I Didn't Want To Be Part Of This

I didn't want to be part of this

I didn't want to join. I didn't want to be here.

I was doing better.it was stable enough, it wasn't going away but it wasn't getting worse. I was coping. I was finding ways to enjoy my time while I had it. I was okay.

I didn't want to join. Why would ANYONE want to join.

I can't breathe.i feel sick. I don't want to be here

// truce //

Hey Dusty,

Chin up man, you got this okay? You aren’t alone. You have people here to support you, to be with you through it. We’re going to find a solution to this. Let’s look towards the sky together okay? Not the trees, not the endless tunnels and unsure trails. Let’s look towards the sky, that’s where our hope is.

-Todd

....hey dude

Thanks. Seriously you reaching out like that means a lot; sorry it...took a minute haha.

And..sorry for freaking out. It's just frustrating, and scary, and.. it feels fuckin hopeless.

I know you're right though. You gotta be.

Thank you Todd, I'll try.

You're a really good friend

Gig went great!

you’ve tried hating yourself and it’s gotten you nowhere; try loving yourself and see what happens