Sometimes Ill See Someone Talking About How Fat Theyve Gotten And I Kinda Roll My Eyes And Think, Oh

Sometimes I’ll see someone talking about how fat they’ve gotten and I kinda roll my eyes and think, “Oh that’s HARDLY eve-“ and then it hits me like a train that I have put on so much weight that it makes others’ weight gains look small in comparison.

I’ve been thinking about how inconsistent I am at gaining, I think the reality of it is that I am a low maintenance gainer. All it would take is an in person encourager to just tell me I ought to get fatter, and I’d probably do the rest myself. The thing is I think I’m just not a ZERO maintenance gainer. People online can tell me I look good, but with my paranoia that rarely happens anymore. I really would just like an in-person feeder. Like a nice lady who knows how to make art, who can really tell me what she likes best about me while she watches me wolf down the dinner I’ve made. Whatever. This is getting to full of “wishful thinking” type crap, which tends to annoy me- especially when I’m doing it. I don’t like people thinking I’m needy or something. I just want to get fatter, and I want to share it with someone who can appreciate it!

250 lbs.

So I’m 250 now. Great. I’m actually a little over now. It’s kinda cool how quickly I gained it all, a little spooky. I’m just not feeling it. I just kinda want to lose weight again.

I mean, if you want to stay active while gaining you could essentially just constantly dirty-bulk.

Oh crap! Just realized that virtual-collector-blaze is GONE! His YouTube channel (Adrien S) is gone too! Dang. That truly is a SHAME. He is one of the few gainer guys I’d actually keep up with. Good luck on your next iteration man, if you ever decide to return let me know! Kinda sad. Like I know I’ve deleted everything before, I’ve seen others do it too, but for some reason this time it actually makes me legitimately disappointed. 😆

I’ve just had around 3000 extra calories of granola bar. I’m tempted to keep pushing myself, but last time I did I ended up frowing up-plus I need some sleep. Maybe tomorrow I can have a nice big lunch and scatter the other 1800 calories throughout the day.

Actually surprised how easy it is to hold down granola bars as opposed to pie.