The Entire Time I Colored This, All I Could Think About Is Tiktok. How Much I "needed" To Just "watch

The entire time I colored this, all I could think about is tiktok. How much I "needed" to just "watch a few videos, maybe something important will come up" or "I need to check on so and so". I don't need tiktok. That is a statement I both believe and argue against with seemingly my whole being. I can spend hours, scrolling, mindless absorbing... Something? There are times I couldn't tell you what the video I just watched was about. I couldn't tell you if it was man or woman. Child or adult. Hell, if they were even human. Tiktok is a constant stream of dopamine that I LOVE. I hate it. I hate how much I love it. I love how much I hate it. It always goes the same way. First, feel good videos. Cute kitties, good tunes, pretty makeup. Then slowly but surely triggering videos, people stating opinions like facts, politics. It slowly pulls out the worse side of me, suddenly I'm saying things that maybe I don't necessarily mean, or if I do the limited chat box restricts what I want to say, altering the meaning all together. Suddenly all the videos make me angry, or sad. I keep scrolling, trying to find the feel good videos again but there's not any. Just video after video of muck.

Idk why this particular picture jumped out to me. Maybe because it looks like it telling me to stop. Take a minute to myself and not some social media app. Maybe the (now) colorful seems inviting and pull me away from tiktok, away from drama that doesn't really matter, it doesn't affect my life.

This is a reminder to stop, and take a minute for yourself. Reconnect with who you are, and who you are working on being. Don't let the outside voices tell you who you are or should be. Follow what brings you peace. In my case. Coloring.

Plant of the Day

Tuesday 27 August 2024

The entrance to Inverness Botanic Garden has recently been landscaped with a great plant association of Liatris spicata (button snakewort, dense blazing star, Kansas gayfeather) and Liatris spicata 'Alba' with a groundcover, beneath these upright perennials, of Ajuga reptans 'Burgundy Glow' (bugle). Both species grow best in moist but well–drained soil with Liatris spicata needing a sunny location.

Jill Raggett

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