I'm Not Dead! And I Have Returned With Content As Promised Like, 4 Months Ago . Anyway, Currently Going

I'm not dead! And I have returned with content as promised like, 4 months ago 😭. Anyway, currently going feral over Mikasa. So here I am. Being a massive simp. But also throwing angst in there because who am I if I don't add at least a little bit of angst?

Lmk if anyone wants a part 2. I would be more than happy to continue this bc I kinda lost motivation at the end 😭

Genre: angst

Warning: unrequited love, unofficial eremika, jealousy, mentions of suicide, reader being a massive simp basically, early season 1 Eren

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What's so special?

“Ereh” I hear from the table next to me “you need to eat”. Everyone's in mess hall eating dinner and, as always, Mikasa is right by Eren’s side. She's trying to convince him to eat because he's not eating, for whatever reason. Not that I care. What does she see in him anyway?

“why? What's the point?” exactly. What's the point in her wasting her time on you? All you do is complain. Whereas I appreciate the time she gives me. I give her something worth her while. I don't complain about every little thing. I don't complain about how I will kill every living titan. I don't complain about-

“hellooo? Earth to [name]?”

“huh? Oh, Sasha. When did you get here?”

“not long ago, can I have your bread? You haven't eaten it” Sasha’s expression is slightly terrifying

“sure” I slide my plate of bread to Sasha, causing said girl to gasp

“bye!” Sasha runs off to a different with the plate of bread

“bye-”

“Ereh, please. You need to eat”

“for the last time, I'm not eating! Is it that hard for you to understand?”

“...sorry..” Mikasa says quietly. She turns her solemn gaze from Eren to the table, hair in front of her eyes “I'm going to the toilet” she says, barely audible. But I can hear it. Unlike Eren. If he can hear her, he hasn't acknowledged it.

I'd be a way better partner than Eren. My last name even sounds better than his. “Mikasa L/N”. That sounds way better than “Mikasa Yeager”.

It hurts me to see her spend so much time on someone who doesn't appreciate everything she does. Does Eren not realise that he has one of, if not, the strongest person in the training corp under his belt? Willing to die for him if it came to it? Willing to kill herself if he so much as to suggest it.

What am I talking about? He clearly doesn't. If he did, he’d appreciate Mikasa like I do. Like she deserves.

Speaking of Mikasa, maybe I should check on her.

If you support gay marriage reblog this. If you're on the homophobic side, keep scrolling.

As a bisexual, it sickens me that some people WILL keep scrolling.

Don't ever hesitate. Reblog this. TUMBLR RULE. When you see it, REBLOG IT.

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