Okay, I've Posted A Lot More Today Then I Have In This Entire Accounts Existence So Far, But I'm Just

Okay, I've posted a lot more today then I have in this entire accounts existence so far, but I'm just very happy.

I don't heavily interact with fandom that much nowadays because I'm busy and people scare me but I've found some cool people in the BH6 fandom so what was shaping up to be a horrible day today (I wasn't feeling great this morning) has actually gone lovely.

And if it wasn't already apparent, I love BH6. But I wanted to share this personal connection I have with the movie specifically; so currently, I am very close in age to Hiro, so when the movie came out I was really young, and before I first watched the movie, I was kinda internally misogynistic (I'm genderfluid but was born female and grew up around a lot of boys and had trouble connecting with girls due to my lack of social cue understanding) so I told myself I couldn't watch big hero 6 because the boys liked it and I was too masc to be a girl and too fem to be a boy. I told myself that BH6 was something not for me.

Buttt that changed when the movie was on cable and I watched it and was so fascinated by the robots and Hiro. Hiro was a character I connected to in a way I didn't quite understand at the time (later in realizing it was gender envy and the grief/depression themes later relating to my tween years). I loved seeing Baymax, the bot fights and the microbots, at the time I was already vaguely interested in science, but I think this move solidified my interest in robots.

I think the coolest thing with this is that next year I'm going to a public, specialized science and math school for highschool aged teens to focus on a career path in STEAM kind of like SFIT (but instead of college it's a highschool) which I think is just so cool how this movie put me on my current path while also helping me tackle internalized biases against myself and later on cope with mental illness.

Sometimes movies can have the largest impact on our lives, now I build robots, am learning to code, read science fiction, and want to make robots like Baymax to help people with medical conditions that prevent people from taking care of themselves (it is my ultimate dream to make a robot like Baymax).

Making robots has been my lifeline during some very hard points, and so has animated films, so BH6 helped me during some dark points and helped inspire my desire to make robots to further medicine and help people.

All that is to say, thank you Big Hero 6 for setting me down a path of science, robotics, determination, and challenging little me's beliefs about what I could watch and what I could be. I wouldn't be here without ya.

Love y'all, thanks for reading my ramble -Professional yapper/chatterbox, Feral/Raine

So I just realized I rebloged this- What. I did not know I could reblog my own stuff, I would delete this since it's exactly the same as the original, but it already has quite a few notes, welp. Notes are notes.

Sooo, I made this fanart of Sebastian from Stardew valley recently. I wanted to add more detail to his design and lean into alt-fashion a bit if that makes sense? Wasn't sure what his eye color was based on the sprite so I used grey to add contrast and match the background. My friend said I made him more emo and I love it.

Can I get your guy's input?

