Me In A Nutshell

Me in a nutshell

List of MaDD Things I do

I feel like I'm constantly invalidating me and my MaDD. It feels like my experience with daydreaming inherently differentiates from the experiences of other maladaptive daydreamers. I hate that I'm doubting myself so much so in order to fix that I will write about specific things regarding my MaDD that I haven't really seen anywhere else here on Tumblr or other social media platforms.

First of all, I do suspect that I might be neurodivergent. I currently have no way of getting a diagnosis but I have done a lot of research which lead me to the conclusion that it is highly possible I have ADHD. I felt the need to say this because I think some things I'll mention will correspond to my neurodivergent tendencies.

Here's my list of unusual things I do in order to daydream/while daydreaming:

I can't focus enough to properly daydream in my everyday life because of noises or people talking in the background

because of that I prefer to daydream right before sleeping

the room or space that I'm daydreaming in has to either be completely silent or play music without lyrics (preferably classical music)

I lie completely still most of the time to be able to fully concentrate on my scenario or paracosm

since I practically cannot daydream throughout the day I often distract myself with literally anything

that is mostly tiktok, tumblr, youtube, netflix, homework, or any type of media/activity I can indulge in to forget my need to daydream

I get quite a lot of intrusive daydreams where a possible outcome of the situation or event I'm currently in just starts sort of manifesting in my head and I have to stop myself from continuing that daydream (these scenarios are often very unlike to actually happen and mostly consist of me getting hurt, accidents or other unpleasant stuff)

I have exactly one (1) distinct memory of me daydreaming similarly to maladaptive daydreaming as a child leading me to believe that it had just recently started developing (probably during the pandemic)

I'm aroace and had a lot of difficulties coming to terms with me being aromantic, so most of my daydreams/scenarios/paracoms include a lot romance with f.e. a parame to cope with that

All in all Maladaptive Daydreaming is my biggest comfort and NO.1 coping mechanism •°. *࿐

MaDD, the non-romanticized version, part 1.

when your brain is so burnt out that your daydreams stop and you suddenly are taken back to reality and feel completely empty and unfulfilled.

just nat vibing to ‘cheap thrills’ by sia

commission for @/blackwidowcos on instagram🧡

riddle me this

why is it when a new supernatural drama comes out every 2 minutes with straight white leads reviewers call it fun and sexy but when a new supernatural drama comes with a wlw plot line with a black non stereoytpical protagonist suddenly the trope is tired and boring?

im so fucking tired of this shit.

and im just gonna say this too:

if it was two white leads half the hot takes about “ poor representation of sapphic media” would be non existient cause not one thinkpiece i’ve seen has been groundbreaking

stop invalidating people, start validating them!

use whatever the fuck terms you want!

use xenogenders, use microlabels, use neopronouns! who cares! it isnt hurting anyone.

so what if your gender/orientation/pronouns/whatever is weird or "cringe"? its yours! you can describe yourself however the fuck you want

(Anti xeno/anti neos/anti microlabels/anti mogai and other bigots dni.)

Clint could’ve jumped off vormir tbh. If you had to choose between THE BLACK WIDOW or Hawkeye to live I’m pretty sure a good 90% of us would’ve chose black widow. Hawkeye is my nigga and all but the team could’ve survived without him.