FUCK

FUCK

(i just finished the magnus archives)

(this show has obliterated me)

(thank you all for having me while i go jump off a fucking cliff)

tim stoker ghostwrote this

depression is over it’s done it is obliterated look at this fucking shirt i found at the thrift near my house

oh my god oh my god oh my god oh my fucking god

i do not know what is going to happen to me in the next twenty-five minutes

I won't ever forgive Johnny Sims for the decisions that he made for episodes 161 and 162. It was genius and absolutely gut wrenching.

Back in the first few seasons, when we first started listening to the podcast, we were not that invested in the characters yet- Tim, Sasha and Martin only started appearing on tape midway through season one. They all had little tid bits here and there, and both Martin and Sasha had what- A single episode or two dedicated to them?

So, losing Sasha back then was not as devastating as it could have been. We did not know her as a person. We did not get the time to be attached to the characters yet. Her death's purpose, for us, was to cement the actual horror of the podcast, the fact that a person believed to be part of the main cast had simply died, in a situation she could not have prevented- Her death set the stakes, as well as introduced the Not!Them properly to us.

By the time we lost Tim, we only remembered him as a bitter and angry man. We had spent the majority of the show with a Tim that had fallen into a deep, deep depression, and that version of Tim is the version we knew. Once again, his cheery attitude was only there during season 1 and the few times we'd hear him in season 2, and even then the bitterness had started to settle.

Now, as we listened to the first two episodes of season 5, bracing for the worst, bracing for the apocalypse and the screams of terror and yells and arguments, we instead get hit with Jon's Birthday tape from before the show even started. We listen as we get to hear Sasha and Tim again at the same time Jon does, we then get insights on how they were as people, how happy they used to be, their goals, their ambitions, their relationship and friendship and how it could have grown, and we mourn them.

Now that we are fully invested into the show, we are forced to go through the grief we had managed to avoid the first time around. We are forced to mourn Sasha, to wish she had stuck around, to wish we had more time to simply know her.

We are forced to mourn Tim, his pre-depression self, we wish it could have gone differently, that he had appeared on tape just a little more.

It's just that, a gut-punch, a "Hah, you thought you were safe four seasons ago? Back when you first lost Sasha? Well fuck you, cry now. Realize. Bitch."

God I love this show

SO I'M ON TMAGP 8 RIGHT

is it... is it our gerry???? is it gERRY??? IS IT OUR DEAR BOY GERRY???

he sure does sound a bit way too cheerful but uh, i guess now that everything's alright it's time for some painting?

ALSO IF IT'S GERTRUDE I HAVE OH SO MANY FUCKING QUESTIONS BECAUSE THE PAUSE THAT LADY MADE AFTER BEING ASKED ABOUT THE MAGNUS INSTITUTE WAS A BIT TOO SUSPICIOUS DON'T YOU THINK HUH

when the fandom is so small that everybody knows everybody