Yes!! I Want To Meet Someone New Or Even Just To Talk To Somebody!

Yes!! I want to meet someone new or even just to talk to somebody!😭

The panic over COVID-19 causing people to hoard shit unnecessarily means I can't find medical supplies (like disinfecting alcohol wipes) without paying an obnoxiously exorbitant amount.

Generally healthy, able-bodied people don't need masks, exam gloves, or alcohol swabs to protect themselves against COVID-19. But chronically ill people and their caretakers do need those supplies to live their everyday lives.

Calm the fuck down and wash your fucking hands, ableds.

So you didn’t know…they’re seeing each other.

I am struggling. And I mean really struggling to allow my self the freedom or worth to do anything for myself..... Wait that's wrong. Right now as I'm typing this, I'm sitting on my couch with thoughts running through my head over and over and over again.

Thoughts of whether or not I'll pass my Road Test in a few weeks, thoughts of fear and panic taking over my body as I prepare for my Road Test and plain old thoughts of actually achieving something that I've been working on 7 years of completing.

I'm scared.

There I said it. I'm scared. I'm scared of letting myself down all over again. I'm scared of letting those around me down. I'm scared of failing at another thing in my life. I'm scared of allowing myself to finally achieve ONE goal in my life. I'm scared of allowing myself a sense of satisfaction of being 23 and becoming one step closer to my OWN independence.

I'm scared; OF FINALLY BEING MY OWN PERSON AGAIN.

I've gone so long hiding in the shadows and taking care of those around me that I've forgotten how to do anything for MYSELF. It's almost like it psychically pains me to do EVEN ONE thing for MYSELF.

Am I FOREVER to be the woman in background?

Why do I feel so empty?