Thinking Several Thoughts. I Need To Be Put Down.

thinking several thoughts…. i need to be put down.

sub!ellie + knife play (but it's that pocket knife she always carries around) would be insanityyyyy

a/n: first try at writing a knife play blurb.. my condolences if it's booty water.. warnings: consenting knife play (duh), cutting, drawing blood, subtle threats, allusion to clit stim. please proceed with caution. mdni.

i think the nuance in using her pocket knife instead of any other one is that it is unique to ellie; bound to her, therefore always lingering in her pocket. how this changes the game of blood and blade, lies in the introduction. being on top of ellie; eg. straddling, hovering, keeping her under you at all costs, her attention tip-toeing on broken glass, and her waist bare. of course, ordering her to watch you prudently retreieve it from that back pocket of hers is a part of the play. the cautious speeds remind her of a predator. she loves it.

the cold steel only ever caresses her abdomen. limning journies around her navel in search of a spot—a sensitive spot that makes her shiver. anxious. you tip the blade into an inclined part of her stomach that sucks in as it meets; ellie becomes frightened there, stifled there. practically every inhale was met with pressure from the blade. her eyelids slam shut, lips shape around a gasp, and it invokes you. her delicateness drives you up the wall. vulgar temptation.

“hey—look at me,” you ask firmly, stilling the blade on her stomach. it begins a rapid rise and fall of threatened breaths when she restores eye contact. she feels faint, decrepit of air; her adrenaline is swelled. ellie digs into the sheets when you reiterate, “'nough of that, yeah? you know what happens when you close your eyes, right baby?” and it sends a gulp hurling down her precious throat, front of it bobbing—a knowing gulp. blood has penetrated your desire, and her knife goes fufilling it. “seems you do. be a good girl and stay still then.”

your voice was too angel-sweet for you to be pressing the blade in and stinging her with pain. sacred pain her lips press into a strong line for. “fuck!” she releases in a whispered blurt, teeth bared, tears threatening to trickle. one does, and you lift her chin with the knife to inspect, glass-eyed glances darting around your face for something—approval, or validation, anything. ellie hopes you notice how fucking wet it made her. poor clit rubbing on your inattentive thigh, you just have to.

“liked that, huh?” the question is given immediate nods, the eager, freckled girl under you tasting her own tear as she grins. it drops when slow scraping and a lift of her panty waistband intrigues her to look. you have noticed. “want them on your hips, ellie? maybe—right next to that pretty pussy?” the idea excites her. it's almost as if her thighs just blossom open on their own; imploring you to engrave, and satiate that annoying throb.

went to a brat rave the other day….

hello… again..

hey people… lowkey want to start writing? question mark? so i am accepting requests as of now! probably only small drabbles, headcanons, that sort of thing nothing too long. i really only will be writing for ellie, fluff and smut (maybe angst if im strong enough)! i do prefer sub!ellie so keep that in mind while sending smut requests, open to subtop!ellie as well:))

sub…ellie….nnngghhh

also won’t write any weird age play shit, incest/step-cest, non-con, threesome things with ellie and other tlou characters (sorryyyy not my thing☹️)

thank yew!

take on me is a regular song that plays on the radio at my job and it always without fail makes me think of ellie and dina and it makes me want to d*e

ballo… i’ve gotten two requests and i started writing both of them and immediately lost any type of capacity to write them because one. i’ve never written before and two! i lose motivation with something so fast if im not immediately good at it soooo yeah

will hopefully get back to writing them one day 🫡 (sorry to the people who requested those…)

🎶✨when u get this, list 5 songs u like to listen to, publish. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (positivity is cool)🎶✨

OHHHH YEAH MUSIC!!! (gonna be real im too lazy to send this to 10 people… but im sending it in spirit 🫶🏻) okay i’m going to be real ive only been listening to charli on repeat non stop ever since brat came out😭

i’m going to cheat just a LITTLE bit because i genuinely need to talk about my favorite songs on brat and also other songs ive been listening to on top of that.

1. BRAT BRAT BRAT! my favs have to be guess, spring breakers, talk talk, b2b, club classics, sympathy is a knife, everything is romantic MAN LIKE EVERY SONG IS SO GOOD (except mean girls. i’m sorry but i find it so corny and just… not good! i’m not a fan personally 😬)

2. juna by clairo. no need for an explanation. thank you!

3. a certain someone by the sundays i looveeeee the sundays so freaking much i could talk about them forever

4. slow like honey by fiona apple ooo ooo oooooo i love you fiona apple so much

5. AGAIN BY ALICE IN CHAINS. THE TATTOO OF PAIN MIX. 😩😩

okay i want to add more so desperately but ill stop there… heh! i just realized i didnt add alex g. i love alex g okay listen to every single song by him thats my last recommendation thank you! THANK YOU POOKUMS FOR SENDING THIS my lovely best friend thank you mwah mwah