It's Like You Ripped The Thoughts From My Head

it's like you ripped the thoughts from my head

I wanna smoke a cigarette. I wanna cut. I wanna kill myself. I wanna starve. Everything I want rn is self destruction.

ok so I am very stressed and sad atm and there are so many maladaptive coping mechanisms I reaaaaly would like to use but now that I am an adult (as opposed to being a teenager) they just seem like embarrassing??? and 100% objectively that is a good thing because SH or taking too many of my meds or punching the wall so much I break my hand are all very bad ideas and anything that makes me not do them is a good thing BUTTTT I really want to. again, ik wanting to do these things is stupid and its a very good thing that I am not going to, but ughhh I wish I was just a teen who didn't have any self preservation instincts and didn't care if I lived or died and could just do something dumb and at least feel better for a few minutes

ppl on here get sooo mad when someone says you should be a little bit grateful for lgbt allies like sorry but i have homophobic overbearing parents & im used to people thinking gays are freaks and “groomers” so the concept of “cishet people who are willing to ally themselves with the lgbt liberation movement” is something i dont think ill ever take for granted. but thats just me i guess idk. yeah its praising the bare minimum but receiving the bare minimum allyship is a blessing when im used to deeply entrenched homophobia. i’d rather shit talk the people who actually want me dead instead of the cishets showing up at pride to day drink with drag queens. what does ridiculing them do except ruin the vibe :|

They don't want a scientist who makes educated guesses. They want someone who sounds authoritative to confirm the assumptions that they already have.

boygenius, The Gorge 2023