Okay, so I've been rewatching bits and pieces of big hero 6 the series after litteral years of not watching it and I wanted to ask; what's ya'lls opinion of Karmi? I think on paper or in concept she'd be interesting and someone I might relate to, someone interested in bio-tech/virology and is a smart female character who gets obsessive with her interests (from what I can pick up on and read from the wiki's) and struggles with social interactions. I think in story her role is meant to be a rivals/enemies to lovers (I know it'd likely be more rivals but I bring up enemies for a specific point later) type arc with Hiro, and a female character in a similar situation to Hiro in which challenges/apposes Hiro but ultimately grow to get along, but I'm not very fond of her in practice. I related to her yet was annoyed by her as a child, but looking back on her she makes me a bit uncomfortable. This isn't to hate on people who like Hiro x Karmi or the character herself, but I think she just irks me slightly. I was reading some people thoughts on her and the whole fanfiction aspect, while it could've been cute, jsut feels creepy to me, I understand that people like to write self insert stuff irl, and I used to have self insert stuff on this blog and I like reading self insert stuff, BUT WITH FICTIONAL CHARACTERS. And in universe, Karmi is writing about Hiro's alter ego/superhero form, who in her universe is a real person, though they're both fictional to us, they're real to each other because it's a story. (Though that's a tangent). My point with this is that from what I can tell it makes Hiro uncomfortable but his discomfort is played off/disregarded) There's also the added bit that Karmi repeated harasses/bullies Hiro in his civilian form and it irks me a bit. There can be good bullies to lovers type stories but to me, this reads off as it's meant to be endearing when it really isn't in my opinion. I've had similar situations happen to me in terms of bullying and it just is kind of upsetting to me. Going beyond that, I've foudn other posters (Which I'll link below) that talk about how Karmi acts with Hiro's alter ego, and how it comes off as kind of stalker-ish, which is another nail in the coffin for me, Karmi is repeatedly harassing and bullying Hiro in school then fawns over and sort of stalks is Hiro form while writing self insert fanfic that makes Hiro uncomfortable, while also insinuating Hiro has a crush on her in school when he doesn't and he seems uncomfortable. This feels less like academic rivals to or even enemies to lovers, because enemies generally mutually hate each other/have some form of equal footing, but this just seems like Hiro's a victim of bullying, harassment, and some stalker-ish tendencies from Karmi. I'm not super far into my re-watch of the series because I don't have much time due to end-of-the-school-year stuff and the fact Karmi just makes me not want to watch the show that much, but I kind of wanted to get feedback from other fans of BH6 as to Karmi's character and the Hiro x Karmi ship, I'm not trying to attack anyone, but I jsut find Karmi uncomfortable. While I think media can explore uncomfortable/dark/toxic ships and themes, I think with how the show treats Karmi as endearing and how the characters around her justify this behavior (from what I've noticed, like I said I haven't finished re-watching the show and I'm mostly going off of other fan's opinions I've noticed) I just think Karmi as a character is someone who in concept could've bene interesting, but in practice is somewhat damaging since I believe she makes Hiro a victim of harassment yet is played to be endearing/cute. Hiro honestly needs some friends his age and a god damn better romantic life in my opinion. (I know the show has ended already and this may be old news but I don't interact with fandom that much so far and I just wanna know if I'm insane on this take or not).

BH6 is repeatedly praised for it's deep messages with grief and I think that a series that had a target demographic of children and teens should be careful with this type of messaging, I really don't think Hiro and Karmi's ship/'romance' would survive if they were genderbent or if the people behind the show cared to realize Karmi's behavior isn't healthy. Here's some other people's takes I found on this that I think support this line of thinking. https://www.tumblr.com/rintotherinrin/752020470653648896/my-personal-beliefs-on-why-hiro-is-a-victim?source=share https://www.tumblr.com/insanely-creative-things/624822928012443648/everything-wrong-with-karmi-and-why-its-a-problem?source=share

I made some comments on these that apparently didn't send, but I agree, I think that some more artistic geniuses should be appreciated. I think part of it comes down to as you mentioned, art being subjective. But I also do think there are some great examples in fiction of artistic geniuses.

My go-to character for this is probably Kousei Arima from Your Lie In April. He's a genius pianist who after his mother's death loses the ability to hear the music he plays and struggles to deal with his trauma with piano's and the idea of performing as a whole. It's a beautiful story about grief, loss, personal identity, reinvention, trauma, and depression as this teenaged boy tries to explore himself and learn who he is, what he is, and learn to perform once more, despite his challenges with his music he is still very much regarded as a genius or at the very least gifted kid by multible characters and his genius and skill is a central theme as he explores that along side the grief and healing.

You mentioned you like Hiro Hamada, and while Kousei Arima is a vastly different character (I'd say much more meek and polite than Hiro) Kousei has the similarity of grief and personal identity as well as healing in his character arch, but there's enough differences that they do feel distinctive as characters. I enjoy both characters a lot and heavily relate to them.

