look back. Especially after she'd been taken in as a sister. He'd seen that as a rather political move, because mages hadn't the slightest clue on how to give a damn about family.

If he'd chosen his artist's path, then ...

No point on dwelling on things from the past like that.

❝ I do hope this place has kept you entertained. ❞ Distant, but not cruel. He has no need to be that way to her. He's simply forgotten warmth.

Better to keep things as they always had been.

❲ @princesselmelloi ❳

kayneth el melloi archibald

prodigy mage of clocktower ⎛ for real! he's noted to be the greatest of his generation, but no one actually addresses this properly so its my job now ⎠

also an incredibly talented artist ⎛ thats ALSO canon and no one addressed it so its my sacred duty to unleash "da vinci level paintings and michaelangelo level sculpture" kayneth on everyone ⎠

⎛ accel zero kayneth vc ⎠whats with that accent? he ❲ waver ❳ sounds like a country bumpkin ... sir you have no place to talk, country bumpkin says the scotsman

he does believe in the seelie and unseelie courts and is the arthur conan doyle post no one beat him up about this because man's 6' and he hauls large carving stones ⎛ often marble ⎠ from the mineralogy department as he is its lord and they cant stop him

master of diarmuid in the fourth grail war ⎛ he's bisexual and couldn't figure out how to approach the situation and it went to absolute shit ⎠

bad at expressing emotions because he's clearly been raised to be "perfect" and it's done nothing for his mental health

a great teacher but a strict teacher and that doesn't work for everyone ⎛ especially if your name's waver velvet ⎠

in the world's worst arranged marriage ⎛ and doesn't know how to leave it, because he's in so much denial that he's being abused on any level??? but it's very clear and also canon that he is suffering that!!! ⎠ and needs to be with literally anyone who isn't sola ui

proud of his magecraft so he's not handling this situation great, but at least he still can do art!

if he tries, he can get along with people, and maybe in a not toxic environment ⎛ mage life ⎠ he will get to relax a little and his mental health will get better

he looks stressed but he's actually 28 ⎛ also canon ⎠

whats that one quote "hes lonely, i think. lonelier than he thinks he is" or something because that sure is exactly whats going on and kayneth has no coping skills

kayneth vc this isn't what volumen hydragyrum is used for ⎛ see: kept abilities ⎠

You’re so delicious as a concept, but as a real person I worry for you

Thanks

tags post

the painter holds the universe in his mind and in his hands ⎛ meta analysis ⎠

i am here to live out loud! ⎛ insp ⎠

it's art!!! ⎛ out ⎠