Lost In Thoughts

“lost in thoughts”

The torn bond of friendship

The silence between us every time we meet makes my heart ache.

You avert your gaze just so you don't have to look me in the eye. I know that you don't hate me. But to be honest, I'd rather have your hate than your pity.

You wish things had gone differently. But I can't change for you the way you would like me to. Nevertheless, you are important to me.

(You always will be.)

[I tried to put myself in his shoes and that's how these few lines came about. The background in the illustration is a photo I took, it's the view from my window.]

The artist's commentary – psychological aspect/my two cents…

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Nobody is perfect, no human being is.

Especially not adolescent teenagers who literally have almost no idea about life. Who lack empathy, compassion, maturity, experience and so many other things. All of us have certainly lost a friend at some point in our childhood or adolescence. Close friendships at a young age and the experiences associated with them can have a strong influence on our behavior later in life. All of a person's first intensive relationships with family, friends, etc., whether positive or negative, shape their world view and character immensely.

We can't expect a young person to be flawless and perfect. Maturity comes with years and experience. It is not uncommon for children and youth to be self-centered and egocentric, but that does not make them bad people. To a certain extent, selfishness is even important. As we grow up, we learn to act autonomously, make decisions and form our own opinions. It is clear that we can make mistakes during this process and possibly hurt others. We all make mistakes on our journey through life, that is part of growing up. That is a part of this life.

I have to remind myself each time that they were practically still children as at that time.

Sorry for my poor English, it’s not my native language. I do my best though. Thanks for reading 🖤

(Additional edit 10.02.2024 Tumblr confuses me a little bit, i was wondering why my previous image lost it’s quality after uploading. It took me too long to draw and i need to show the details. Anyways for better detailed view -> I’ve split the artwork. 😌)

Everything feels new and unfamiliar here, I have no idea how Tumblr works and I hardly use social media. I usually just draw for myself without sharing the drawings online. Still, I've been thinking for a while about maybe starting an art blog dedicated entirely to my most favorite character of all time, Severus Snape. It's mostly sketches and small drawings, hope you like them too. Thanks for stopping by ❤️

Me and who? (*´꒳`*)💖

My brain is on crack right now. 😂 I know it’s an old meme but hey, why shouldn’t I tell my dudes that it is Wednesday?

Why 100 Points you ask? Because he can. The Head of Slytherin House has spoken.

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Thank you so much dear Julia, you’re so sweet. I’m very grateful for your heartwarming words. 🌸🤍

I had to listen to the song straight away and it's really beautiful. (♡•͈ 𓎺 •͈ )

I'm really glad I could make you smile. I know you are going through a very difficult time and I really hope that despite the constant darkness that surrounds you at the moment, you can still experience many beautiful moments of light every day. There are so many people who love and care for you and are happy that you are there. ˗ˋˏ ♡ ˎˊ˗

I'm sending you a big hug. You are beautiful, inside and out. And a unique and incredibly strong woman, never forget that.

From the bottom of my heart, Ellie 💌

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“To you, my heart I surrender…”

“And I can't count the times, I stayed awake pretending you were mine…” (“My heart I surrender” by I Prevail)

About one year ago, I decided to give tumblr a go for the first time in my life. With my “old” age of almost 40 years, I was afraid of being a grandma in this whole social networking thing. But, damn, I would have never expected, what I’ve actually found here, in our beloved Snapedom: I found the kindest, sweetest and most understanding people, which I would never thought, they’d exist! I found friends!

For more than 20 years, I only lived my immutable love for Severus Snape in my own heart, mind and home. But since I decided to share my thoughts, my sorrows and my devotion to my precious dungeon bat on my blog, I got overwhelmed by the positivity and interest people offered to me.

One of these lovely souls is my friend @exlibrisseverus. Ellie, you surprised me with this beautiful artwork of Severus and my OC Jules and I can’t stress enough, how grateful I am for your friendly gesture. I love the way, you made the love and trust between these two tormented souls become palpable. And OH…MY…GOSH, his cute ass makes me want to squeeze, pinch and bite it all at once! 🫠😅

Ellie, please take my apologies for this uncommonly short post of mine, but I’m struggling a lot with typing and accepting screen time, lately (yep…ME/CFS is a bitch 🥺). Nevertheless, I wanted to thank you for everything and share this mesmerising piece of art with the community of Snapedom… my safe space!

🖤Severus & Jules🖤

🖤Sevy & Jules🖤