Though I will note while Kousei is a pianist and by nature artistic, he does have a little bit more of an analytical nature while analyzing the pieces he plays and listens to, he's still definitely more artistic and poetic (he has multiple inner monologues that feel very poetic and artistic to me). I think Kousei is an interesting take on an artist as he is still artistic and a genius, he also has an analytical attitude towards a lot of things (which I think is really cool! as an artist, poet, and writer as well as someone who's done robotics for multiple years at their school and is going to start school at a specialized STEM school come fall, it's very, very frustrating to me when people separate the arts from STEM and thing creativity and analytic types are mutually exclusive, since in many ways some of the most scientific people I've met are also some of the most artistic.)

I've already yapped a lot, but essentially, try looking at the musical prodigy characters and some other artistic characters, they might be coded as geniuses but not perceived a lot as them (especially in anime and manga! I've seen a decent amount of artist characters that are very much coded with gifted kid/genius energy to them). I think Your Lie In April is a good example of this, I'd recommend the manga heavily (the anime is mostly faithful buttt it does miss out on some of the emotional heart and isn't as clear with Kousei's crush which is a central theme, but the anime is great with how accurate it is to real people playing instruments due to the fact they had real people play the pieces and traced over their fingers to understand how to animate the quick precise movements!)

If you do decide to read/watch Your Lie In April, please be warned the story is VERY heavy, and has themes of abuse, neglect, depression, grief, and self-identity, as well as illness, and ends in a tragedy. The story is a bit frustrating with the romances inside of it, but it's purposeful as the tragedy comes from the interpersonal relationships and the character's minds, if you're not a fan of love triangles it may not be for you, but said love triangles are in service of the story, not against it!

(Also side note: though the left and right brain phrase is good at communicating your thoughts in this, I would like to bring up the fact that the left and right brain concepts have been debunked as pseudoscience/inaccurate to how the brain really works, both sides of the brain are active most of the time unless there is major brain damage, there isn't a dominant side as both work together to get almost every task done.

Sources:

https://health.clevelandclinic.org/left-brain-vs-right-brain

https://www.health.harvard.edu/blog/right-brainleft-brain-right-2017082512222

https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/321037#studies

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/the-athletes-way/201712/left-brain-right-brain-study-debunks-decades-old-neuromyth )

(BTW, if you do see this, feel free to DM me! I love talking about geniuses/gifted kids in media as I'm someone who grew up being labeled as such and identify with a lot of characters called said labels. And if you do decide to watch/read Your Lie In April, tell me about it! I'd love to hear your thoughts :D)

-Feral/Raine

I wish we had more right-brained kid geniuses in media. All geniuses in media are geniuses in a math or science or just left-brained way, ESPECIALLY the kid geniuses. Don’t get me wrong, I still love the math whizz trope, Hiro Hamada is one of my favorite characters of all time!, I just would like someone to be “The greatest potter” or “the best poet” and like secretly be twelve or something. It would be fun haha! Maybe ppl don’t really do that because art is subjective where maths just aren’t yk? Still, fun concept tho!

AP Human Geo

Okay, I know I had a post about analyzing San Fransokyo using AP Human Geo concepts, and I'll make more of those later, but the AP scores for this year came out today and I got a 4/5! Holy shit- I honnestly thought I'd get a 2, cause like, I took an AP course, a college course, in 8th grade, at fucking 14 years old, that's amazing, that's great, like, I wasn't expecting that. I love human geography, but AP grading is kinda rigged/unfair sometimes, like, you can answer something completely correctly and still get it wrong because of the phrasing, so I'm happy I did well. I don't know, jsut wanted to share some thoughts, I'm not feeling great mentally, just kinda floating through my days lately, but it was a pleasant little surprise, I still feel kinda just "Eh" but it could be worse, I could've gotten a 1-2 (especially considering AP human geo had a high amount of students with a 1 this year).

So I tried to message someone and that won't even work- what the hell is going on.

Anyone else not being able to comment?

For like, the past month or so whenever I try to comment it doens't send or just doesn't show up and I tried it on my phone and got this!

Any of ya'll know what to do? I keep trying to comment and it won't send or anything.