Sooo, I Made This Fanart Of Sebastian From Stardew Valley Recently. I Wanted To Add More Detail To His

Sooo, I made this fanart of Sebastian from Stardew valley recently. I wanted to add more detail to his design and lean into alt-fashion a bit if that makes sense? Wasn't sure what his eye color was based on the sprite so I used grey to add contrast and match the background. My friend said I made him more emo and I love it.

So I tried to message someone and that won't even work- what the hell is going on.

Anyone else not being able to comment?

For like, the past month or so whenever I try to comment it doens't send or just doesn't show up and I tried it on my phone and got this!

Any of ya'll know what to do? I keep trying to comment and it won't send or anything.

Some old art

So, I realized, I don't think I ever posted finished art on this account, I might've posted this on another older account, not sure, but I felt like posting some art since I've been down lately.

I made this back in like, December, January, some time around that, it took me a long time since I get putting down my art and shit and I haven't been feeling great this last year or so, and tbh, my obsessions and interests are the only thing keeping my head above water rn. But I really liked this piece, I was trying to recreate a manga panel from Your Lie In April whilst trying to add a background, the background was completely unplanned and mostly just there to cover up the fact I had made his hand too big, but I like how it turned out, at the time I didn't do much gouache work and the background was completely in gouache, so I consider it a win. Here's the panel I tried to recreate:

Me when I load up tumblr and I see you all just be cool and sweet and I feel welcome in the fandom:

I tried pour painting

My friend gave me a set of old pour paints and silicon oil to use, I've never done pour painting, so this was a first, and even though it was an ugly work to some, I think it felt very freeing to make something not for the look, but the feel, after months of depression and recovery it felt freeing to make this.

I started out trying to make it pretty and aesthetic, a purple and black and white piece of art to gaze at and talk about, nothing more. But as I went on I added acrylic paint, I stored, I tried different things, and I think I reflected on myself while doing so: I used to never show unfinished work, I never showed my mistakes, my fuck ups, I hid them behind walls of insecurity. My life has always been bordered by darkness, a frame around my life that I couldn't overlook. Swirls of red rage and blue sadness blended, emotions always mixing, filling with greyness and numbness. But amongst those swirls were streaks of white and gold. Gold that reached out and broke the borders of darkness, piercing, daring to be seen, not drowned in the gloss of paints. This determination and ambition couldn't drown within me. But even amongst that hope still was darkness, some things don't go away, they just get smaller. I filled that darkness with light, and within that light I would still find darkness, but it kept growing smaller, smaller, till the white and black mixed and became something I could live with the ups and downs.

Then, when I turned my back to wash my hands, watching the grey paint on my fingers go down the drain, staining my finger tips, my carelessness had smeared the center and the border.. and yet, I wasn't mad, the opposite really. The gradient mix of the light and dark felt truer to me, this accident later changing my perspective on something is not the first or last of many accidents that have changed my life, and that's beautiful. As I painted I listened to Solas by Jamie Duffy, the quiet opening that turned into swelling almost enchanting middle, to a quiet, reflective end was enough for me to change a silent painting session where I just played with paints to a reflection of my life over the past few years. A painting that came from a gift, a surprise, something I hadn't known but was given also gave me this freedom that I had been building for months, to sometimes, not care about the here or now, the future and past, but to let paint hit the canvas, carve into the mountains of paint, and just feel it, I saw myself, a reflect, no matter how ugly it may be, because my soul doesn't have to be pretty for others, it is mine and I will love it as mine.

Can I get your guy's input?

Okay, so I've been rewatching bits and pieces of big hero 6 the series after litteral years of not watching it and I wanted to ask; what's ya'lls opinion of Karmi? I think on paper or in concept she'd be interesting and someone I might relate to, someone interested in bio-tech/virology and is a smart female character who gets obsessive with her interests (from what I can pick up on and read from the wiki's) and struggles with social interactions. I think in story her role is meant to be a rivals/enemies to lovers (I know it'd likely be more rivals but I bring up enemies for a specific point later) type arc with Hiro, and a female character in a similar situation to Hiro in which challenges/apposes Hiro but ultimately grow to get along, but I'm not very fond of her in practice. I related to her yet was annoyed by her as a child, but looking back on her she makes me a bit uncomfortable. This isn't to hate on people who like Hiro x Karmi or the character herself, but I think she just irks me slightly. I was reading some people thoughts on her and the whole fanfiction aspect, while it could've been cute, jsut feels creepy to me, I understand that people like to write self insert stuff irl, and I used to have self insert stuff on this blog and I like reading self insert stuff, BUT WITH FICTIONAL CHARACTERS. And in universe, Karmi is writing about Hiro's alter ego/superhero form, who in her universe is a real person, though they're both fictional to us, they're real to each other because it's a story. (Though that's a tangent). My point with this is that from what I can tell it makes Hiro uncomfortable but his discomfort is played off/disregarded) There's also the added bit that Karmi repeated harasses/bullies Hiro in his civilian form and it irks me a bit. There can be good bullies to lovers type stories but to me, this reads off as it's meant to be endearing when it really isn't in my opinion. I've had similar situations happen to me in terms of bullying and it just is kind of upsetting to me. Going beyond that, I've foudn other posters (Which I'll link below) that talk about how Karmi acts with Hiro's alter ego, and how it comes off as kind of stalker-ish, which is another nail in the coffin for me, Karmi is repeatedly harassing and bullying Hiro in school then fawns over and sort of stalks is Hiro form while writing self insert fanfic that makes Hiro uncomfortable, while also insinuating Hiro has a crush on her in school when he doesn't and he seems uncomfortable. This feels less like academic rivals to or even enemies to lovers, because enemies generally mutually hate each other/have some form of equal footing, but this just seems like Hiro's a victim of bullying, harassment, and some stalker-ish tendencies from Karmi. I'm not super far into my re-watch of the series because I don't have much time due to end-of-the-school-year stuff and the fact Karmi just makes me not want to watch the show that much, but I kind of wanted to get feedback from other fans of BH6 as to Karmi's character and the Hiro x Karmi ship, I'm not trying to attack anyone, but I jsut find Karmi uncomfortable. While I think media can explore uncomfortable/dark/toxic ships and themes, I think with how the show treats Karmi as endearing and how the characters around her justify this behavior (from what I've noticed, like I said I haven't finished re-watching the show and I'm mostly going off of other fan's opinions I've noticed) I just think Karmi as a character is someone who in concept could've bene interesting, but in practice is somewhat damaging since I believe she makes Hiro a victim of harassment yet is played to be endearing/cute. Hiro honestly needs some friends his age and a god damn better romantic life in my opinion. (I know the show has ended already and this may be old news but I don't interact with fandom that much so far and I just wanna know if I'm insane on this take or not).

BH6 is repeatedly praised for it's deep messages with grief and I think that a series that had a target demographic of children and teens should be careful with this type of messaging, I really don't think Hiro and Karmi's ship/'romance' would survive if they were genderbent or if the people behind the show cared to realize Karmi's behavior isn't healthy. Here's some other people's takes I found on this that I think support this line of thinking. https://www.tumblr.com/rintotherinrin/752020470653648896/my-personal-beliefs-on-why-hiro-is-a-victim?source=share https://www.tumblr.com/insanely-creative-things/624822928012443648/everything-wrong-with-karmi-and-why-its-a-problem?source=share